touched down at the brisbane air port at 9.20. however the queues were so long that it took me an hour to clear customs and get my baggage. my luggage case weighed 23kg!! unbelievably heavy..not that i brought a lot of stuff....flight was uneventful. i got a window seat, no one beside me. caught several shows on the plane: an episode of sex in the city, miss congenialty 2 (switched movie after half an hour), my bf is type B (fell alseep wile watching it) and the wedding date. oh i liked the wedding date.. slept for 1 or 2 hours. i was flipping around struggling to get maximum leg room, and my butt ached from the hard seat.

brisbane is not cold. 20 deg. it's like having free air cold conditioning everywhere. bro said today is like the hottest day in winter. oh well. i wouldnt mind if it stays this way.

i'm so tired..i desperately need to sleep but bro is sleeping and his room mate is watching tv. that leaves me no room to take a nap.. sigh...

sabbatical

cos i'm leaving on a jet plane.. dont know when i'll be back again..

flight is 12am today! destination: brisbane. dont miss me! will be back on the 16th!

will miss you dearie, jia you for your bball games in kL and hK.. i'll see you when you're back on the 18th! muacks. n dun worry, your girl here will take care of herself.. :)

pics from my phone

finally managed to upload all the images from my phone to the com!!!


a picture of a picture..taken at cartel tampines.. some people thought i took a real picture of the scenery, despite the words "enjoy it"..



toilet at clarke quay..


memorial


guess?


reflection upon the mirror


very clear right? taken at the communic asia exhibition


our booth


starwars


motorcar


the innocent and the punk..hahA..shopping at taka..


at club momo..

what are you?

heard something interesting over the radio yesterday. xin li che yan.

1. when you come home from work, which shoe do you take off first? the left or the right one?
2. when you come home from work, which piece of clothing do you take off first? the upper body one or the lower body one?

soooo....
1. right foot: in love, you're the zhu dong kind. meaning you take initiative, so usually, you end up liking your partner more than he liking you.
left foot: you're BEI DONG. you take more than you give. you wait. so usually your partner likes you more than you like him.

2. upper body: conservative on the bed.
lower body: more..adventurous on the bed.

accurate?

hmm not really for me.

my maria

random pic

lala

the pains of inadequacy

met up with my ex rgs classmates today. one from nus medicine, dad is a private surgeon. just returned from a tour in europe. another reading law in cambridge, both parents are dentists. the third: engineering in imperial. heard she top her cohort. and the last, nus life sciences, poor grades, broke and has never stepped foot in europe before.

that's me.

sigh.

sometimes i got to remind myself that not being able to go abroad to study, is not because i'm any lousier, but because i'm not born with a silver spoon in my mouth. and of course also because i'm not superbly smart enough to get a scholarship.

alright i'm complaining. think abt the poor kids in africa who has no food to eat.. think about the child workers in china.. yadayada..

but i cant help but feel that life is so UNFAIR SOMETIMES. damn it. why cant i buy anything i like without having to worry about money? why cant i go to places like london and paris and japan? why cant i go overseas and study what i really want to study? why cant i have my own car? why why why..

i know it's not so bad. i'm having fun in nus. really i am. and it's not like i'm poor till the point i have to pick peanuts on the streets. just that occasionally, i want more. just that occasionally, i wish for more.

dont we all?


lunch at crystal jade..friends forever!


me and teresa

topicless

hmm don't seem to have much to blog these days. spent the day at dear's place, watched monster-in-law on vcd. not too bad. went city hall then to get hard disk from han fai, which my bro had instructed me to bring it over to aust for him, tgr with his snooker cue, mahjong set and tom yam myojo maggi mee. my bro is sooooooooo troublesome. i have to hand carry the snooker cue cos it's too long and it'll break if i put it into my luggage! -_-

met joel for dinner. he was dressed in some brown jungle t shirt and hideously short hot pants! hahaha. oops. :x ok we had a nice dinner at sakae sushi. talked. hah alright take care guy.. run more.. heh.. and are you sure i've grown fatter???

my day

havent blogged for some days cos there was some prob with my internet connection. extremely frustrating. and my lappie is totally bonkers. sigh. i am not fated to use electronic devices. one thing i have to congratulate myself is that i havent bought ANYTHING yet.. for a week plus? i havent gotten any clothes from the mango sale though i've spotted several good buys. managed to restrain myself from those luring temptations..those lovely tops screaming at me,"hey i'm half price! buy me now!". sigh. painful though. haha. but i must say that one thing that aid me in my determination were the long long long queues, for both the fitting rooms and cashier. and the crowds..it's like a wet market lar.. sigh. i hate waiting.

guess i shouldnt spend, since i'm probably gonna spend a bomb in aussie.

speaking of which, i'm leaving on wed night, 12am, SQ. with a pair of hideous looking glasses, with 2 cracks in one of the lenses. my lenses would take at least 2 weeks to be done, so i figured there isn't much point getting a new pair now.

spent a happy day with dear today. lazing around at home and then heading down to town. he bought himself a nice pair of levis jeans. :)

club momo

liwern, moi and liz

Went club momo on wed night with liwern and liz, my great Eusoffian girlfriends! Seeing them for first time this hols. According to liz who has been working there this hols, club momo is opened by dennis keller and robin leong. Supposedly a lot of celebs visit the pub during weekends. *shrugs* club momo is the previous SOS, with different décor style..nicer I would say. They have a section of the pub called momo live, where there is a live band playing every night.

Got bored after a while at club momo, and club hopped to zouk. Phuture was PACKED to the max, as usual. Even at 3am.

First time i went clubbing after like.. 2 months? record manz. haha. kind of lost touch already.

china face

it has been confirmed! i'm going aussie on the 29th next wed! will be going brisbane first to meet my bro, and then head down to sydney with his friends on the 6th. they will be driving down. cool. :) looking forward to it. it's winter time there.

worked for mum today. took a cab home after that. the taxi driver said i looked like a china woman! he didnt mistaken me for one cos i obviously sound like a typical singaporean. not the first time someone has commented that i look china-girl-rish. blame it on my features..small eyes..fair complexion.. sigh.. i cant exactly take that as a compliment. whatever larr!

the cab driver started chatting with my mum about china women preying on old men and he himself has had many experiences falling target to them. said these zhong guo nu ren are money suckers, cheat old men of their money.. these old men arent dumb, but are merely lonely.. they are exchanging money in return for some comfort and company in life.. because at that age, their wives are mostly preoccupied with taking care of their grandchildren and children, and not too concerned about entertaining their husbands. so once they are able to withdraw their retirement money from their cpf accounts, they spent it on other women, who can fill some sort of emptiness in them. sad isnt it.. those times we see old ocuples walking hand in hand on the streets.. is that scene a one in a million rarity?

box you

my whole body feels sooo sore after the workout today. i used to be fitter. hmm.

attended bodycombat class.. kick boxing in other words. kick boxing class is a pretty intensive sport ya, there was a lot of jumping and boxing around. i was dillgently trying to burn my calories, when i suddenly realised..how come it's raining in the studio huh?? i could feel small droplets of water sprinkling on me. i turned to my right and saw...there was this GUY beside me, who was glistening with sweat.. he was jumping around so vigourously that his sweat was raining on me! EEEK. ok lar, i know it wasnt his fault that he perspires a lot, but still..it was gross.

there was a notice pasted in the ladies' toilet.. "i lost a pair of red/white nike shoes last sat. they are a mother's day present from my children and they mean a lot to me. if you have taken them by mistaken, i would greatly appreciate it if you return them to me." oh no..so sad..! i hope whoever who took her shoes will return them to her. ahh she treasures her present from her children so much.. *heart warming*

inspired

read on the sunday times about this 22 yr old smu guy who invested in stocks, started out with $6000 and have $20,000 (or was it $200,000?) now. i presume he did it in a yr since you can only open a trading acc when you're 21. cool. inspired. i want to learn about stocks too! anyone know? can teach me? blahs~

DoCoMo

more pics from the exhibition..


me and angie..the information counter girls


the docomo girls


taken our booth..the guy is leon, the person in charge from our employment agency


darth vadar!!


he was weird..didnt even respond when i poked him..zx didnt take with him cos she found him scary..haha..


HAHhaa...can you see me holding the gun??

A date

finally got to see my dear dear after a week of intensive work! went suntec. ah never post any pics of him here cos he insisted that he looks ugly in all of them. oh well...... oh btw we watched batman begins and it was greaaatt! go catch it guys! worth every penny. :)

dinner

pizza hut feast

yuM yUm

car exhibition

pose-girl..if only the car was mine..


mitsubishi lancer..whoo hoo..

small boy boy

peeping into a make up class in session.. kpo me..inuovi.. hmm is that how it's spelled?

taken early in the morning, on the mrt..on our way to expo..

finale

exhibition over! kind of sad ya. today passed exceptionally fast. pretty much the same as the previous days. got asked to have photos taken quite a few times. i think one of the reason is that a lot of people think i'm jap. *shrug* i know.. i dont really look jap.. maybe it's the fair complexion.

had time to slack so chat quite a bit with those who had nothing better to do like me.. people like the security guard whose job was to make sure that all the phones are shipped back to japan safe and sound, the presenter who looks like 24 when he is actually 33 already, tomoko the docomo's press manager who told me that our recommendation to lau pak sat was good, the salesman from next door..

zx and i went walking around during our break.. and guess who we saw!! DARTH VADAR!!! hahaha. at the sony ericsson booth. so exciting!

had a qing gong yan at the end. everyone crowded around the stage. the docomo people in charge made a speech. cheers. drinks. followed by photo taking marathon. hey at the end of it, i really felt sad that this exhibition is over. had fun, learnt a lot, and the japs are actually such nice people. and all of us the girls are such good friends now. had dinner at cartel tampines mall.

anyway i'm really tired now.

i'm one eye missing, thanks to zx's fantastic camera skills.

yaya i'm in..

part and parcel

yet another day has passed. *phew* one more day to the end of the exhibition!! today was again relatively smooth sailing, no hiccups.

1. 2 bangladeshi men approached us for enquiries. they were decent looking businessmen, but one of them made me felt damn awkward, because as he was talking his face kept coming nearer and nearer to mine. and i kept backing away.. eh but he didnt mean anything lar. he was talking to me about him visiting docomo in tokyo.

2. angie and i were approached by this man who does businesses with pubs to hire girls/models for short events. hmm... expo seems like an easy place to get lobangs.

3. this happened yesterday. i gave a man a clipboard with our survey form and asked him if he would fill it up. i think he didnt understand what i was saying, because he put the clipboard tgr with the pen into his bag and walked away. *stunned*

4. one thing all the girls found out while working is that people are really tan xiao pian yi (cheapskate) in nature. they can queue up to fill up survey forms because they want the freebie we are giving away. some will come up and ask,"are you giving away anything?". sigh. after realising we are not giving away freebie after doing the survey, some will go like,"no freebie? waste my time." irritating!! gets on my nerves.

5. oh and we got asked to have our pics taken quite a few times. all the girls.

6. and another question most commonly directed to most girls is,"are you japanese?"

is it or is it not

hmm. does it make sense to like something that you're not particularly good in? like you like biology but you fail the paper all the time. like you like teaching but you dont like children. like you like writing but your language isn't exactly fantastic. like you like web designing but you know nuts about html.

if you like something, i guess you'll go all out to find out more about it, and be good at in naturally. if you dont bother to find out more about it, then i suppose you dont really like it that much.. SHI BU SHI??

tired

have plenty to write about today actually, but i'm feeling so tired right now.. heavy eyelids.. i can just lie on my bed and fall asleep immediately. *big yawn*

first day of the exhibition. everything went well. time passed pretty quickly. i enjoyed myself yea? although standing in that pair of shoes was killing. but being the girl at the information counter, i had the luxury of sitting on the chair sometimes.

interesting events: these 2 angmohs came to the counter to ask abt docomo, then.. "would you like to go for dinner with me after work so you can tell me more about docomo?"

-me- "i'm not really a staff of docomo, perhaps you would like to date one of docomo representatives here instead?"

"nah i think it would be better if you could tell us more about it."

-me- "i dont think so."

aiyo..those foreigners ah...

i got approached by one of the visitors to do freelance modelling too.

went shopping with zx after that. bought a silver belt, black bikini ($9 only!!!) and a pair of shades. blahs.

my wish list:
1. aldo stilettoes - $65, already on 50% discount. they are at least 4 inches high. beautiful..but practical? difficult to balance on the bus!
2. adidas greenie jacket - $129. think it looks nice with my jeans.
3. guess bag - $60? in search of a nicer bag..
4. ripple slippers - $10? is there a point in getting so many pairs of slippers?
5. chaos tube - $49. dont really wear tube that often.. but it's nice!

TIRED.

throbbing head

I woke up this morning feeling as if the whole world is spinning around me at 100km/h. I dragged myself out of bed, but after taking a few steps, I realized that I really must lie down. Imagine trying to walk when someone kept swinging your head back and fro. It felt HORRIBLE. On top of that I felt like puking..and I would have if there was something in my stomach. But since there wasnt any, I only managed to puke up saliva. Eek. Anyway I called up the people in charge to tell them how awful I was feeling, so maybe I can rest at home first and then make it down to Expo a while later when I feel better? I was so pissed because instead of expressing sympathy, they insisted that I go down, at least for the first few hours of the morning. The lady even said stuff like,"oh you know you're like a pleasant lady, with a nice smile.. We want you to be there.." I was like..huh??? Excuse me I'm sick, so what is the connection? I wanted to scream at her but I was too upset to do that. I know the Japanese are extremely concerned about attendance, but still? Is your job more important than my health??

So I made my way down anyway. No seats on the bus and mrt since it was peak hour. 8 am plus. Had to stand. BAD. It was like standing on a ship, feeling sea sick, or stuck in a car from Singapore to KL and suffering from car sickness.

I eventually reached Expo, after an hour odd journey. The agency people kept saying thank you thank you. "thank you for coming down hor.", "are you feeling better? We've got panadol for you.", "have you eaten? I go and buy bread for you?" zzzzz. Alright so maybe they aren't that mean after all. The girls expressed much concern too. They were like "what happened?", "Are you ok?", "you should get something to eat!". I was momentarily touched. Haha. I received much attention, and probably got asked "are you ok?" more than a dozen times today.

Training proceeded on. I'm in charge of the information counter with Angie. It's a small world out there because we realized we have many friends in common. I chose to work at the info counter, because otherwise I'll be in charge of demonstrations, and then probably would have to memorise a lot of technical terms and know how to explain the technology more explicitly. Turned out, my job isn't that easy after all. We have to serve drinks to the VIP. The Japanese are the most fastidious group of people I know. Irritating. When you serve them tea or coffee, the cup must be filled to approximately 60% full only. There is a certain position to place the cup, saucer, teaspoon, sugar and creamer when you serve coffee or tea, as in they must face the person in a certain direction. Zzzz. -_- coffee is just coffee..just drink lar! So ma fan. And yes, before we enter, we must knock twice, close door, bow, take orders, bow, bow before closing door, close door. Same procedures for serving drinks. Sigh.

Oh yes. Hand towels must be served as well. My god.

Angie and I had time to go explore the grounds. The exhibition is huge, occupying all 6 halls at expo. You guys should go take a look if you have the time. Will be much enlightened by the technology. It's opened only to trade visitors, but I guess if you have a name card, you can just register, get a pass and enter. Anyway the most exciting section is the handphones section. Samsung, LG, Motorola, Panasonic. Whoo hoo. They have really nice and huge booths. 2 stories somemore. There are even dancers hired by Panasonic to perform.

No wonder Japanese are such stressful people and they need to watch animes to de-stress. They take everything sooooooo seriously. The fact that they gave us 3 days of training says a lot. I suppose it's good to take your work seriously, and want everything to be perfect. But for such a chin cai person like me, I absolutely cant stand people who make a big fuss out of every single minute detail. Oh well, I just got to live with it for another 4 days. It's not so bad really. At the end of the day, we actually have a lot of fun.

I'm still having a headache... argh.. horrible..

one for all, all for one..

just completed 2 days of training for the exhibition over the weekend. the company i'm working for is called NTT DoCoMo, the largest mobile network provider in japan, 49 million subscribers out 87 million people in japan! promoting 3G phones and technology in singapore! you wouldnt believe how advanced the japanese tech is as compared to ours.. we are like stone age.. haha.. i mode - internet mobile service. i-motion - sending/downloading movie clips/video clips at speed up to 384kps. i-appli - using JAVA as the make up lang, can dl large scale games and play games like final fantasy.. i-mode felica - embedded chip in phone, so the phone can be used as EZ-link card, cash card, credit card, used for buying air or movie tickets.. oh not forgetting the phone can also be used as a remote control and key to ur apartment.. deco-mail - customise emails (font size, colour etc), chara-den (video conferencing, but you use a cartoon charater to represent you instead), chaku motion..

oops got carried away eh.. aiyoyooo.. when will such technology be brought over to singapore.. anyway i'm truly enlightened. i never knew a simple electronic device such as a mobile phone can have so many functions.

shall not go on any further. i'm getting rather sick of it. tired after a long day.

when i'm tired, i'm irritable, and unreasonable, and rude. sigh. went out with dear last night. i must admit i was ill-mannered, arrogant, and acting like a spoilt brat. haha. n i didnt give a damn. sigh. my bad my bad..

a week more of work to go...

the japanese are extremely particular about punctuality. starts at 10 means be ready at 9.55. be ready at 9.55 means the kan cheong people wants us to be there by 9.15. ...... ridiculous. i stay at bukit batok can! expo very far you knoww! .... just feel like complaining. I'm TIRED.

sleep with a smile

i'm feeling happy, and contented. :) things are going well for me. love life? check. good. we do get into petty sulking sessions occasionally, but things return to equilibrium pretty quickly too. studies? hols are in, sch is out. my results are only slightly better than last sem's. when i said slight i really mean slight. eh. hmm. but somehow that doesnt bother me much. actually, it doesnt bother me at all. haha. my results isn't good, isnt even average i think, a little less than that. but i admit, that's what i deserve. finances? i'm always down on that. but hey i've got a job coming up, so that should tide me over for a while. friends? havent been meeting up quite as frequently with them as i would wish to, but it's ok, i know they are there.. health? keeping in shape, cos i've been going gym often. arms and legs are aching from the workout just now.

i supposed getting selected contributed to the contentment i'm feeling. finally i have an idea where i'm heading. i've been trying to find myself. dying to find my niche, somewhere i belong. now i'm a bird, young and free to do anything i want. the sky is all mine, all options are open, i can do anythinggggggg i want. but i want to be a horse..with a goal in life.. and gallop towards it..

i dont know whether it's what i want. especially with my ultra short attention span. i dont even know whether it's for me. but that's life right, give everything a try ma? what have i got to lose.. if i realise at the end of it that it's not my cup of tea, then so be it. but i'll definitely learn something from it, so i wont considered it time wasted. at least it would have solved a question mark in me.

lala, haha only a few people would know what i'm talking about.. i want to buy heels, formal wear, a new pair of glasses, bag, underwear...

average

hmm. today turned out to be a not-too-bad day. accompanied sis to the clinic, then went west mall to have lunch with my parents and sis. mum finally bought a new phone for me!! i forgot the model number.. nokia 7230? 7260? sth like that.. the S shaped metallic phone. not too bad. i requested for a camera phone and i got it. BUT.. turned out i cant transfer pics to the com!!! the cable cost $88!!!!! MY GOD. sigh... sad :(! but anyway i've decided to buy the cable.. hopefully i can find a cheaper version of it...

next went to meet zx for shopping session. i was in the mood to buy things. but..didnt see anything that i was dying to buy. ended up buying an eye liner from body shop. will need it for the exhibition next week.

then dearie came at 5.45pm. hang around for a while, ate ice cream. he went off for his bball training, and i went california. exercise exercise..

n yes to you who know who you are. i was ridiculously happy when you bought me yan yan and made iced milo for me. haha. ok i know this sounds pretty silly. and yes not forgetting the fact you called me when you left your house, when you got caught in the rain, when you were going to play pool and when you were eating downstairs, in the short span of 4 hours. :)

money for her

i'm officially bored, while my bf is off at some person's place playing ps 2 and my good friend, jasmine sia is probably on her way to redang island (xia ri mo mo cha)! about to enjoy the hell out of her life for the next few days with her darling. *envious*

anyway i attended a really interesting camp over the past 2 days. enlightening, inspiring, enriching, and most of these were definitely not what i expected of it initially. cant even begin to explain what i've experienced in the 2 days. i gathered, some things must be felt, it cant be put down in words. it made me think a lot, reflect a lot about my life, my goals, my past, my parents, my friends... my mum especially..

thinking about how inconsiderate and selfish i was in the past, especially during my teenage years. me insisting on working at pizza hut..in retrospect, i dont think i'll let my daughter work at pizza hut at the age of 14 when i become a mother. coming home in the wee hours of the night.. going clubbing! there was once i got slapt by my dad when i came home at 3am after clubbing, stinking of cigratte smoke and alcohol. staying over at chalets with ah lians and ah bengs.. oh well of course they dont know who i hang out with.. i was stubborn beyond words. a rock. i want this means this. i wont budge no matter how you push me. (actually i'm still like that now..but i'm a lot more reasonable and sensible..) as long as i think what i'm doing is right, i dont care what you think, even if you dont understand, i dont give a damn. eh, rather disrespectful huh. i was such a selfish pig.. i thought i knew what i was doing. i always want things my own way. i placed my fun above all else. i had this mentality that i should play as hard as i can while young, with no consideration about how my parents would feel.

well i did know what i was doing. cos i emerged out from my teenage years pretty unblemished. hmm. i think so lar.

but i must have made my mum so upset..so many times..sigh.. *guilt guilt guilt*

anyway. move on. i'm 20. a grown up girl now. :)

money is something that i want, and i need, for survival.. but i dont need it excessively. i want, but i dont need. it's really not that important to me, you know. so many things come before money. my loved ones, experience, health, happiness. but i learnt something. money can enhance love. from a wise man,"money is like the appetitiser, something you can do without, but if you have it occasionally, you'll feel that the meal is especially delightful, and complete."

so i want to earn lots of money. so that my mum and dad wont have to work anymore. my mum is always telling me how much she would like to just stay at home and slack. be a housewife! but my dad never had the initative and ability to allow her such luxury.. so i want to earn lots of money. let her stay at home and shake leg, watch all those deary korean drama serials that she likes, go on holiday as often as she wants..

i want to live in a penthouse, with breathtaking sceneries of the city lights.. i want to go all parts of the world, to take a breath of air on the other side of the globe.. i want to do what i want, and not being burdened by money..

i want i want..

bday

celebrated eugene's 21st bday today! happy birthday eugene!

food at eugene's place

my cute bf with a pretty flower

beauty and the beast

huggies

cutsie

wo de zhe yi tian

anyway my day consists of going to the employment agency to sign contract for the exhibition. pay not as good as the previous one, but still..something is always better than nothing. oh yes thanks to zx, we got lost in the business district for close to 45 mins, walking under the hot scorching sun, sweating like mad, asked 3 people for directions, before we finally got to the agency. ok lar be fair, as much my fault as hers. i've been there before too. haha.

then we went scotts to have lunch. ba cuo mee and mango pudding for me. yi cum ban mian and soursop with LIME for zx. then shopping we went at far east. damn. so MUCH temptations. took every ounce of my energy to resist trying on outfits and buying stuff. especially those shining earrings! they look so elegant. sheesh. i think i must go back someday to buy them. lala. in the end my shopping list only consists of a pair of boxers for my dear, and a pair of huge round earrings for myself. $3.50 only..


spongebox and squarepants..cute right??


plain earrings

next was california fitness. lala. and then home sweet home. oh there was some singing competition held at youth park and cine. kpo me stood to watch 2 people sang.. a girl sang ting bu dao by liang jing ru. OK lar. she had a lot of supporters though. another guy sang shi jie mo ri by xin yue duan. gooood.. he was goood...

be angry will ya!

something zixuan said today struck me, and stuck by me until now. she said i'm a boh chup person by nature. doesnt mean i dont care about my family, my friends, my bf, my future, my studies..hmm ok i'm boh chup abt my studies.. anyway you get what i mean? i do care about the BIG and essential things in life, but i'm mostly unconcerned about small minor details that i feel arent important enough for me to place my attention on.

good and bad.

good cos..less wrinkles next time? you lost my top, yes i'll be miffed, but i can always buy another one. you scold me a goondu head, fine i'll be seething at first, but i know i'm good, so who cares what you think. you laugh at my ignorance, i admit i can be ignorant about certain affairs, but who knows everything. you hate my dress sense, but what the hell, i wear what i like! you're late for an hour, angry yes, but lost time is time lost, no point brooding over it, so why not get over it. you betrayed me, but hatred shortens my life, so i choose longevity over exuding negative energy. you insult me, let you say what you want lar, cant be bothered.

i thought i was being kuan rong da liang, haha, but others who dont know me as well mistaken it as nonchalence.

bad cos..yeah some people think i just dont care. it's weird. sometimes people are angry with me because they think i should be angry over the injustice done to me but the fact is..i'm not bothered by it? sorry? is it my fault that some things just dont bother me as much as you think they should? i mean.. come on.. get on with life. i cant pretend i'm angry when i'm not. everything you do, everything you say, it's ok..things pass..unless it gets unbearably annoying and out of hand.. when the bomb explodes, i'll give you a tight slap.

ok. this is getting weirder by the sec you must think. just the previous entry i was talking about how angry i was. haha. n now i'm talking about having a problem being angry. what is MY problem?

the problem is, sometimes you expect the people around you to be LIKE you. is it just a prob w me? or w most people in general? for example, when someone loses my top, i wont deem it as a big deal. vice versa, when i lose someone's top, i'll expect that person to take it as easy as i did. but if that person flares up and refuses to talk to me for days, i'll start thinking.."why is she so petty... it's just a top.. not like i really scolded her when she lost mine?". you get really angry when i was late for 10 mins.. "i didnt even complain when she was late for an hour, so why is she whinning like a sick kitten (wanted to say dog but it sounds crude) just cos i'm late for 10 mins??"

get what i mean. just random analogies, to make my point. do you term that as double standards? sth negative and morally incorrect. or is it just wrong to impose your standards on other people?

is pettiness really pettiness.. or is it just.. a difference in view points? something you deem as unimportant might weigh differently in the eyes of another.

have you lost you somewhere...

I ABSOLUTELY CANT STAND IT WHEN PPLE REFUSE TO LISTEN TO ME.

hey to understand a person, takes listening doesnt it. when you feel you dont agree with something, you voice out your opinions, and then the other party brings out his. then both of you seek to understand each other, see things from each other's point of view. come to a compromise. if you realised you're wrong, then you apologise. or perhaps you just never see things from that perspective before. that's how communication takes place. not you say your piece, when the other party starts talking, then you assumed everything she said is crap, and do the disappearing act. "everything she says is crap and i cant be bothered to listen or talk to her." problems dont solve themselves.

my mum told me that we should have big hearts. be da fang. and not argue over teensy-weensy things.

i'm fuming.

me cutting our photos

dear sleeping like a pig

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i watched starwars and bought a book today! i never ever buy books.. always thought buying books is a waste of money since most likely i'm only gonna read them once. but that book was like calling at me.. urging me to purchase it.. hahaa.. anyway i've mentioned it before, it's called diary of a manhatten call-girl by tracy quan. i know. it sounds bimbotic doesnt it. suits my mood these days. i've become addicted to this sort of books. anyway it's not actually that bad, it's said to be in the making into a tv series.. by the same creator of sex in the city.. so ya.. it's gonna be a hit one day.. haha. guess what..the first few pages of the book talks about a threesome..



anyway i've got confirmation on another job again! working at another exhibition held at expo from 14-17. there's actually a 3 days' training programe for us! promoting handphones for this very famous telecommunications company from japan. hope the pay is good.

every girl's dream

so which girl wouldnt like to posess beautiful clothes, carry designer bags, matching accessories, don daunting stilettoes, look all pretty and glamourous every sec, have all the money in the world to indulge in unlimited pedis and manis, spas, facials, money to shop till you drop, brains to impress upon others that she is not just another bimbo, enough wit to retort all crititisms from cynics.

just fantasizing..come to think of it..sometimes all these things just dont matter as much anymore..

the five people you would meet in heaven (assuming you go to heaven)

just finished reading the five people you meet in heave by mitch albom. great book. finished it in a day.

lessons learnt:
1. all lives intersect. different stories from different perspectives can mean very different endings.

"the human spirit knows, deep down that all lives intersect. death doesnt just take away someone, it misses someone else, n in that small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed"

2. sacrifices are not necessarily something to regret about, rather you're just passing the blessing to someone else.

3. what it seems, is rarely what it is. there is a story behind everyone unknown to others. hatred harms not those you hate, but those who hate. make peace with yourself.

4. love never cease to exist..even when the person dies.. it just takes on another form. lost love is still love...

5. everyone exists for a reason.. dont ever think you dont belong to this world.. that you dont fit in.. that your existence is redundant..

"i was sad because i didnt do anything with my life. i was nothing. i accomplished nothing. i was lost. i felt like i wasnt supposed to be there"

"children.. you keep them safe.. you make good for me.. is where you're supposed to be.."

death is not an ending, but a beginning. understand what has happened, why it happened.. understand your life.. the meaning of your existence, make peace with your life, and you're in heaven.