jaguar
nemo
porsche
unicef
heineken
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
faith
yay.
at least one prob is solved.
but with that, like what bf says, might bring about a NEW set of problems.
but we never know until we try, do we?
faith, darling, faith.
random photos:
our promise!
bf and me at starbucks, before catching the show 10,000 BC. this show will keep you entertained, but dont expect too much out of the plot!
bf and i camping at his house. we were so bored that...
..we started experimenting with online games and grew addicted to this particular one called caveman.
it was fun, shooting balls at little dinos and birdies. shucks i felt 10 yrs younger.
eyes glued. but oh we eventually progressed to yahoo mahjong. but it's not much fun playing with the sound effects of banging tiles, screaming 'PONG!' and most importantly..moOO-lah...
ks's party at prive..
carl and me
at least one prob is solved.
but with that, like what bf says, might bring about a NEW set of problems.
but we never know until we try, do we?
faith, darling, faith.
random photos:
our promise!
bf and me at starbucks, before catching the show 10,000 BC. this show will keep you entertained, but dont expect too much out of the plot!
bf and i camping at his house. we were so bored that...
..we started experimenting with online games and grew addicted to this particular one called caveman.
it was fun, shooting balls at little dinos and birdies. shucks i felt 10 yrs younger.
eyes glued. but oh we eventually progressed to yahoo mahjong. but it's not much fun playing with the sound effects of banging tiles, screaming 'PONG!' and most importantly..moOO-lah...ks's party at prive..
carl and meSunday, March 16, 2008
problamatic me
a potential gas explosion
damaged exhaust pipe
driving to jb
scratched car (me and cars just dont go)
garden mess
a broken hose
am i accident prone or what?
why am i so problematic?
WHAT's WRONG wiTH ME??
i really dont know whether i should blame myself, or blame it on sheer bad luck.
i've tried, but perhaps i havent tried enough.
but all i really want is, for things to work out.
sigh, where is my guardian angel? is she on leave?
damaged exhaust pipe
driving to jb
scratched car (me and cars just dont go)
garden mess
a broken hose
am i accident prone or what?
why am i so problematic?
WHAT's WRONG wiTH ME??
i really dont know whether i should blame myself, or blame it on sheer bad luck.
i've tried, but perhaps i havent tried enough.
but all i really want is, for things to work out.
sigh, where is my guardian angel? is she on leave?
Friday, March 07, 2008
feast of love
i have this habit of blogging about a movie after i've watched it. shall not make the recent one i watched an exception.
'feast of love' is a brilliant show that i caught 2 nights ago with my darling. we both loved. it reminded me of love actually, but a much darker and morbid version. the movie depicts many love stories, but the one that touched me most has got to be the love between oscar and chloe.
he was an ex drug addict. they were poor. they had no prospects. but they loved each other so much that they were able to stick it out. they fit and they knew it. they knew they were destined for each other. so when she found out that he was going to die, she didnt leave. she asked him to marry her.
"MARRY ME!"
they got married. she found a house. she got pregnant. and then he died.
Harry Stevenson: There is a story about the Greek Gods; they were bored so they invented human beings, but they were still bored so they invented love, then they weren't bored any longer. So they decided to try love for themselves. And finally, they invented laughter, so they could stand it.
'feast of love' is a brilliant show that i caught 2 nights ago with my darling. we both loved. it reminded me of love actually, but a much darker and morbid version. the movie depicts many love stories, but the one that touched me most has got to be the love between oscar and chloe.
he was an ex drug addict. they were poor. they had no prospects. but they loved each other so much that they were able to stick it out. they fit and they knew it. they knew they were destined for each other. so when she found out that he was going to die, she didnt leave. she asked him to marry her.
"MARRY ME!"
they got married. she found a house. she got pregnant. and then he died.
Harry Stevenson: There is a story about the Greek Gods; they were bored so they invented human beings, but they were still bored so they invented love, then they weren't bored any longer. So they decided to try love for themselves. And finally, they invented laughter, so they could stand it.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
"the break-up"
watched the movie "the break up" on sunday. it's my second time watching it. i always thought i liked the movie because it is so realistic. i totally could relate to how jennifer ainston/brooke felt when she was trying to explain to gary the problem and she got so frustrated because he totally couldn't get it.
"i want you to WANT to do the dishes!"
"why would i WANT to do the dishes?!"
the first time i watched it, i was on brooke's side that gary was in the wrong. he was insensitive and childish and taking her for granted. but watching it with dearie again, made me see things from the guy's perspective. brooke may not technically have done anything wrong but she made the mistake of not actually telling him what went wrong.
Brooke: I just don't know how we got here. Our entire relationship, I have gone above and beyond for you, for us. I've cooked, I've picked your shit up off the floor, I've laid your clothes out for you like you're a four year old. I support you, I supported your work. If we ever had dinner or anything I did the plans, I take care of everything. And I just don't feel like you appreciate any of it. I don't feel you appreciate me. All I want is to know, is for you to show me that you care.
Gary: Why didn't you just say that to me?
Brooke: I tried. I've tried.
Gary: Never like that, you might have said some things that meant to imply that, but I'm not a mind reader...
Brooke: It wouldn't matter you are who you are. Just leave me alone ok? Right now, just shut my door.
there's the problem with us, girls. sometimes we like to make too many assumptions. sometimes we just assume that the root of the problem is sooo plain obvious and the guy should be able to read our minds and see what's wrong immediately. we forget the fact that the mind of the male anatomy is wired differently from us. and then we come up with our little self-concocted mind games and schemes to MAKE the guy see the point. sometimes they are successful, sometimes they are not. and when they are not, we point the finger at them and scream," you dont understand me at all!" perhaps sometimes, we should just throw the facts at them. save time, save energy, save potential heartaches and tears.
sometimes, love just ain't enough.
"i want you to WANT to do the dishes!"
"why would i WANT to do the dishes?!"
the first time i watched it, i was on brooke's side that gary was in the wrong. he was insensitive and childish and taking her for granted. but watching it with dearie again, made me see things from the guy's perspective. brooke may not technically have done anything wrong but she made the mistake of not actually telling him what went wrong.
Brooke: I just don't know how we got here. Our entire relationship, I have gone above and beyond for you, for us. I've cooked, I've picked your shit up off the floor, I've laid your clothes out for you like you're a four year old. I support you, I supported your work. If we ever had dinner or anything I did the plans, I take care of everything. And I just don't feel like you appreciate any of it. I don't feel you appreciate me. All I want is to know, is for you to show me that you care.
Gary: Why didn't you just say that to me?
Brooke: I tried. I've tried.
Gary: Never like that, you might have said some things that meant to imply that, but I'm not a mind reader...
Brooke: It wouldn't matter you are who you are. Just leave me alone ok? Right now, just shut my door.
there's the problem with us, girls. sometimes we like to make too many assumptions. sometimes we just assume that the root of the problem is sooo plain obvious and the guy should be able to read our minds and see what's wrong immediately. we forget the fact that the mind of the male anatomy is wired differently from us. and then we come up with our little self-concocted mind games and schemes to MAKE the guy see the point. sometimes they are successful, sometimes they are not. and when they are not, we point the finger at them and scream," you dont understand me at all!" perhaps sometimes, we should just throw the facts at them. save time, save energy, save potential heartaches and tears.
sometimes, love just ain't enough.Sunday, February 17, 2008
my valentine
my bouquet of roses and baby j bear!
dinner at casa roma..mushrooms yum yum..
finished pasta and red wine
haagen daz ice cream!
finishing the evening with a walk at the esplanadethank you my dearest.
'life can be so simple, isnt it?'
yeah if only life is always this simple.
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
i dont want to have to convince you that this is right.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
revelations
i know i should take it the positive way, to spur myself to prove my worth, but i really cant help it...
i feel dejected.
i hate being judged.
'the less trodden path is always the most difficult one, isnt it?'
i feel dejected.
i hate being judged.
梁静茹 - 勇气
终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你
'the less trodden path is always the most difficult one, isnt it?'
Monday, February 11, 2008
comprehension
i finally understand. as we grow older, as we reach different stages of our lives, we become wiser, and we see things differently. in the past, i was willful and stubborn. i always wanted things my way. i thought that as long as i am not doing something 'wrong', i should be allowed to do it, despite how it would make other people feel. but now i realised that things don't always work this way. i realised that sometimes persistence can lead to someone else's unhappiness and discomfort. and if that someone is precious and important enough to you, you would not risk anything in the world to jeopardise the relationship. because losing this precious thing, is far more scarier than losing your pride...
you would handle it with care, like you're treading on a piece of very thin ice, afraid that a wrong step would crack this piece of ice and cause you to lose it all irrevocably.
you would handle it with care, like you're treading on a piece of very thin ice, afraid that a wrong step would crack this piece of ice and cause you to lose it all irrevocably.
year of rat
this chinese new year has been rather boring, as like all the years that preceded. the usual once-a-year gathering with my relatives, except this year's reunion dinner and chu yi's bai nianing was at my place, so i could hide in my room occasionally when i feel bored. the usual polite greetings and occasional small talks were exchanged. the usual ang baos were received. well well, just about everything was the same..almost.
zouk on chu xi: yong and hong, the twins' bday
was at butter on friday night and it was the first time i was so sober in a club for a while. and as dearie said, "everyone on the dance floor looks so silly when you're sober." couldnt agree more, which explains why people are so obsessed with the idea of getting intoxicated. at the end of the night, i dont know whether i should feel empowered by the fact that i could walk straight; or vexed that i was not able to enter another world where i could get lost in...
nonetheless, i am glad.
春到河畔 with bf
bf won mr pooh and mr monkey for me from the games booth!
the old supreme court
watched the notebook on sat night. i love that show! some particular memorable quotes from it.
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
yawns. and i'm sleepy now. what is going to happen in a few months? in a year? in 5 yrs? in 10 yrs? who knows..but as long as i'm happy now....
zouk on chu xi: yong and hong, the twins' bdaywas at butter on friday night and it was the first time i was so sober in a club for a while. and as dearie said, "everyone on the dance floor looks so silly when you're sober." couldnt agree more, which explains why people are so obsessed with the idea of getting intoxicated. at the end of the night, i dont know whether i should feel empowered by the fact that i could walk straight; or vexed that i was not able to enter another world where i could get lost in...
nonetheless, i am glad.
春到河畔 with bf
bf won mr pooh and mr monkey for me from the games booth!
the old supreme court
watched the notebook on sat night. i love that show! some particular memorable quotes from it.
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
yawns. and i'm sleepy now. what is going to happen in a few months? in a year? in 5 yrs? in 10 yrs? who knows..but as long as i'm happy now....
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
the past
today, my past caught up with me.
when i first heard such accusations made upon myself, my immediate reaction was anger - red, burning flames that got me speechless. why can't people just mind their own business? why do they have so much to say about my life?? but the answer is obvious isnt it. all of us love to gossip, boys and girls alike. and i have given people much to gossip about me. the annoying thing is truth often gets distorted as words passed on from ear to ear. they are misinterpreted, exaggerated and reinvented. which also explains why we have the game 'broken telephone' (or is it called broken telephone line?)...and also how the movie 'atonement' came about, Briony misunderstanding the actions of cecilia and robbie, resulting in a mistake that changed lives forever...
ok my story is nowhere so dramatic, but you get the idea.
on deeper contemplation, i know i have no one to blame but myself. i was no angel. whatever that was said, there was probably some degree of truth in them. i could even be what they have accused me of, but being slightly self-delusional, i had always look upon such comments as if i am a third party. i have failed to acknowledge the fact that what they're describing is me, that i AM what they've described me to be. since i have never acknowledged it, obviously when i hear such comment passed about myself, my natural reaction is denial. and therefore again, i have always been able to shrug everything away without much difficulty.
anyway all the happenings felt so long ago. i would like to think that i am different now...
i was crazy, because life for me was a sky shrouded with uncertainty and grey clouds. i was walking in a mist, but i'm now trying very hard to clear the clouds and find my path of light. mind you, i'm still trying....
sorry to put you through all that.
when i first heard such accusations made upon myself, my immediate reaction was anger - red, burning flames that got me speechless. why can't people just mind their own business? why do they have so much to say about my life?? but the answer is obvious isnt it. all of us love to gossip, boys and girls alike. and i have given people much to gossip about me. the annoying thing is truth often gets distorted as words passed on from ear to ear. they are misinterpreted, exaggerated and reinvented. which also explains why we have the game 'broken telephone' (or is it called broken telephone line?)...and also how the movie 'atonement' came about, Briony misunderstanding the actions of cecilia and robbie, resulting in a mistake that changed lives forever...
ok my story is nowhere so dramatic, but you get the idea.
on deeper contemplation, i know i have no one to blame but myself. i was no angel. whatever that was said, there was probably some degree of truth in them. i could even be what they have accused me of, but being slightly self-delusional, i had always look upon such comments as if i am a third party. i have failed to acknowledge the fact that what they're describing is me, that i AM what they've described me to be. since i have never acknowledged it, obviously when i hear such comment passed about myself, my natural reaction is denial. and therefore again, i have always been able to shrug everything away without much difficulty.
anyway all the happenings felt so long ago. i would like to think that i am different now...
i was crazy, because life for me was a sky shrouded with uncertainty and grey clouds. i was walking in a mist, but i'm now trying very hard to clear the clouds and find my path of light. mind you, i'm still trying....
sorry to put you through all that.
Friday, February 01, 2008
floating
There are so many options in life that sometimes we spend so much time considering them, we forget that the only way to succeed is to focus.
that's me. met up with clifford yesterday and he totally hit the nail on the head about me and my current situation.
i'm floating. i need to anchor myself down and stop thinking that every ocean i go to i can find something better.
in the end i just end up lost again, not knowing exactly what i want.
i once believed that if i set my mind on a goal, i will go all out to pursue it simplemindedly. i was once like that. am i still like that? it has been so long since i have an unwavering agenda that i've almost forgotten how hunger and desire to succeed should feel like.
to live life passionately...
SIGH!
the person y0u're with should make you want to become a better person.
that's me. met up with clifford yesterday and he totally hit the nail on the head about me and my current situation.
i'm floating. i need to anchor myself down and stop thinking that every ocean i go to i can find something better.
in the end i just end up lost again, not knowing exactly what i want.
i once believed that if i set my mind on a goal, i will go all out to pursue it simplemindedly. i was once like that. am i still like that? it has been so long since i have an unwavering agenda that i've almost forgotten how hunger and desire to succeed should feel like.
to live life passionately...
SIGH!
the person y0u're with should make you want to become a better person.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
this time..
me, thomas and jenson at majestic bar opening
lanterns at chinatown
me and jenson/xian congi'm still full of doubts really, whether this would work out. were we too impulsive? have we given this enough thought? but i do get this feeling that both of us have came to a stage when we have seen enough and experienced enough, and we both know what we're looking for. we just dont know what we've found what we are looking for.
and so he said, he will try. for now, that's good enough for me.
i'm happy, and that's all that matters.
this time, i'm gonna make sure it's different.
and so he said, he will try. for now, that's good enough for me.
i'm happy, and that's all that matters.
this time, i'm gonna make sure it's different.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
attraction
love is such a strange quality isnt it.
sometimes we think the person we like must have A, B, C...but love certainly doesnt work this way. when you meet someone for the first time, sometimes there is this inexplicable, strong magnetic attraction. you feel drawn to the person, and you have no explanation for it. is it because he looks good in that white shirt? is it because of his big, puppy eyes? is it because how the way he smiles? what is it???
it's beyond logic.
for most people, you either encounter a like-pole repulsion, or reach a neutrality point, but for him, it seems like a south pole and north pole are placed in a magnetic field - attraction.\
a RANDOM post.
sometimes we think the person we like must have A, B, C...but love certainly doesnt work this way. when you meet someone for the first time, sometimes there is this inexplicable, strong magnetic attraction. you feel drawn to the person, and you have no explanation for it. is it because he looks good in that white shirt? is it because of his big, puppy eyes? is it because how the way he smiles? what is it???
it's beyond logic.
for most people, you either encounter a like-pole repulsion, or reach a neutrality point, but for him, it seems like a south pole and north pole are placed in a magnetic field - attraction.\
a RANDOM post.
Friday, January 18, 2008
mambo madness
it was tim's bday on wed, so we celebrated it at zouk. but where is he??
me, josh and lisa, josh reeed from drinking too much
mark, shufen, josh, me and eh..who is that? madness on the dance floor
me, josh and lisa, josh reeed from drinking too much
mark, shufen, josh, me and eh..who is that? madness on the dance floorother social nights....
drinks at majestic bar, a very nice cosy three-storey pub
me and chris
me and ryan: yum yum at this very authentic chinese supper place
drinks at majestic bar, a very nice cosy three-storey pub
me and chris
me and ryan: yum yum at this very authentic chinese supper placeTuesday, January 15, 2008
raining tuesday
my blog is getting boring these days. it seems i'm finding it harder and harder to conjure up interesting stuff to write about my life. sigh, is my life really that mundane these days? not really i guess, but maybe i'm expecting too much.
the weather is crazy these days. one minute i'm walking on the streets, perspiring under the scorching hot sun; the next second it starts to pour cats and dogs.
and i feel like going on a holiday...AGAIN. but i have to restrain myself. i have already pledged that 2008 is gonna be a year of more stability, in every sense. think i have had my fair share of travel adventures in 2007. but........the likes of japan and korea are calling out to me....lalala...
the weather is crazy these days. one minute i'm walking on the streets, perspiring under the scorching hot sun; the next second it starts to pour cats and dogs.
and i feel like going on a holiday...AGAIN. but i have to restrain myself. i have already pledged that 2008 is gonna be a year of more stability, in every sense. think i have had my fair share of travel adventures in 2007. but........the likes of japan and korea are calling out to me....lalala...
Sunday, January 13, 2008
lalala
just to show i'm still alive! dropped by the shoot at 'perfect in black' today, and met up with some familiar faces.
the ongoing shoot, ryan and russian model
me and ryan
me and chris
the ongoing shoot, ryan and russian model
me and ryan
me and chrisTuesday, January 08, 2008
the perfect life
i wonder how it's like, to seem like one is leading the perfect life
just came back from dinner/dessert with the vj boys, gw and terence. gw really does seem to be leading THE perfect life! i can be sure i'm safe writing these cos he just mentioned he doesnt read blogs haha. he is a practising doc, albeit still a relatively new one. he just got engaged recently and is holding his wedding this coming nov. no money woes, no love woes...what more can you ask for in life?
i tried to recall a time in my life when everything seemed perfect. i'm sure there has been a time when an outsider would look into the window and could find nothing wrong. but the fact is, there is always something wrong.
peer into the window a house and see a happy family enjoying your dinner. but who knows what really goes on inside this house?
perhaps the father just got retrenched, the mum has cervical cancer, the dog just died, the sister lost a million bucks in stocks.....ok that's painting the worst case scenario. what i'm trying to say is that you never really know unless you're part of it. and even when you're really part of it, you may not really know because everyone has a part of their lives they do not wish to share with anyone else.
sometimes it could be as minor as the nitty-gritties in life that add up and continue to irk you. like a colleague at work with an annoying high pitched voice that you cant stand working with; or just the mundaneness of the life; or one day you wake up and realise you dont know what the hell you're doing and you dont know what you're doing will get you to...
sigh sigh.
i'm at a crossroad of my life. whatever decision i choose to make now will affect the rest of my life. there is so much uncertainty, so much instability. i'm seeking advice, but yet i was told i should trust my own instincts. i'm a little lost, i'm a little confused. what's right? what is wrong? what will work? what will not? should i trust myself, or should i believe in the experienced?
i'm so vexed, that i think i'm close to giving in to the convention. stability, is something i long for now.
just came back from dinner/dessert with the vj boys, gw and terence. gw really does seem to be leading THE perfect life! i can be sure i'm safe writing these cos he just mentioned he doesnt read blogs haha. he is a practising doc, albeit still a relatively new one. he just got engaged recently and is holding his wedding this coming nov. no money woes, no love woes...what more can you ask for in life?
i tried to recall a time in my life when everything seemed perfect. i'm sure there has been a time when an outsider would look into the window and could find nothing wrong. but the fact is, there is always something wrong.
peer into the window a house and see a happy family enjoying your dinner. but who knows what really goes on inside this house?
perhaps the father just got retrenched, the mum has cervical cancer, the dog just died, the sister lost a million bucks in stocks.....ok that's painting the worst case scenario. what i'm trying to say is that you never really know unless you're part of it. and even when you're really part of it, you may not really know because everyone has a part of their lives they do not wish to share with anyone else.
sometimes it could be as minor as the nitty-gritties in life that add up and continue to irk you. like a colleague at work with an annoying high pitched voice that you cant stand working with; or just the mundaneness of the life; or one day you wake up and realise you dont know what the hell you're doing and you dont know what you're doing will get you to...
sigh sigh.
i'm at a crossroad of my life. whatever decision i choose to make now will affect the rest of my life. there is so much uncertainty, so much instability. i'm seeking advice, but yet i was told i should trust my own instincts. i'm a little lost, i'm a little confused. what's right? what is wrong? what will work? what will not? should i trust myself, or should i believe in the experienced?
i'm so vexed, that i think i'm close to giving in to the convention. stability, is something i long for now.
Monday, December 31, 2007
smile to 2008
had a small gathering with a few of my bestest friends, to celebrate in advance, my 23rd bday, and i guess also the end of 2007.
23..gosh..i'm certainly catching up on age! the tragedy of being an early born baby; the first one to entertain the calamity of being a year older.
this year was a hell of a roller coaster ride. so many changes; too many changes. too many adaptations required, too much tears shed, too little joy felt, too many failings, too little faith.
2008 had better be a better year.
to my fantastic friends (counting no. of yrs i've know you):
andre (j1 till now, 6 yrs): my diligent bday planner and confidant in times of crisis, i'm sorry the shirt i bought for you can fit 1.5 times of you...hehehe.
jas (PY till now, 16 yrs): my bestest friend who although can be very ZHONG SHE QING YOU at times, hahaha, do show support when i need her too.
zx (same, 16 yrs): although you missed the dinner yesterday...hmm...ok i cant think what to thank you for leh, hahah..ok la i enjoy crapping with you. :D
ck (nus yr 2 till now, 2.5 yrs): i can always count on you eh...hope you find a job that you wont be so sian of..
ter (nus yr 1 till now, 3.5yrs): the times in america were unforgettable..and i did return you the money liao ok...
chris (modelling till now, 1 yr): life would be a lot duller without your lame jokes, but jokes aside, i wouldnt have had the courage to do as much as i did without you.
shoonie (nus yr 2 till now, 2.5 yrs): the person who stood with me at the top of effiel tower..how could i ever forget you or put what i really feel/felt for you in a few words?
my rgs friends, teresa/qi/sarah/manda/rach (rgs sec 3 till now, 8 yrs): some of the nicest people i know, with me through the days we plough around in our pinafores at far east plaza, until now...
life would be different without any one of you.
oh wellies.....SMILE.
23..gosh..i'm certainly catching up on age! the tragedy of being an early born baby; the first one to entertain the calamity of being a year older.
this year was a hell of a roller coaster ride. so many changes; too many changes. too many adaptations required, too much tears shed, too little joy felt, too many failings, too little faith.
2008 had better be a better year.
to my fantastic friends (counting no. of yrs i've know you):
andre (j1 till now, 6 yrs): my diligent bday planner and confidant in times of crisis, i'm sorry the shirt i bought for you can fit 1.5 times of you...hehehe.
jas (PY till now, 16 yrs): my bestest friend who although can be very ZHONG SHE QING YOU at times, hahaha, do show support when i need her too.
zx (same, 16 yrs): although you missed the dinner yesterday...hmm...ok i cant think what to thank you for leh, hahah..ok la i enjoy crapping with you. :D
ck (nus yr 2 till now, 2.5 yrs): i can always count on you eh...hope you find a job that you wont be so sian of..
ter (nus yr 1 till now, 3.5yrs): the times in america were unforgettable..and i did return you the money liao ok...
chris (modelling till now, 1 yr): life would be a lot duller without your lame jokes, but jokes aside, i wouldnt have had the courage to do as much as i did without you.
shoonie (nus yr 2 till now, 2.5 yrs): the person who stood with me at the top of effiel tower..how could i ever forget you or put what i really feel/felt for you in a few words?
my rgs friends, teresa/qi/sarah/manda/rach (rgs sec 3 till now, 8 yrs): some of the nicest people i know, with me through the days we plough around in our pinafores at far east plaza, until now...
life would be different without any one of you.
oh wellies.....SMILE.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
get your sexy back!
went to support yy, jae and zx on wed as it was yy and jae's fyp anti-binge project at zouk. the silly thing was me and chris arrived late and the event ended 20 mins after that. there was free flow of tiger..but eh..i hate beer manz! saw some other familiar faces like daniel, destiny and justin.
chris, me and zx
me and justin
chris, me and zx
me and justinSaturday, December 15, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
zoukout on sat
zoukout was pretty haps, but not as great as I thought it would be. i reached sentosa really late, was stuck in the jam along ecp/keppel road for almost an hour! was crazy..i think everyone was heading towards sentosa. reached at around midnight and only got in at 1.30am. hordes of people everywhere, but there was still room to breathe. everyone was clad so casually, for once there was no heels or shirts and pants, just plain slippers, summer dresses, shorts, bikinis and bers for the guys. there were four arenas, each playing different sort of music, ahh..music was just so-so.
thank god the weather was good and it didnt rain a drop!
the main arena where they were playing trance
i fell asleep at the fence behind at 5am, woke up at 7am and realised everyone was still dancing! these people are crazy, where did they get their energy from?? hello...the sun has risen..
tired souls like me resting, there were 2 gays lying on top of each other beside me..eyoo...i have nothing against homosexuality, but still....
still more people on my left...
...and more people dancing....
thank god the weather was good and it didnt rain a drop!
the main arena where they were playing trance
i fell asleep at the fence behind at 5am, woke up at 7am and realised everyone was still dancing! these people are crazy, where did they get their energy from?? hello...the sun has risen..
tired souls like me resting, there were 2 gays lying on top of each other beside me..eyoo...i have nothing against homosexuality, but still....
still more people on my left...
...and more people dancing....reached home at 9.30am on sunday. some people said this is the last year they are having zoukout, is that true? didnt they say that last year too? hmm.
Saturday, December 08, 2007
christmas lights in orchard
Huge christmas tree in front of paragon
pretty lightswho would i give to stroll along the streets and take in these glittery lights with me?
Thursday, December 06, 2007
where lies my heaven
the world is all for you to take
but which part of the world do you want?
i cant have my vast, boundary-less, turquoise oceans, yet long for the bitter cold snow-capped mountains!
i cant long for the peace and tranquility of wide, green meadows, yet still want the hustle and bustle of new york city.
there simply isnt a perfect place in the world.
the word contentment just doesnt seem to exist in my dictionary.
sigh sigh. what am i gonna do?
where in the world lies my heaven?
but which part of the world do you want?
i cant have my vast, boundary-less, turquoise oceans, yet long for the bitter cold snow-capped mountains!
i cant long for the peace and tranquility of wide, green meadows, yet still want the hustle and bustle of new york city.
there simply isnt a perfect place in the world.
the word contentment just doesnt seem to exist in my dictionary.
sigh sigh. what am i gonna do?
where in the world lies my heaven?
just do it
one in the million things that is wrong with me is that, i DONT listen. I really DONT listen. and when i dont WANT to listen, there's no point saying anything to me, cos it'll go into one ear and come out from the other.
and that is one of the reasons why i always get myself into trouble. like what andre and i discussed yesterday, the difference between me and him is that, quoting him,"if he thinks he cannot do it, he wont do it. as for me, whether or not i can do it, i will JUST DO IT." so i'm the JUST-DO-IT girl.
like one million people can tell me, if you step into this RIVER, you will drown. i will hear, but i probably wont listen. you know there's a difference right? so i will still step into the river......at the back of my head, a small pleading voice will say,"yiming you are going drown!". but i wouldnt caree.....let me DROWN!
i'm mad.
no la i'm just tired. long long day.
and that is one of the reasons why i always get myself into trouble. like what andre and i discussed yesterday, the difference between me and him is that, quoting him,"if he thinks he cannot do it, he wont do it. as for me, whether or not i can do it, i will JUST DO IT." so i'm the JUST-DO-IT girl.
like one million people can tell me, if you step into this RIVER, you will drown. i will hear, but i probably wont listen. you know there's a difference right? so i will still step into the river......at the back of my head, a small pleading voice will say,"yiming you are going drown!". but i wouldnt caree.....let me DROWN!
i'm mad.
no la i'm just tired. long long day.
Sunday, December 02, 2007
pretend you fit
was at a function last night where everyone was just simply, pretentious.
i think i blend in pretty well too. i supposed i can be pretty pretentious when i want to also.
you got to be nice to him because you never know when he could be your potential client. this world revolves around 'you know who' and 'who can help who'.
after a while you just hate all these pretending, and just crave for some peace and sincerity.
i think i blend in pretty well too. i supposed i can be pretty pretentious when i want to also.
you got to be nice to him because you never know when he could be your potential client. this world revolves around 'you know who' and 'who can help who'.
after a while you just hate all these pretending, and just crave for some peace and sincerity.
Friday, November 30, 2007
sabbatical
i'm going on a sabbatical, for the month of dec.
i'm tired of fighting wars.
looking back on the year of 2007, it has certainly been a year of ups and downs. how many buckets of tears have i shed this year? from the modelling months in the first quarter, the stressful month of april in MSU and finally graduating from NUS; embarking on my europe tour in june, back in july, surviving a break up, and then off to america again in august. started my first new job in sept, struggling with clashes, new values and insights, and finally pushed off the cliff in nov and coming to a rest now in dec.
i'm tired really.
sad as i am, at the same time i cant help but feel that a burden is taken off my shoulders. i'm finally back to who i really am, the girl that longs for freedom and space, for peace and carelessness.
grant 2008 to be a much more peaceful year for me.
i'm tired of fighting wars.
looking back on the year of 2007, it has certainly been a year of ups and downs. how many buckets of tears have i shed this year? from the modelling months in the first quarter, the stressful month of april in MSU and finally graduating from NUS; embarking on my europe tour in june, back in july, surviving a break up, and then off to america again in august. started my first new job in sept, struggling with clashes, new values and insights, and finally pushed off the cliff in nov and coming to a rest now in dec.
i'm tired really.
sad as i am, at the same time i cant help but feel that a burden is taken off my shoulders. i'm finally back to who i really am, the girl that longs for freedom and space, for peace and carelessness.
grant 2008 to be a much more peaceful year for me.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
happily ever afters
everyone loves a fairy tale!
just finished watching enchanted. manz, it's the sweeeettteeest show i've ever watched in a long long time. it's the sort of show that would make everyone feel good after that.
the saddest thing about reality is that no one believes in 'happily ever afters' anymore...walt disney should stop producing these shows to bluff people!! haha but then again if he doesnt do it, there would really be nooo hope in this world.
wishing and dreaming...
hk was really cold when i left...
just finished watching enchanted. manz, it's the sweeeettteeest show i've ever watched in a long long time. it's the sort of show that would make everyone feel good after that.
the saddest thing about reality is that no one believes in 'happily ever afters' anymore...walt disney should stop producing these shows to bluff people!! haha but then again if he doesnt do it, there would really be nooo hope in this world.
wishing and dreaming...Friday, November 23, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
too much pride
as i was telling ck, the prob with me is that i have got too much pride to swallow.
i would make a terrible slave. i would probably attempt to escape after one week and end up getting my arms cut off when they find me.
well well, drown or survive, at least i know i've been warned.
i would make a terrible slave. i would probably attempt to escape after one week and end up getting my arms cut off when they find me.
well well, drown or survive, at least i know i've been warned.
Monday, November 19, 2007
water and oil
water is water, oil is oil.
water and oil can never mix.
so why should water accommodate oil, and try to blend in?
it is possible, for two different entities, to co-exist amicably, without attempting to change any aspect of oneself isnt it?
that being said, i know all i'm trying to do is to find an excuse to justify my stubbornness.
i just want to make myself feel that i AM not wrong.
that my reluctance to join the herd is a firm stand of my individualism, and not merely an obstinate, unreasonable choice...
because after all, humans are not objects. we are not facts. water IS water, oil IS oil. but YM is not just YM. YM can be kind, but can be evil. YM can be nice, but yet selfish.
like water that meanders around obstacles of rock, that flows through the mountains and the valleys, human beings adapt to our surroundings. every single one of us is capable of that, and the only reason why we dont, is because we made the choice NOT to.
i know it only takes this little bit of effort, but i'm just too lazy to move.
i'm such a contradictory person.
water and oil can never mix.
so why should water accommodate oil, and try to blend in?
it is possible, for two different entities, to co-exist amicably, without attempting to change any aspect of oneself isnt it?
that being said, i know all i'm trying to do is to find an excuse to justify my stubbornness.
i just want to make myself feel that i AM not wrong.
that my reluctance to join the herd is a firm stand of my individualism, and not merely an obstinate, unreasonable choice...
because after all, humans are not objects. we are not facts. water IS water, oil IS oil. but YM is not just YM. YM can be kind, but can be evil. YM can be nice, but yet selfish.
like water that meanders around obstacles of rock, that flows through the mountains and the valleys, human beings adapt to our surroundings. every single one of us is capable of that, and the only reason why we dont, is because we made the choice NOT to.
i know it only takes this little bit of effort, but i'm just too lazy to move.
i'm such a contradictory person.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
the first baby step
it's like watching a baby take its first step. you get a ludicrous feeling of euphoria and self satisfaction; yet at the same time, a deep sense of apprehension, because you know that whoever this baby grows up to be, she is solely your responsibility.
i'm at the start of the marathon. pray give me the stamina to complete my race.
i'm at the start of the marathon. pray give me the stamina to complete my race.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
old men lunch
had my weekly dose of 'old men lunch' today, and somehow or another, with this bunch of people, the subject of infidelity never fail to be brought up. today was an advanced course into the psychics of these 'old men'. why do i say it's advanced? because i would probably have passed my elementary exams with flying colours, in the 2 months since i started working. today's lecture wasnt entirely new; it just managed to provide deeper insights.
dont say that they are 'hum sup', so which man isnt? only that some hide it behind a mask, others wear it more plainly in their speech and actions, but essentially: all men are the same. and that's fine, because it's the way we're made.
these men do not regard their actions as infidelity, but rather as acquiring a service to fulfill their basic needs. is sex without love tolerable? are love and sex two different entities to men, one being an emotion and the other being a course of action? so it's true that it's really possible to separate these two..? some say yes, some say no...whatever being said, i do believe in what you dont know wont hurt. some things are better left unknown.
and i wonder who i can ever trust to marry and spend the rest of my life with after knowing all these. i came to 3 conclusions:
1. i can marry a very very good man (there are still good men in this world right??)
2. i can marry a very very smart man, cos he will know how not to let me know he is playing outside.
3. or i could be the sort of wife who knows, yet tolerate.
somehow, i feel...the wives always know.....
yawns, bed time.
dont say that they are 'hum sup', so which man isnt? only that some hide it behind a mask, others wear it more plainly in their speech and actions, but essentially: all men are the same. and that's fine, because it's the way we're made.
these men do not regard their actions as infidelity, but rather as acquiring a service to fulfill their basic needs. is sex without love tolerable? are love and sex two different entities to men, one being an emotion and the other being a course of action? so it's true that it's really possible to separate these two..? some say yes, some say no...whatever being said, i do believe in what you dont know wont hurt. some things are better left unknown.
and i wonder who i can ever trust to marry and spend the rest of my life with after knowing all these. i came to 3 conclusions:
1. i can marry a very very good man (there are still good men in this world right??)
2. i can marry a very very smart man, cos he will know how not to let me know he is playing outside.
3. or i could be the sort of wife who knows, yet tolerate.
somehow, i feel...the wives always know.....
yawns, bed time.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Que Sera Sera
When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.
Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.
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