beee-zee bee

busy, busy, bee-zeee... tests galore these days. had one on cell biology on friday. the test was worth 20% of my overall mark, but there is so much to study for it that it kind of burnt my hols away. 3 more tests on their way, 2 next tues and 1 more on the next, next coming monday. sigh.

wasnt too busy to trip over some invisible rock and got myself a sprained ankle though. no i wasnt wearing high heels. no i wasnt even climbing over some tall barrier or whatsoever. i was just crossing the plain flat road, wearing my nice comfy slippers. sigh. my right foot now looks like a pig trotter. no kidding. it's swelling bad. my maid incessant rubbing for an hour with pungent smelling medicated oil didnt really help the swelling all that much, since everyone still commented it looked really awful. sigh. i REFUSED to see a sinseh cos everyone has been scaring me with stories on how much it would hurt. come on, i was already biting my lips when my maid was rubbing it. i definitely cant stand pain, physical pain that is.

get well soon, ankle. it's no fun limping. and you look really ugly.

cambodia trip is official. thanks to my great 'bragging' skills, i somehow unwittingly convinced my leaders that i was a great fund raiser and now, they've put me overall in charge of the fund raising project. greats. one thing i hate most is responsibility you know. anyway if any of you guys out there have any ideas on how to raise funds so that we can buy bricks and cement in cambodia n build a school for those poor little kids, please let me know. oh well, it's for a good cause.

last but not least, happy 23rd bday my dearest! although i'm 3 days too early..dear dear just had his birthday party. it was a happy happy occasion, although i was bored sometimes cos i dont really know his friends all that well. still i'm glad many of his friends came n he had a good time. oh yes, i hope you like the pressie i gave you. it's nothing spectacular i know. you know my financial status. but still...it was made from the botttoommm of my hearrrrt... :)

pressies from my bf

the geekie couple!! ugly me in specsy!

hmm..this is much better...

art art arttt..!

baby transformer which dear dear bought

have you ever felt..

empty..

empty..

empty...

-ONE big yawn-

that basically sums up my entire day. accompanied only by 15 sets of notes on cytoskeleton, cell organelles and proteins, how else can i describe my day? after experiencing moments of swimming visions of font 10 black words, and fighting the urge to lie on my ever so inviting BED, i decided to do something productive...such as to..BLOG!

after my date on sat, i met up with the guy from science in charge of project angel IV. i'm going cambodia to build a school for the kids!! so exciting isnt it! that's if nothing goes wrong. the guy said i was in but until now i havent recevied any notification and there are supposedly more applicants than places available. oh well..just see how it goes. if all goes well, the trip is during late may.

dear, i know you dont want me to go because of the curse. please try to understand..it's not just to make a difference in others' lives, it's to make a difference in mine too. i need it.



played mahjong with tim n friends after that. tim's place reminds me of an italian restaurant. haha. anyway my luck is down these days. lost money, again!! sigh, i wonder if my skills are just deteriorating, or am i just unlucky. gonna cut down on playing.

ERC eusoff hall soccer and netball carnival was held last sunday. not a very successful event since there were so few teams to begin with and 2 actually decided NOT to turn up at the very last minute, so in the end we were left with 6 teams, and 2 were from eusoff. who else is there to blame but ourselves. i must admit i put in zero effort. didnt even bother to ask around until a few days before the event. a lot of things could have been improved. oh well, hope those who came down had fun though. give those guys a ball and they'll have fun kicking around. where sports is involved, things can never be all that bad right.

had dinner with dearie after that. at first i thought it was going to be a 2 people affair. esp since he said he was going to cook. just me n him, romantic dinner. romantic dinner turned out be a family dinner. ah never mind, food was still good.



watched casanova last night with the ke kou ke le monkey. whoa initially i thought it was going to be a serious sort of film ya, but it turned out to be a lighthearted, delightful, romantic comedy. i'm just so in love with venice. it is SO pretty, n i think there's just this quality about european cities: they all exude romanticism. i feel so romanticised just watching the film. haha is there such a word. you feel like..oh yes, love is the air that we breathe, love is all the we need, love is what that makes the world goes round! hahah..ok getting a little carried away, but you get the idea.

some quotes:
Casanova: Casanova the philosopher, who devotes his life to the perfection of experience?
Francesca Bruni: No, Casanova the libertine, who devotes his life to seducing women.
Casanova: Well, we're obviously talking about the same person.

Casanova: I've never sought glory as a lover.
Sister Beatrice: What then, senor Casanova, do you seek?
Casanova: A moment that lasts a lifetime.

Francesca Bruni: Give me a man who is man enough to give himself just to the woman who is worth him. If that woman were me I would love him alone and forever.

we had supper at crystal jade after that. or rather HE had supper. i only drank a glass of soya bean. i never knew the crystal jade at holland v is opened for 24 hours.

a saturday date


my boy


moi


Food foooddd...

shopping!

1. my first pair of shoes in ages! 2. lingerie from women's secret, good buy! it was having some kind of clearance sale. 3. a cute tee 4. a mug from dearie


an upclose on the words behind..hmm..hehe now now dearie..you do know me reallyyyy well..-grinz-


my plethora of accessories..ok lar not exactly a lot yet..the other half is in hall.

i want to feel the sun on my face.
i want to go shopping.
i want to go on a holiday, anywhere.
i want to run, run and run.
i want to feel so tired i just want to lie down n do nothing.
i want to swim.


the sunset from my bf's hall's room's window..

my valentine

wine, fine dining, roses...

these are what...i didnt have..

instead..i spent vday with piles of notes on dna and rna extractions. what a way to spend the very special day. not much choice to begin with, unless i can spare failing my very first CA of the year. had a test on wed, whereas my dearest had 2 tests. so we had a very boring vday, with no wine, no fine dining, no roses, but each other and our notes for company.

that's not so bad is it? at least i'm with the loved one. :)

my practicality tells me that any extravagant frivolity is unnecessary, nonetheless the alice-in-wonderland aspect of me still craves for romance and ambience.

but it's okay. honestly it is!



because of the look in your eyes;
your feelings for me run pure and crystal clear
because of the hug you gave;
nothing that any amounts of roses or caviar can possibly contain

happy valentine's day my dear..

money, material or true love

was puzzling over this question for quite a while just now after being entertained by someone for an hour..

if you're a rich person, how would you know whether the person you're with is with you because he/she really likes you, and not because of your money?

i came to this conclusion that, you dont always have to put things to a test to find out the answers.

sometimes, you just have to ask yourself. deep down inside in your heart, you know.

sure enough, someone can act. but for how long? a week, a month, a year, an eternity?

a lot of times, we already know the answers. we just chose not to confront it, because we rather believe in something concrete that we can see, some kind of proof, than untangible feelings.

haiya, but then again, sometimes our instincts can prove us wrong.

haha. what a mess.


pricked by a rose


"i feel you.."

tcc


me and my pretty drink


photowhores!




art

had coffee at tcc and watched jarhead with the guys last night. i must admit it wasnt thatttt bad but i think as a girl who has never had to stay away from home and lived with 10 other females for weeks or even days before, i cant appreciate the film as well as the army boys could. it's hard to be touched by something you cant relate to, isnt it? still it was quite an eye opener..the things guys do when they have nothing better to do.. the wall of shame is pretty amusing.. i wonder what it would be like if the roles are reversed.. hmm.. would there be as many unfaithful boyfriends/husbands?

lala.

met up with dear dear today to get another of his robot toy thingy at admiralty. simply cannot understand. one small tiny weeny toy for $160?? -shakes head- anyway went down to town after that. was hoping there was something i could buy but strangely, i couldnt find anything i LIKE! amazing. we went zara, mango, guess, isetan, topshop, forever 21, fcuk, warehouse etc etc....... n i didnt see anything i liked. what's up with me manz?? sigh. boring. i need new clothes. had a lovely dinner with his parents at keppel club after that and then home sweet home.

oops..realised i missed someone out.. :x


to davis ng who is leaving for melbourne in may!

farewell


to the boy leaving for melbourne on sunday..


to the boy leaving for melbourne next monday..


to the boy leaving for melbourne in june..

take care boys..

sad to say that zouk was exceptionally empty last night. when we entered the place at 11pm, it was barely half filled. sigh. what a far cry from how it was before mos opened. sad! because zouk used to be the place. it's the place where i collected most of my clubbing experiences from. :( it got slightly better after a while.. the guys are crazy. they brought 2 bottles of vokha and 1 bottle of martell to drink at the kopitiam opposite zouk before we entered. finished them all. apparently they do this so often that the uncle working there knows them and gave us complimentary tibits. went in zouk semi high, but that wasnt the end. trays of sex on the beach and apple shooters, and jugs of long island tea and..some other drink which i cant remember were next.

crazy alcoholics.

some people have livers made of titanium. haha, quoting josh.

and i bought this for my dearest bf because i knew he was dying to have it..even though i cant see what's the big deal about it..it's just a toy..:p first time i bought anything from yahoo auctions! anyway bf, i'm glad you like it. :)


urps..some transformer thingy that cost a bomb? ultra magnus mp-02..?

as the days go by..

ah, lack of updates these days.. havent really had the time to sit down in front of my and blog..or rather, more correctly to speak, i havent had the inspiration to write..been feeling pretty down recently, though it's not sth that most people would be able to detect. i feel like i'm constantly fighting some kind of internal war inside me..a war with which not even i myself can put a name for the reason to it..a struggle to find some meaning to my life? to find some greater cause for my existance than just day-by-day eating, school and merry making? to find a life that i'm leading my own and not just merely...sleepwalking...

i need some meaning.

oh well, forget it. shhh, dont say anything.

inadequacies. realised i've been rather close mouthed recently. brain malfunction, words just simply refused to come.. my only consolation is: if i am not going to say anything intelligent, perhaps it's a better choice to keep my mouth shut. i am not an unfriendly person. i am not a cold person. it's only a defense mechanism to....to what? i dont know.. it's just me..

oh never mind again. let's go on to something more normal.

weekend was fine. went for mark huang's farewell party on sat night. it was pretty boring at first, since the place was rampant with ac people and i only knew a handful. thankfully there was mahjong to keep me company the whole night. took turns to play with josh. lady luck wasnt on our side. we were on a losing streak the entire night, but oh well..all for the fun of it. :)

sunday night was spent at davis's place. chinese new year celebration. had an enjoyable time. someone couldnt keep his hands off the satay despite the incentive. -_-"..we played a little of 'butt-luck' (blackjack)..and i'm proud to say.....i won....50 cents!! hahaha..ok we started off really small at first. took over andre for a little while when the stake was up to $2 and ermz..oops..lost just a teeny weeny bit more..

may i add..why is the entire world going to melbourne??? why why why??? lu, yes you're there already..and i hope you're doing fine!! :) mark is leaving this sat, josh next mon, and davis in..may?

"pride......it's very common indeed, that human nature is particularly prone to it, and that there are very few of us who do not cherish a feeling of self-complacency on the score of some quality or other, real or imaginary. Vanity and pride are different things, though the words are often used synoimously. a person may be proud without being vain, pride relates more to our opinion of ourselves, vanity to what we would have others think of us. " - pride and prejudice, mary bennett.

had time to browse through a few chapters of the book and this paragraph just stuck. i supposed everyone has to have some quantity of pride in ourselves. we humans cannot survive without knowing that we had something, any quality, which is one cut above the rest.

family dinner

family dinner

it was a long awaited dinner.. i cant even remember the last time all of us sat down and have dinner at the same time together. everyone is just so busy.. mum and dad working 24/7, coming home at 10pm or later every night. bro in aussie, and now back and working too. me in hall on weekdays, and rarely at home even on weekends. and sis? busy with school, church and..bf.


sister and her bf


mum and my DomEStic helper, sadiya..haaha..


dad and grandma..looking at..?


finished


ever seen coffee served this way in a resturant?? drip drip drip..

to be cherished...