smile to 2008

had a small gathering with a few of my bestest friends, to celebrate in advance, my 23rd bday, and i guess also the end of 2007.

23..gosh..i'm certainly catching up on age! the tragedy of being an early born baby; the first one to entertain the calamity of being a year older.

this year was a hell of a roller coaster ride. so many changes; too many changes. too many adaptations required, too much tears shed, too little joy felt, too many failings, too little faith.

2008 had better be a better year.

to my fantastic friends (counting no. of yrs i've know you):
andre (j1 till now, 6 yrs): my diligent bday planner and confidant in times of crisis, i'm sorry the shirt i bought for you can fit 1.5 times of you...hehehe.

jas (PY till now, 16 yrs): my bestest friend who although can be very ZHONG SHE QING YOU at times, hahaha, do show support when i need her too.

zx (same, 16 yrs): although you missed the dinner yesterday...hmm...ok i cant think what to thank you for leh, hahah..ok la i enjoy crapping with you. :D

ck (nus yr 2 till now, 2.5 yrs): i can always count on you eh...hope you find a job that you wont be so sian of..

ter (nus yr 1 till now, 3.5yrs): the times in america were unforgettable..and i did return you the money liao ok...

chris (modelling till now, 1 yr): life would be a lot duller without your lame jokes, but jokes aside, i wouldnt have had the courage to do as much as i did without you.

shoonie (nus yr 2 till now, 2.5 yrs): the person who stood with me at the top of effiel tower..how could i ever forget you or put what i really feel/felt for you in a few words?

my rgs friends, teresa/qi/sarah/manda/rach (rgs sec 3 till now, 8 yrs): some of the nicest people i know, with me through the days we plough around in our pinafores at far east plaza, until now...

life would be different without any one of you.

oh wellies.....SMILE.

get your sexy back!

went to support yy, jae and zx on wed as it was yy and jae's fyp anti-binge project at zouk. the silly thing was me and chris arrived late and the event ended 20 mins after that. there was free flow of tiger..but eh..i hate beer manz! saw some other familiar faces like daniel, destiny and justin.

chris, me and zx

me and justin

had someone else been me, would she have done what i did? would she have been able to do what i have done? would she have done it better?

i honestly think i suffer from split personality sometimes.

i have sooo much doubts, and it seems that no one can help me except myself!

zoukout on sat

zoukout was pretty haps, but not as great as I thought it would be. i reached sentosa really late, was stuck in the jam along ecp/keppel road for almost an hour! was crazy..i think everyone was heading towards sentosa. reached at around midnight and only got in at 1.30am. hordes of people everywhere, but there was still room to breathe. everyone was clad so casually, for once there was no heels or shirts and pants, just plain slippers, summer dresses, shorts, bikinis and bers for the guys. there were four arenas, each playing different sort of music, ahh..music was just so-so.

thank god the weather was good and it didnt rain a drop!

the main arena where they were playing trance

i fell asleep at the fence behind at 5am, woke up at 7am and realised everyone was still dancing! these people are crazy, where did they get their energy from?? hello...the sun has risen..

tired souls like me resting, there were 2 gays lying on top of each other beside me..eyoo...i have nothing against homosexuality, but still....

still more people on my left...

...and more people dancing....

reached home at 9.30am on sunday. some people said this is the last year they are having zoukout, is that true? didnt they say that last year too? hmm.

christmas lights in orchard

Huge christmas tree in front of paragon

pretty lights

who would i give to stroll along the streets and take in these glittery lights with me?

where lies my heaven

the world is all for you to take
but which part of the world do you want?

i cant have my vast, boundary-less, turquoise oceans, yet long for the bitter cold snow-capped mountains!
i cant long for the peace and tranquility of wide, green meadows, yet still want the hustle and bustle of new york city.

there simply isnt a perfect place in the world.
the word contentment just doesnt seem to exist in my dictionary.

sigh sigh. what am i gonna do?

where in the world lies my heaven?

just do it

one in the million things that is wrong with me is that, i DONT listen. I really DONT listen. and when i dont WANT to listen, there's no point saying anything to me, cos it'll go into one ear and come out from the other.

and that is one of the reasons why i always get myself into trouble. like what andre and i discussed yesterday, the difference between me and him is that, quoting him,"if he thinks he cannot do it, he wont do it. as for me, whether or not i can do it, i will JUST DO IT." so i'm the JUST-DO-IT girl.

like one million people can tell me, if you step into this RIVER, you will drown. i will hear, but i probably wont listen. you know there's a difference right? so i will still step into the river......at the back of my head, a small pleading voice will say,"yiming you are going drown!". but i wouldnt caree.....let me DROWN!

i'm mad.

no la i'm just tired. long long day.

pretend you fit

was at a function last night where everyone was just simply, pretentious.

i think i blend in pretty well too. i supposed i can be pretty pretentious when i want to also.

you got to be nice to him because you never know when he could be your potential client. this world revolves around 'you know who' and 'who can help who'.

after a while you just hate all these pretending, and just crave for some peace and sincerity.