no fun anymore

into my 3rd week of work, and am given slightly more responsibilities than before. i found that i actually like getting work done and being organised.

the strange thing is, the more alcohol there is available, the less i feel like drinking. i drink very little at work, where alcohol is almost free flow. i always think...'what's the point really?'. get yourself so damn high and drunk and what do you stand to gain at the end of the day? getting taken advantage by others? acting like a clown for others' entertainment? others would argue that well well since you're out then you might as well let your hair down, drink and have fun. but must you drink damn a lot to have fun??

somehow there's a total switch of mentality when i club for work, and when i club with friends.

i only feel like drinking when there's someone attractive around, then at least there's a desire for inhibition.

i'm interacting more and more with the older crowd, very common in my line of work. i see those who are catching up on their age, but still energetic. on the contrary, i'm young but jaded.

i cant help but feel, i'm no fun anymore.

and also, i know this may sound ungrateful, but i've had so much good food over the past few days, that all i'm really craving for now is a bowl of laksa.