u know sometimes i know that my flaws are staring right at me but i just refuse to admit them? sometimes i'm really not the person i seem to be.. that i project myself to be.. but for fear that i will actually make the people around me more concious and aware of my flaws, i hide them. is it better that way? if i voice them out, i in a way degrade myself and make others more sensitive to it. good or bad, some people might not really mind, n will laugh it off w me, whereas others might keep in within themselves n see me as inferior in that particular aspect. should i hide it? let others discover it for themselves. i might be able to conceal it well..i might not..take a chance..

understand what i'm driving at? at the very least.. i know it wouldnt matter to him..

went sunset bay today. the weather is hot hot HOT.. 34 degrees! i think this feb is the hottest month in sg for the past dunno how many years. my back is peeling pretty badly. i am still not very much tanner.. :/

dinner at his friend's place. she is married and has a 6 months' old son! she is..22? shotgun marriage? i suppose. but she seems happy! which was a surprise for me because i didn't think such marriages prompted by external factors other than love would turn out to be a happy ending. her husband n her seemed loving enough. perhaps it's too soon? just a yr.. perhaps.. they are really in love w each other n geniuely believe in leading a life tgr.. how sweet.. age is not a problem huh?