godfather

"Because they know that by tradition no Sicilian man can refuse a request on his daugther's wedding day. And no Sicilian ever lets a chance like that go by." - Micheal Corleone, The Godfather.

Haha no big deal about the quote, somehow it just stuck. Currently reading The Godfather. The book is a classic. Watched the movie about a month ago, reading it now makes me realise how much things i've actually missed out in the movie. you tend to miss out a lot on the siginificance of objects and people because there are just too many things to take in at one time. visually there are the characters' body lang, dressing, the setting, the props. apart from that you still have to juggle between making shrewd observations and concentrating on the exchanges between the characters. Seriously nothing can ever replace the essence of literature. how else can you know what the character is really thinking? only through words can one truly delve into the character of a person and comprehend the person's actions.

ANYWAY enough of this geekie talk. Bought a pair of couple rings with dear today! Nicey. :) i was acting like a siao za bor today again, mood swing here and there. i'm sorry dear. please bear with me!

prime

yipeee! my exams are finally over. :) freedom.

my day was an ordinary happy go-out day. met up with andre, who looked damn lok kok cos he was wearing his training clothes. hehe. first we had lunch at fish and co. SEAFOOD PLATTER. my fav. hmm yummies!! then we watched prime. the show was fine, not fantastic, but watchable. it was a little draggy at the beginning, so much so that both of us almost fell asleep cos we both started the day pretty early. the ending wasnt a typical fairytale one..it's bittersweet..and it reflects realism. maybe if you're planning to watch it, you shouldnt continue reading this, cos i might just spoil it for you.



--spoiler warning!!!
the show bascially revolves around a 37 yr old divorcee and a 23 yr old not-quite-yet-matured boy who fell in love with each other but had to deal with issues such as their enormous age gap, her non-jewish religion and also complicated by the fact that her shrink is his mum. the couple did managed to prove that they were really serious about each other and it wasnt just a short lived sexual attraction (though she did say that they have had sex at every surface area of the apartment..*raise eyebrow*). nonethless in the end she told him to go.."i love you, that's why i cant let you do this. you know it too..this isn't what you want.."

she wanted a baby and a family. he was a boy who still had a lot of growing up to do. she didnt want to hurry him. two roads heading in opposite directions. letting go was a wiser choice than sacrifices.

sometimes love just ain't enough. "relationships are work.."..sometimes you let the person go, precisely because you love him.

harry potter loved ginny, but he told him he couldnt be with her, because there were things he had to accomplish, and by persisting their relationship, he would only be endangering her life.

anyway i was bored, so i did a little research on the movie cos i was wondering why the movie was called 'prime'. this guy's opinion was that because the shrink said at one point of the movie, that both were at their sexual 'prime'. also.."might also be beneficial to consider that "prime" also means to prepare or become prepared for the future. If nothing else, this film shows how the characters develop and are changed by the unique relationship they have together"..

hmm. this is terribly interesting.

anyway other movies i want to catch in this hols:
1. pride and prejudice
2. harry potter!!
3. just like heaven
4. perhaps love - won the best foreign film in oscar's?? watched the thriller..it looked like a chinese version of moulin rouge. but urps..the singing was horrible..
5. oliver twist? but i think it's closing soon.
6. chicken little
7. the exorcism of emily rose

anyway..on another note..i didnt know the new revamped marina square had so many boutiques! i saw many that i have never seen before! maybe i'm just a mountain tortoise lar. but i didnt see any mango or zara..or did i just happen to miss it? ok remind me to go there and shop after exams, and that will be in another..22 hours and 20 mins' time!!! oh ya and i didnt know there was a new pub at heeren. hmm. i feel outdated.

ok

should be studying for my paper tmr, but i'm really feeling EXTREMELY bored. :( i'm already in the i-dont-really-give-a-damn mood.

met up with kenny, shiyuet, joel and joel's gf last night. well it was supposedly just the few of us, meeting up for dinner, or so i thought. turned out joel's bro was there as well, together with his whole bunch of guy friends.

kenny picked me up at 6.45pm, drove to marina square in his big mers, circled around the packed to the max car park for 20 mins, and ended up having to pay $2 for just circling around the car park. it's really dumb. why cant they just tell us the car park is full before we enter?? anyway due to kenny's excellent direction skills, we ended up in the SAME car park again but entering from another entrance. *groan* in the end, he parked at milenia walk car park where we managed to find a lot the minute we entered.

FINALly we reached carl junior where joel and the guys were. and great, he made us stand for 10 mins because there werent any seats available. sigh. the worse thing is none of the guys at the table offered to find seats for us, or give up their seats (after all, all of them were done with eating). am i expecting too much? *shrugs* still, amongst the 8-10 of them, none of them took the initiative..how UNGENTLEMANLY. ok. so maybe i'm just being a bit narrow. hah.

so after getting 'abandoned', kenny, shiyuet and i had our dinner at long john (go all the way to marina square to eat long john, sigh). joel and gf came after a while, talked a little, and off to cuppage sunlight plaza where the guys were singing ktv. anyway nothing eventful, we got there, the guys were happily singing away, kenny, shuyuet and i were bored so we left after like..15 mins.

all in all..it was..ok..actually a little disappointing..but still..it was an ok night. :)

me and kenny talked about a lot of things. it just make me realised how much everyone have grown. 5 yrs back, would we have talked about our futures, our wealth, the society, the world, the people around us, our loved ones, with the same perspectives as we did now? the fact is, we have all grown up and matured. we look further, think further, pry deeper into things and people. life is no longer just about playing and enjoying the moment. it's about securing a job, stability, the ability to provide and fulfill your material wants. it's about money, success, degree and status. it's about practicality and survival.

sometimes i wish i was just young and immature. then i wouldnt have to think so much.

my everything

"i was just thinking...there are so many things i want to do with you..."

the boy who says the dumbest things just to make me happy when i was throwing my tantrum around..
the boy who didnt grumble when he had to walk out under the hot, scorching sun to buy mee pok for me..
the boy who entertains my outrageous demands, my more-often-than-occasional bursts of insanity..

you're my sweetest boy..

i heart you..:)


love is in the air


i have everything..

ramblings

it's earrrly in the morning..but after having my beauty sleep interrupted by some untimely phone call *eh heeeem* from SOME pple, i couldnt go back to sleep already. made some coffee for myself.. i loveeeee coffee and i neeeeeeeed coffee to start off the day. realised shoonie doesnt drink hot coffee in the morning. so sad! it's like me not liking to take spicy food (but i still eat laksa and curry) and durian, missing out on the good stuff in life..

ok i'm talking a bit of nonsense here. because it's early, i'm bored, and i dont feel like studying..yet. anyway three papers down! one more to go! the worse is over. ok not really, next mon's paper is supposed to be the toughest. 40 mcq that make up 60% of the overall grade..each mcq = 1.5 %! we got a taste of the killer mcq questions set by the lecturers during mid term.. aiya.. do i care? haha.. i'm just glad i only have to shade the ovals, and not write long long long essays. gosh i'm becoming lazier and lazier.

meeting kenny and joel and joel's gf (i think) for dinner tonight. i'm SO glad i'm meeting them. *joel i hope you're reading this!* you're the most horrible friend i've ever known!! as quoted from kenny, "joel is dead whenever he has a gf..". sigh..i want my pasta (although it tasted..hmm hmm...), my brocooli soup and city space!! but i guess not..cos joel is dead!! :p i miss the times we hang out together.. :(.. i'm starting to feel friendless.. where are you my friends??


sisterhood


"black or not..i love you.."

maximum exertion

done with biostats. the questions were moderately challenging, but the main difficulty was to compete with time. 7 questions, 120 marks in 2 hours! i dont think anyone managed to complete the paper..from what i've heard..most people left like 20-30 marks undone. havent concentrated so hard on something in a long time.. oh well whatever.. the only thing i care about now is that it's over.

tues jap - 9am
wed lsm 2101 - 1pm
next mon lsm 2102 - 9am

one down, three more to go. *yawns*

after exams

after exams i'm going to..
1. go shopping
2. go sentosa
3. go ktv
4. go on a holiday..to anywhere..overseas..sentosa excluded..
5. finish watching feel 100% dvd, watch godfather (if andre ever remember to lend me), watch my spirited away dvd and others that i can find
6. read my bimbiotic story books
7. go clubbing..(did i mention i havent been to the new revamped zouk yet?? that just goes to show what a good girl i've been..hehe..)
8. cut my hair, hopefully i'm feeling rich, i can go perm it too..
9. make a new pair of specs..*extremely urgent*
10. think about how i should spend my 21st birthday..(it's coming!)

ok think i should stop here. i must remind myself exams are far from over yet.

..such bitterness

havent witnessed such bitterness in life for a long time..the lack of desire to live, the loss of hope in life, the disappointment in the loved ones around you...how can life ever come to such a state?? no one deserves to live like that.. but i do believe that you have control over your life...who else can take charge of it except yourself..

i have papers for the next three days. been studying really little.. beyond caring.. influenced by my bf.. haha..

logically the posts will start decreasing..but judging from how slack i am..hahah i think i'll still be posting quite frequently lar..

ok see ya folks.

birthdays

smileys..in my room

dinner at samur..an indonesian restaurant to celebrate shoonie's sis's birthday..

recalling how i spent all my previous birthdays..sadly to say..almost none with my family..

a walk at esplanade..





BIG slippers

on the bus on the way back..

huggies

trust

see a poor emaciated kitten whimpering away, and wonder how anyone could bear to skin a frog alive.
witness backstabbings, and wonder why anyone could be capable of such disgusting and despicable behaviour.
witness infidelity, and wonder why anyone could bear to let the other party experience such immense hurt and made a cuckold out of.

of course, there are two sides to every coin.
there are always unspoken reasons.
self comforting justifications.
or just plain selfishness?

you just wonder how it can exist. until you see it for yourself, you stop wondering, and you start believing.

is this a world of deceit and pretentiousness?
an endless pursuit of one's personal gains and interests...
a self centred universe...

so who can you trust...

just another day. nothing much to blog about. amino acids, lipids and chromosomes are my best friends now. sigh. what a bore.

forbidden love

i can forsee that the library is going to be my second home this week. spent today in the library with shoonie, jackson, fulin, joyce and anning doing some hard core mugging. boring..

been going home these days because parents are abroad, and i'm supposed to be home at nights to look after my sis. quite a hassle to travel back and fro from sch..but oh well..the word is responsibility. what is more important than family?

my sis likes this guy from her church but they cant be together because apparently some person in her cell group (or ok, the general consensus) said they are too young to enter a relationship.. initally..i found that ridiculous.. too young?? the boy is 18. but she said.."what if he changes after he enters army?", "what if i get hurt in the end?", "we are supposed to wait till after NS.."..

i was like.."why?? you should just do whatever you want..it's your life..and who is to say things will turn out the way you think it would..you never know what will happen." how would you know it wont work out if you dont take a chance? why torture yourself? in life, you have to meet a few wrongs ones, to learn what you really want..before you can actually meet the right one..

however after much contemplation..perhaps my 16 yr old sis who looks like she is 13 yr old, possibly makes more sense than i do.. perhaps this mentality that i'm trying to impress on her, does not result in the wisest decisions made..

and it is why i am who i am today.

perhaps if there had been someone to tell me how things work, it wouldnt have been like this. perhaps if i havent been stubborn and bent on my own opinions, it wouldnt have been like this.

i have always been taking risks. uncalculated risks. thinking that even if eventually it doesnt work out, i'll still gain something out of it. isnt life all about experiencing? but..is it worth it? perhaps some insurance would have been wiser.. it would definitely have been better for the mental health.

the subject of rich friends came up over dinner today. rich. money. big houses. big cars. important? do they really matter so much? honestly, i still feel that the grass is always greener on the other side. not that anyone would mind having lots n lots of money, but eventually one day when you have it, you'll think that it's no big deal. life always works this way..doesnt it..

tourists

one week to exams..but me and dear decided to take a day off and went out the whole of today!! amazingly i dont feel gulity at all.. haha.. sheesh man this is bad. we went bugis first, and was on our way to suntec when we decided to pay a visit to the new national library. we behaved like tourists there lar..


view from the top..level 14!


kissing sir stamford raffles

the courtyard

smiles!


pout

sisters

the demon and her victim


kiss me notes..so much for studying..

culture night

the banner



poor joe sitting in a corner, tired out


me and selina: ok the headband does look kind of silly in the photos. haha..whatever!


edwin and me


all of us: happy ending!

this pic is awfully sweet..

i think..

culture night was on tonight. i would say it was only a moderate success. thought the decor could have been much much more elaborate. there was totally no feel of retro at all. but oh well, who am i to say anything. i was slacking most of the time. n the entire thingy was put together in a few days. a power failure came at an unearthly hour, just when the first performance was about to commence! the poor heads had to run all over the place, trying to find an alternate source. in the end the host had to resort to using a loudspeaker in replacement for a mike. anyway the culture com members had to dress up retro, and apparently i looked the most retroish, even though frankly speaking, i didnt put in much effort into my outfit. just threw on a few pieces of clothings that look remotely retro. bell bottoms, red spag, sash used as a headband, bangles, hoop earrings..oh well will post the photos up later!

nonetheless everything proceeded pretty smoothly, without any major glitches. enjoyable. and we had fun! :) so this is the joy of hall life...

had the chance to have a long chat with arvin, someeone whom i've yet to really talk to for quite some time. talked about the usual stuff..relationship was inevitably one of them. talked about balance, and pacing, 2 factors which i totally agree with him are essential to keep the flame going. this time round..i dont seem to be doing a very good job though.. :( he said he probably isnt going to stay on next sem.. haiz.. as more and more people leave, the lonelier i feel in this place..

the ex syndrome is raging huge now. there are many people around me now who are either in the grey zone, or cant bid farewell to their previous loved ones yet. i know it's hard..i've been through it.. them..more than once.. dont say i dont know how it feels like. some might say my recovery speed is miraculously fast, well i admit some have been easier than others. but i HAVE been through those times when you feel like you're most pathetic human being in the world. when you are a living zombie. when you wonder whether you'll ever love again. when you know you shouldnt, but those memories just cant stop pouring like torrents into your head.

what i have learnt is that, it's tough, but you do have control over your emotions. sometimes people just like to wallow in self pity and drown in their own sorrow, perhaps unknowingly.. like going through old photos even though you KNOW it will make you sad. listening to sad songs when you know they'll make you cry. going to the places you've been to with him.. you know these silly things.. believe it or not, people actually enjoy tormenting themselves. you have to be conscious of what you're doing to yourself, and make an effort to stop it. that is if you're really determined to climb out of that miserable and wretched shithole.

an unexpectedly long post. bf..hope you're having fun at mambo without me! :p

first month anniversary

dinner at michaelangelo's

an expensive meal..

expensive water..$12!!!! i'll never look at water the same way again..


appetizer: antipasto tesoro di Tuscany

our pastas

fettucine con salmon

penne michel


a cosy and romantic atmosphere..


my boy


tucking in


smiles

haagen dazs FONDUE!!!

irresistible!


yum yum yunmies!!


the aftermath..i think i gained an extra pound after that!

drinks

at tangos: one cosmos and one hoegarden

this is my happiness..

happy birthday my dear sister!!

family

one thing i'm most grateful about my life is that, i've no family problems at all. even though my mum always complains that my dad is the biggest ah toot in the world, who doesnt know how to do anything romantic for my mum, who always wears the same styles and shades of colour of clothes to work, who doesnt know how to pamper her, who complains she doesnt wear heels when my mum HATEs to wear heels, who..oops..hahaha.. but she appreciates the fact that my dad is stable, faithful and boring. boring is good, cos it means he will never cheat on her!

and my little sis, who looks like a 13 yr old although she is already 16!! oki she is a little cutesy pie that you cant help but adore. but she does get on my nerves sometimes with her unreasonable and most absurd requests.


















my dear bro..all the way in aussie..the big bro to the little sis.. :)