forbidden love

i can forsee that the library is going to be my second home this week. spent today in the library with shoonie, jackson, fulin, joyce and anning doing some hard core mugging. boring..

been going home these days because parents are abroad, and i'm supposed to be home at nights to look after my sis. quite a hassle to travel back and fro from sch..but oh well..the word is responsibility. what is more important than family?

my sis likes this guy from her church but they cant be together because apparently some person in her cell group (or ok, the general consensus) said they are too young to enter a relationship.. initally..i found that ridiculous.. too young?? the boy is 18. but she said.."what if he changes after he enters army?", "what if i get hurt in the end?", "we are supposed to wait till after NS.."..

i was like.."why?? you should just do whatever you want..it's your life..and who is to say things will turn out the way you think it would..you never know what will happen." how would you know it wont work out if you dont take a chance? why torture yourself? in life, you have to meet a few wrongs ones, to learn what you really want..before you can actually meet the right one..

however after much contemplation..perhaps my 16 yr old sis who looks like she is 13 yr old, possibly makes more sense than i do.. perhaps this mentality that i'm trying to impress on her, does not result in the wisest decisions made..

and it is why i am who i am today.

perhaps if there had been someone to tell me how things work, it wouldnt have been like this. perhaps if i havent been stubborn and bent on my own opinions, it wouldnt have been like this.

i have always been taking risks. uncalculated risks. thinking that even if eventually it doesnt work out, i'll still gain something out of it. isnt life all about experiencing? but..is it worth it? perhaps some insurance would have been wiser.. it would definitely have been better for the mental health.

the subject of rich friends came up over dinner today. rich. money. big houses. big cars. important? do they really matter so much? honestly, i still feel that the grass is always greener on the other side. not that anyone would mind having lots n lots of money, but eventually one day when you have it, you'll think that it's no big deal. life always works this way..doesnt it..

tourists

one week to exams..but me and dear decided to take a day off and went out the whole of today!! amazingly i dont feel gulity at all.. haha.. sheesh man this is bad. we went bugis first, and was on our way to suntec when we decided to pay a visit to the new national library. we behaved like tourists there lar..


view from the top..level 14!


kissing sir stamford raffles

the courtyard

smiles!


pout

sisters

the demon and her victim


kiss me notes..so much for studying..

culture night

the banner



poor joe sitting in a corner, tired out


me and selina: ok the headband does look kind of silly in the photos. haha..whatever!


edwin and me


all of us: happy ending!

this pic is awfully sweet..

i think..

culture night was on tonight. i would say it was only a moderate success. thought the decor could have been much much more elaborate. there was totally no feel of retro at all. but oh well, who am i to say anything. i was slacking most of the time. n the entire thingy was put together in a few days. a power failure came at an unearthly hour, just when the first performance was about to commence! the poor heads had to run all over the place, trying to find an alternate source. in the end the host had to resort to using a loudspeaker in replacement for a mike. anyway the culture com members had to dress up retro, and apparently i looked the most retroish, even though frankly speaking, i didnt put in much effort into my outfit. just threw on a few pieces of clothings that look remotely retro. bell bottoms, red spag, sash used as a headband, bangles, hoop earrings..oh well will post the photos up later!

nonetheless everything proceeded pretty smoothly, without any major glitches. enjoyable. and we had fun! :) so this is the joy of hall life...

had the chance to have a long chat with arvin, someeone whom i've yet to really talk to for quite some time. talked about the usual stuff..relationship was inevitably one of them. talked about balance, and pacing, 2 factors which i totally agree with him are essential to keep the flame going. this time round..i dont seem to be doing a very good job though.. :( he said he probably isnt going to stay on next sem.. haiz.. as more and more people leave, the lonelier i feel in this place..

the ex syndrome is raging huge now. there are many people around me now who are either in the grey zone, or cant bid farewell to their previous loved ones yet. i know it's hard..i've been through it.. them..more than once.. dont say i dont know how it feels like. some might say my recovery speed is miraculously fast, well i admit some have been easier than others. but i HAVE been through those times when you feel like you're most pathetic human being in the world. when you are a living zombie. when you wonder whether you'll ever love again. when you know you shouldnt, but those memories just cant stop pouring like torrents into your head.

what i have learnt is that, it's tough, but you do have control over your emotions. sometimes people just like to wallow in self pity and drown in their own sorrow, perhaps unknowingly.. like going through old photos even though you KNOW it will make you sad. listening to sad songs when you know they'll make you cry. going to the places you've been to with him.. you know these silly things.. believe it or not, people actually enjoy tormenting themselves. you have to be conscious of what you're doing to yourself, and make an effort to stop it. that is if you're really determined to climb out of that miserable and wretched shithole.

an unexpectedly long post. bf..hope you're having fun at mambo without me! :p

first month anniversary

dinner at michaelangelo's

an expensive meal..

expensive water..$12!!!! i'll never look at water the same way again..


appetizer: antipasto tesoro di Tuscany

our pastas

fettucine con salmon

penne michel


a cosy and romantic atmosphere..


my boy


tucking in


smiles

haagen dazs FONDUE!!!

irresistible!


yum yum yunmies!!


the aftermath..i think i gained an extra pound after that!

drinks

at tangos: one cosmos and one hoegarden

this is my happiness..

happy birthday my dear sister!!

family

one thing i'm most grateful about my life is that, i've no family problems at all. even though my mum always complains that my dad is the biggest ah toot in the world, who doesnt know how to do anything romantic for my mum, who always wears the same styles and shades of colour of clothes to work, who doesnt know how to pamper her, who complains she doesnt wear heels when my mum HATEs to wear heels, who..oops..hahaha.. but she appreciates the fact that my dad is stable, faithful and boring. boring is good, cos it means he will never cheat on her!

and my little sis, who looks like a 13 yr old although she is already 16!! oki she is a little cutesy pie that you cant help but adore. but she does get on my nerves sometimes with her unreasonable and most absurd requests.


















my dear bro..all the way in aussie..the big bro to the little sis.. :)

to you, to me

to roam the streets of venice
to share the spirits of discoveries and travel
to be with you
to see the world
to wake up to the first rays of sunlight with you by my side
to sparkling water
to breathtaking landscapes
to cathedrals, castles and squares
to shopping, shopping and more shopping
to funny noises
to telepathy
to you
to me.

my bf and his bf

my bf..pretending to study again!


malboro rocks ronald mcdonald's world

muffin's portfolio

my dear dear's kitty bom bom....kawaii ne!!!


i'm gonna get a backache in the morning!


hug hug..


tiger wannabe


pretty boy


the model


love me


giving me the evil eye..


rabbit cat

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was really kind of disappointed cos we didnt get to go zouk last night! received word that the place was literally flooded before we even reached there. josh said he couldnt even find the end of the queue..? sigh. oh wellies. anyway it's the good company that matters most. ended up going obar (again..). it was alright. didnt drink much, stomach didnt feel very well since i didnt eat dinner.

met KC last night and chatted for a while. he said i looked too skinny! and i should have a bit of meat if i want to look nicer! n i thought i was putting on weight.. he said,"xiao jie, it's time to be serious..". yea..i know i know..i know! and i am..

went shopping with mum and sis today. i always love shopping with mum, because i can shop freely without any worries whether it would deplete the funds in my account. heh well in the end i only bought a pair of earrings from isetan, and a half-sweater from topshop..which my bf commented..earrings - ya, quite nice, sweater - ok lar. i dont know. *roll eyes* you know, clothes to guys are all the same, they only remember the colours. ok you see this nice black black skirt and ask him whether it's nice, then he'll go,"dont you have a black skirt like this already?" then you start pointing out all the differences..this one is longer, this one has sequims, the cutting's different blah blah..oh speaking of which..i saw some lovely skirts at espirit! but ah..the nice ones are really too pricey..

my stomach is growling..

would you dance with me

my bf's obsession (with fcuk shirts)

haagen daz treat

dear's erm..i forgot what it's called..some extremely sweet ice cream..


brownie attraction..simply divine!!!!

mugger toads

nus forum: pretending to study..


chao ah beng!!..look like some ah pek at kopitiam right..


unlike my bf, i was hard at work in the central library..hmm do not disturb..the future dr tay at work..(HAha YA rights)