the meet up

the turnout for pa7 gathering tonight was good. only 3 people were missing: aiai who is still in melbourne, liang guo and caihui who seemed to have disappeared from the surface of this earth. i dont even see them around in school! it felt all warm and cozy in the heart seeing everyone as usual, i get that feeling every time we meet up. it's actually pretty amazing that we are still able to stay this close 7 months after the expedition. normally groups like orientation groups disintegrate very soon and everyone just starts to drift apart from one another, except for a few small cliques here and there. credits go to the few who are always organising the outings, keeping all of us still in contact with one another..

the atmosphere for the outing was a little more forlorn than usual. i cant pinpoint the reason, but somehow it felt as if there was a layer of grey gloom overshadowing us all. fengyi didnt looked like herself. she looked tired n haggard. what is wrong?? i asked alex and xj how pa8 went, and i received mixed answers: "there were both fun and un-fun parts." true..this is true for all expeditions..but if anyone was to ask me the same question about pa7, i would answer with enthusiasm, and recall only the happy moments.

maybe i'm just being over sensitive.

facing the impending graduation from uni, both me and xj barely have any concrete plans about our future. the older girls who are already working starting giving us advice. umm..got my brain churning... indeed, there are many paths ahead of us to choose from. the question boils down to "what you want to do?" and not "what can you do?".. at least you got to answer the former before you come to the latter. what lies ahead? what lies ahead.... one year later, what would i have become?

spent quite a bit today..ashamed to say they're on rather frivolous stuff again..eyeliner, sponges, lipstick, stockings...a pouch for dearie's ipod nano...dearie's ipod nano which i agreed to sponsor half for...manz...should start watching my spending. trying to save up for the trip to europe in may. i cant wait! there is just sooo much i want to see...