oh ya i forgot, happy lunar new year to one and all! :)

"i guess at the end of the day, you can either focus on the things that keep you together, or keep you apart. either way, you have a choice."

hmm..

i'm bloody tired now, and freaking irritated. i hate it most when people owes me money. grrrr!!!

i'm so glad today is today...because it means the midterm break is here! no school for one week. it's chinese new year! angbaos = money.. and i finally dont have to wake up early tmr for work or school...i finally can sleeeeepppp all i want...so tired...

beach bummers on vday

on 14th feb, i missed the first 8am lect of the day as usual, i went for my 12pm class as usual..and since i was specially instructed by my dearest that i MUST go to sch..i was of course expecting something......but to my utmost disappointment, no one came up to me during lect to give me anything..sad.....

and then i went to meet mr chee keong for our sun tanning date at sentosa..and he was waiting for me with....

...a lovely bouquet dozen of roses!!! my bf asked him to give it to me...sooo sweeet!! thank you dearieee!

since ck's gf is at work, and my dearie is all the way in holland, i spent vday with the ck hunk...hehehe... we went sentosa and tanned at the cafe del mar. it was loveeelllyyy! the sun was good, even though we only went at around 3pm. didnt take us long to munch our bk lunch, settle down and bake in the sun.

by the pool...






cafe del mar: many tanning beds and 1 floating umbrella






thank you dearie for the flowers...missing ya...

is it possible to fall in love with unreasonable-ness?

was just watching The OC, yes my fav drama of all time, and since i've got no dates on a sunday, i figured i might as well watch it...ok so i was on season 4 of the OC, and it seemed as it everything has changed..cos marissa has died!!! sad..anyway so summer was devastated, and in coping with the loss of her best friend, she has changed into a different person since going to brown. life isnt just about shopping, tanning, the trendiest clothes of the season, cute boys...life is about saving the chickens from the slaughterhouse, protesting against cutting of the oldest tree on the campus, using solar power.... she is no longer a sucker for cleanliness.. and it's exactly how she has changed that is putting her relationship with seth hanging on a thin thread.

but she is a better person isnt she..less bickering over childish matters. she is more mature and thinking about the larger issues in life. so why are things more difficult for the new summer and seth? is it beacuse seth just isnt used to the new her yet..or is it because he is in love with the old, immature, unreasonable summer so much so that he cant cope with the new her...

and so he left. "i want you to keep on doing what you're doing..i think it's pretty amazing, so if you dont hear from me for a while, it's not beacause i dont love you, it's because i do."

tgif

this week has been rather hectic. i was so tired last night that i fell asleep in front of my lappie while blogging midway. cannoooot taakeee it! finally i'm taking a break tonight...no more clubbing!! let me just stay at home and recuperate..

so what have i been up to...tues and wed nights were spent at mediacorp. honestly for a national broadcasting centre, it's a rather boring place. didnt catch any big time stars, only a few small time ones here and there, and a lot of previous project superstars contestants. other than that, the place is akin to a ghost town. i guess everyone is probably hiding in the studios or out filming. the whole place is like a moderately sized industrial estate. please dont tell me hollywood looks like that too! i'll be extremely disappointed! but anyway it's moving to bukit gombak (close to my place!!), i'm sure the new one would look much better. guess it's always like that...i remembered when i was doing banquet at mandarin hotel a few years back, behind the splendour it looks like...an underground gambling den. haha...oops..

anyway the game i'm helping out with is called the numbers game, and it'll be starting on the 13th march, channel 8 i think. ahh it was nothing much...my job is just to open and close laptops; i'm not sure whether the camera was ever on me, perhaps for like a split second when i'm opening a laptop. oh wellies..anyway i've learnt how to appreciate a 45mins variety show, because though it might be 45 mins on tv, it actually takes close to 4 hrs to shoot. the hosts are quan yifeng and mark lee...listening to them speak can be quite entertaining...they really can talk nonsense non stop!! no situation can catch them speechless. oh but then again..i do know a few friends who are like that..the flair for always being able to find something to say.

in the studio..the round platform in the middle reminds me of who wants to be a millionaire.


move it here move it there....yawns...we were waiting for the rehearsal to start...


big big cameras


the laptop girls: sheena and me, in the mass make up room.

i'm also proud to announce that i didnt skip any classes....today!!! hehehe..*claps claps* met davis in the afternoon for lunch at vivo. beeeennn a million years since i last met youuu lar. i dont know when it'll be the next time i see you again, could be tmr, could be a few months later right..considering how busssy you are. :p anyway if you're reading this, do take care..and have fun!! i know you willl...-grins-

and so...finally the weekend is here. whoo hooo...

feeling especially tired and sleepy today. must be the result of the previous late nights. will be working for the next three days as well.. so tempted to just laze around at home.. but but.... you know... but but buts...

to my bf who is freezing over at holland..please take care of yourself, eat well, sleep well, keep warm, play hard and have fun...i miss ya so!

farewell

A wedding

raffles hotel ballroom


sparkling chandelier


the beautiful bride, her gown was lovely!


my fav kid of the night


me and my beautiful dress!


me and amber


me and jamie

as for the boyz...

andre teo and me acting spastic on the streets of orchard. had dinner at an indonesian restaurant on fri..eh hem..I PAID...


me and marvin after zouk on friday too.


me and ryan, having drinks at chijmes.

my personality

not sure what this post is gonna be about..but i just feel like blogging right now. this is one of the rare nights that i'm actually at home..time to myself, you can call it. they always say you need some time for yourself, regardless of how hectic your life is, you always need time to slow down and enjoy some therapeutic peace. nah..i dont want time..i feel lonely when i have time...:( esp at nights.

i'm a sucker for romance. throw in some candles, wine and sentimental love songs, and i'm hooked.

tried the myers-brigg personality test today. initially i thought myself to be a INFP - introvert, intuitive, feeling, perceiving. however to my surprise, the results showed otherwise, i am a ESFP. i dont really believe it, so i tried the test again, and once again, i obtained the same results. since when did i change from a IN to a ES?? honestly i dont think i'm an extrovert. i can be quiet, reserved, distant..and getting me to open up can be quite a challenge. on the other hand, i can be suppperr friendly and talkative. i'm an ambiguous person. different environment calls for different personalities. besides that, the company and my moods for the day also play a role. i was just telling ryan, either i've answered the questions based on what i want myself to be..or i've changed.ok it could be the third reason: the test isnt accurate. haha..but then again, the stuff i've been working at these days require me to be an E. there's a trigger in my brain..when the occasion calls for it, i have to tell myself to release this trigger, and to be the person i need to be.

i admit, i'm finally learning. it's a jungle out there, when you're out there alone, there's no one to help you but yourself. as much as i hate to say this, it's also a men's world out there.. women are extremely vulnerable.

it can get really tiring....being with some people saps my energy. i must be intelligent, brainy, witty, worldly, and try not to act bimbotic, ignorant..young. i must be sophisticated, and not silly. i must be able to carry a conversation, and not let it lapse into awkward silence. i must smile, and not unhappy. i must be poised, composed, confident, and not diffident, unsure and uncomfortable. act like it, and one day you'll be it. when that day comes, life would be easier. guess an indicator of whether i'm really comfortable with you, would be when i'm silly! real silly..and i start being incoherent and stupid and start talking about stuff that obviously hasnt been progressed and filtered through my brain.

clifford once told me i'm a good person. was rather puzzled by this compliment.. again..how do you define whether a person is good or not? is a son who killed the man who murdered his mum a good person? is a father who stole money so he could feed his children a good person? is someone who slept her way to the top a bad person? what are the best criteria to justify a wrong act...

life continues...

seems like the time which i have the most free time to spare is when i have an exam or test. currently at home trying to cram the numerous names of hormones into my brain. test is set at 6.30pm in the evening. i got bored of studying and so here i am, blogging..attempting to dispel some of my boredom. i've been busy the past week, juggling studies, work as well as accompanying my bf as long as i had free time to spare. roadshow on sat followed by cny work, then roadshow again on sun. an event on tues morning and another one at night. made a trip down to mediacorp yesterday as i was informed they needed girls for a game show on channel 8. easy job, just stand around and open laptops. i've only attended 2 out of 11 lectures this week.

lenny and me at icell roadshow

allison and me at chinatown

me and ashley at johnnie walker blue label king george V launch held at supreme court. we tried a sip of it and...let's just say it's not my cup of tea...spicy and smoky taste, and very potent. anyway i heard it's on limited edtion, so dont think it's sold in retail stores.

it's feb...the month of chinese new year, mid term hols..and valentine's day...!

hanging out with some of my friends last night was an eye opener, saw things that i thought i would only see in hk dramas haha. it kind of disgusted me seeing how other women can cheapen themselves this way..but on the other hand, how can we, who lead such sheltered lives, fully comprehend why others have to stoop so low for survival.. women are like meat, placed on the sacrificial table. they scream "take me! eat me!". men like predators, watching and waiting for the right opportunity to prey on their victims. no amount of money is worth my dignity.. so how much is one's dignity worth? someone offers you a million dollars to strip in the public, would you do it? would you sacrifice your pride to draw 5 figures salary a month, or would you be contented with a decent, dull job drawing thousand odd...

may i just add that i've seen some really stupid men around too? they throw their money away in thousands without qualms.. like hellooooo...these are your hard earned money.....

there are some questions in life which have no answers.

sigh ok going back to books.

this sem was supposed to be different
but it looks like i'm heading down the same path once again...:(

so the boy flies away
and bringing my heart along....
till the day we meet again
90 days to happiness!

i love you!

weekend fatigue

this weekend has been rather packed with work, leaving me slightly drained, with a combination of aching bones and fatigued eyes. my poor poor eyes..they're giving me problems these days, turning red for god knows what reason, always feeling swollen and tired..how i envy those with perfect vision!

was forunate enough to witness the chinese new yr light up ceremony at chinatown. had up close and personal experience with the PM! managed to take some pics, from an exclusive point of view. unforunately i think i didnt adjust the settings on my camera properly, so the pics didnt turn out very well. disappointed.... saw the fireworkers and firecrackers! loveeeely!


chinatown was packeeed....


the best pic of the fireworks i have. it was exploding right above me! the aftermath wasnt that fun though, when the ashes started raining down on us.





why is it that some people seem to know what they want right from the start, while others take years to realise... feeling a tad directionless again, feeling lousy... it's not that terrible is it? life is about exploring new grounds...each step i take might be wrong, but at least from it i learn something about myself..

haiya, ok i'm gonna sleep. dont wanna think. that's the problem, i always dont wanna think.

realised in the past hour, i've used a number of beauty products. loreal cleanser/make up remover, fasio point make up remover, toner, bathe....loreal hydrafresh moisturiser, eye cream, body shop body lotion, eye drops for my blood shot eyes..

it has been a long day..i'm tired. have you ever began the weekend wishing the end would come soon? this is abnormal; normally people wish for weekdays to fly by faster. but i've got such a packed weekend ahead that i kind of wish i was just free to laze around.

yawns

illusions

illusions. what are illusions? magic is an illusion. it isnt what it is but it is what our mind construe it to be. people are illusions. is what you see always what you think he is? a man rejecting a woman, hurling hurtful words, without a care for how she would feel. as she weeped away, who saw a tear that was dangerously hanging at the corner of his eye? there is a certain sort of love in this world - giving it up. he who is cocky and everyone hates him cos he seems to 'has-it-all'..or does he? i've learnt that arrogance is often the most common option to conceal deeply buried insecurities. he, the notorious big bully in school. Back home, he quivers under his mother's relentless beatings. she dates men old enough to be her father. a few months later, we see her starring in the latest blockbuster.

this whole world is about illusions.

PHOTO-log

boredom is my only motivation...decided to post my photos taken on friday afternoon at vivo.


have you learn about the newly opened pet safari at vivo?


hamsterly love



"give me a home!"


dead to the world


casper's lookalike, i miss that boy!



dog grooming





murky water, extraordinarily quiet day at vivo gallery


the other side


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other photos taken by other photogs to share:


the efforts of many photogs and a model produced a brilliant photo!!


the fierce boys


tiger craze, how crude!