ramblings again

it's so irritating being a human sometimes. the ability to feel makes the carrying of a task less efficient. sometimes i feel like i'm being taken on a roller coaster ride; one moment i'm flying high, the next i'm plunging deep into the abyss.

there are so many sides to a story, so many angles that one is able to look at a certain issue, so many stands which you can choose to take...how do you decide which one you want to sit on? i'm not even saying we should take the right one, because certainly there's no right one. most often than not, we would choose the one that makes us more comfortable, no? the one that succeeds in making us feel the best, perhaps letting us feel victimised and allowing us to indulge in several bouts of self-pity without feeling loser-istic about it. and then unfortunately, someone else comes into the picture, presents another point of view, knocks you out of that self-pity mode, and you realise you're indeed being loser-istic.

sometimes i wish i can deflect opinions/comments like a reflecting board, but like greenhouse effect, there's only so much heat that i can fight, the rest is inevitably absorbed and it scorches.

take for example, walking on a tightrope on the 98th storey. it's not the fear of falling that impedes one's progress; but the fear of the fear of falling.

anyway i'm sick and tired of thinking. just do it man!

*yawns* onto the 2nd season of entourage.