today

today. is. a. nice. day. :) alright nothing exciting or eventful really happened. but i just feel happy. ok i FELT happy. now i'm just..neutral. home sweet home. but it's starting to feel kind of boring. little sis is still out, mum and dad having some intensive discussion over their business thingy. oh well...this is home.

hmm so what did i do today.. went for my last jap TC class for this sem. TC class involves memorising some short dialogue every week and everyone has to take parts role playing and it's graded. sounds stressful, but it's fun! kind of sad that it has ended.. made some unexpected friends who can crap along with me.. hmm.. life does occasionally take unexpected turnings.

had lunch next with sean, lv and joo teng at the biz canteen. i never liked the biz canteen..it's so darrrk..and glooomy.. but anyway, we had our nice weekly chit chat over the usual laksa i had and their spaghetti. biz is supposed to serve especially tasty western food, but the disgustingly long queue just totally put me off.

then we had lects at sci. life sci lect ended an hour so early, so it gave us a free hour to waste away before the next lect. i 'forced' terence to buy me mocha spin from spinelli, but it didnt taste very nice, so i drank his chocolate devilish twist instead. (haha!) i was telling him i think i was his slave in my past life, so he has to repay me back in this life by being extraordinarily nice to me. haha! anyway sean, terence and i had another nice talk, about our future. coincidentally, i realised all three of us have parents involved in some sort of family business. but..

"we are like three lost souls, floating about aimlessly..not knowing where we are going, not knowing what we want.."

"as the day of our graduation draws nearer, the more i'm freaking out.."

"it's not necessarily such a bad thing.. the scholars seemed to have it good, having their life all paved out ahead of them, but that's precisely the obstacle that prevents them from achieving more in life. but people like us..we search, we strive harder..because we dont know what is in store for us..and hence there's potential.."

there are always two sides to a coin.
the grass is always greener on the other side.
*shrug*..one cannot survive without optimism.

studied in the central library with bf and some other friends. was pretty productive. and now all of them are out in town, about to watch a movie, while i'm at home, in front of the com typing this. so no life eh!!

i chose to come home. dont feel like out roaming on the streets at this hour. was thinking since i have that bit of time, might as well come home and spend some time with my little sis and parents. :)

haha mum just came me and showed me this top she bought today while her and dad went out pak toring today. *roll eyes* she sounded so delightful with her buy lar.. haha..

--> to you, you know who you are: pls take care of yourself... exams are coming soon, concentrate on the more impt things alright? i dont know what i can say to you already..because i think you know what i will say, and i've already said the same stuff a zillion times. i just..seriously..so wish that the old you i know will come back..the old bubbly cheerful you.. not someone bounded by so much confusions and conflicts..not someone so filled with sorrow and pain and hurt.. not someone who sees the world in shades of grey and bleakness.. :(.. you can do it girl. you can..tell yourself you've the strength to stand up. i know YOU CAN!!!

-->to the 2nd you..ahh i miss you already!! haha.. :p