walking in circles

if only i have studied something else instead of life sciences.
if only i have had someone to seek advice from.
if only i have strived to achieve more in school.
if only i have given more thought to the future before entering my first job.
if only i knew what i wanted in life earlier.

if only if only...

life could have been so different.

there's so much i think i could have achieved, but hadnt.

but who could have accelerated the know-what-u-want-in-life process?

even now, i'm not sure whether i completely know the answer.

i've been walking around in circles, until i finally found a chance to walk out of it, only to wonder if i'm heading in the correct direction.

i keep thinking to myself: there must be more than that in it for me.

i'm not contented with just this.

i want more.