caught confessions of a shopaholic with bf yesterday. i enjoy chick flicks, and many of them make up some of my fav movies. i'm also a big fan of sophie kinsella's books. but i was surprised to find myself quite disappointed with the movie! maybe cos it's so drastically different from the original storyline. the movie was admittedly verry funny at some points, but painfully predictable. becky was adorable and loveable, yet she made me feel slightly annoyed with her irresponsible and shallow behaviour.

one doesnt get away with everything just because you're a pretty red head with luck. the original story honestly had so more substance to it.

in comparison, i thought sex and the city and devil wears prada were much better. ooooh well.

walking in circles

if only i have studied something else instead of life sciences.
if only i have had someone to seek advice from.
if only i have strived to achieve more in school.
if only i have given more thought to the future before entering my first job.
if only i knew what i wanted in life earlier.

if only if only...

life could have been so different.

there's so much i think i could have achieved, but hadnt.

but who could have accelerated the know-what-u-want-in-life process?

even now, i'm not sure whether i completely know the answer.

i've been walking around in circles, until i finally found a chance to walk out of it, only to wonder if i'm heading in the correct direction.

i keep thinking to myself: there must be more than that in it for me.

i'm not contented with just this.

i want more.

"you've got to start somewhere."

"your brain is like an underutlilised sponge; there's still so much more capacity to absorb and learn."

yes, there's so much for me to learn; i'm feeling excited.

but then again, on a more cynical note, isnt that always the case at the beginning?

tomorrow is the start of a brand new relationship.

i trust that this time, i have made a wiser choice.

also, i got to knock my head and constantly remind myself not to repeat mistakes which i have committed before.

i wanna go shopping!

but he is sleeping.

what a pig.

zzz.

16 vs 24

i was bored, so i went back in time to look at my forgotten past.

www.geocities.com/yimingggg - i typed this into the browser, wondering if it's still in existence.

and it is!

the last time i updated it was in 2002, when i was 17. i'm amazed with myself. i could actually create an entire website on myself, with midis and photos using dreamweaver. No doubt the design is extremely simple and of no award winning material, but it is still my work that tells the story of my youth.

reading the comments in the guestbook touched me, even though the last one was written 4 yrs ago.

i'm made to recall the similarities and the differences between the 16 yr old tay me and the 24 yr old me.

i'm steadier now. happier too - i would like to believe so although it remains to be questionable sometimes. i know who i am and where i'm heading. whereas at 16, i was a girl trying to find my way out of the mist, lost and confused.

however, at 24, i dont think i would have the courage to bare out my heart and soul and tell the whole world my life story.

music

another 2 songs i like at the moment:

安静了by S.H.E

and

下雨天 by Lara from 南拳媽媽.

i'm sooo cheeenaaa.

bring it all back

i know it's extremely old school, but i'm suddenly thinking of this song:

Don't stop, never give up
Hold your head high and reach the top
Let the world see what you have got
Bring it all back to you

Hold on to what you try to be
Your individuality
When the world is on your shoulders
Just smile and let it go

If people try to put you down
Just walk on by
don't turn around
You only have to answer to yourself

Don't you know it's true what they say
That life, it ain't easy
But your time's coming around
So don't you stop trying

Dream of falling in love
Anything you've been thinking of
When the world seems to get too tough
Bring it all back to you

Try not to worry 'bout a thing
Enjoy the good times life can bring
Keep it all inside you
Gotta let the feeling show

Imagination is the key
Cos you are you're own destiny
You never should be lonely
When time is on your side

Don't you know it's true what they say
Things are sent to try you
But your time's coming around
So don't you stop tryin'

sigh, and so it's this song that's keeping me company, while i hold my head high with forced optimism, trying to disregard the bleakness i'm feeling inside..

cos i just need to keep telling myself...MY TIME'S COMING AROUND!

there's so much i wish to say.

a bagful of woes...

but it's easier to act like it all didnt really matter.