spring cleaning is a painful process. you end up digging out old teddy bears and greeting cards that you thought are destined for the garbage dump, but end up feeling nostalgic when you really set eyes on them and the memories come flooding back.
cant bear to throw them away. ooh well.
anyways, after some soul searching, i realised i may indeed be the petty one. i am the one who is narrow minded and inflexible.
what others want to do, i can't control. i only have control over myself.
dont stoop down to her level.
sigh, so perhaps i will try. MAYBE PERHAPS SEE HOW.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
you
i cant help it, i told myself to get over with it, but i'm still brooding over the incident.
i'm in a dilemma. my pride and stubbornness tell me that i have done nothing wrong; the problem isnt with me, the problem lies with her. i have no reason to compromise. i refuse to change.
deep down inside, i know that by doing nothing, the situation would simply remain stagnant. to be honest, i havent exactly been doing nothing. my indifference is something. my obvious nonchalance must surely have been felt. i know i have been silently provocative, yet feigning a perfectly innocent front.
but how do you expect me to be even decently polite to someone who has insulted me time and time again? how do you ask me to fend off accusations that hold so much bias, injustice and untruth? how do you tell me to stand someone, who in my opinion, is petty, narrow minded, snobbish, LOUD and so bloody insensitive and disrespectful?
respect has to be earned, not assumed. for someone who has robbed every shred of my dignity, she doesnt deserve my respect.
of all accusations, she hit one nail on the head: i dislike her, and she dislikes me.
i detest her for everything i have mentioned above. and most of all, i detest her for hurting you.
i admit i havent been trying. i dont feel like trying, and i dont want to try.
yes, i refuse.
the only reason i'm even considering, is because of you.
you are the only reason why i will consider casting away my dignity and my pride to try.
perhaps i will. but not right now, because i can still feel the salt on the wounds. because though i may be able to forgive, i wont be able to forget.
i'm in a dilemma. my pride and stubbornness tell me that i have done nothing wrong; the problem isnt with me, the problem lies with her. i have no reason to compromise. i refuse to change.
deep down inside, i know that by doing nothing, the situation would simply remain stagnant. to be honest, i havent exactly been doing nothing. my indifference is something. my obvious nonchalance must surely have been felt. i know i have been silently provocative, yet feigning a perfectly innocent front.
but how do you expect me to be even decently polite to someone who has insulted me time and time again? how do you ask me to fend off accusations that hold so much bias, injustice and untruth? how do you tell me to stand someone, who in my opinion, is petty, narrow minded, snobbish, LOUD and so bloody insensitive and disrespectful?
respect has to be earned, not assumed. for someone who has robbed every shred of my dignity, she doesnt deserve my respect.
of all accusations, she hit one nail on the head: i dislike her, and she dislikes me.
i detest her for everything i have mentioned above. and most of all, i detest her for hurting you.
i admit i havent been trying. i dont feel like trying, and i dont want to try.
yes, i refuse.
the only reason i'm even considering, is because of you.
you are the only reason why i will consider casting away my dignity and my pride to try.
perhaps i will. but not right now, because i can still feel the salt on the wounds. because though i may be able to forgive, i wont be able to forget.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
a bit more for bday..
great food at senso
lobster bisque
tay yiming and her fav pose again
tay yiming and her fav bday giftMonday, January 19, 2009
party at sentosa
attended cdm's 2nd anniversary party at sentosa, was great fun, especially with the freeflow of booze and food! :)
suntanning earlier in the day
the sun, the sand, the beach, and a mojito - this is what i call life!
caught a glimpse of songs of the sea going which was going on behind
pretty lights at sentosa
the party - us, ck and asterine
simply too much to drink! vodka redbull, gin tonic, beer, wine, food....
tay yiming's fav photo pose
cool ice sculptureMonday, January 05, 2009
the 24th
Dinner was held at Senso, a very nice italian restaurant at club street. according to mr bf, they serve the best italian food in singapore! yum yum.
my bestest girlfriends
the love of my life!thank you for the lovely pressie and for organising it all. muacks!
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