today has been a long day.. i'm feeling exhausted, and drained.. eyelids weighing heavier by the minute..

dp ended successfully today. the marketing crew members had to wear nurses' uniforms which most commented was kinky. i had the 'luck' of wearing the only green uniform whereas the others wore white, SGH look alike uniform.. oh well doesn't really matter much.. it just made me stand out a little more than the others.. the acting cast was great, professional, engaging, arresting the audience's attention. the dancers were fabulous, choreo was fun, costumes were eye catching..

to that person..who knows who he is that i'm refering to..

i'm not gonna reply your sms because i see no point in msging u while u're drunk. it's true i met this guy, and it was before our break up. however he was absolutely not the cause of it. it would have happened sooner or later, it was only a matter of time because i wasn't happy. it wasn't enough. nothing happened between us before that, i must admit there was slight attraction, but our status remained merely as friends. as u mentioned, if given time, my feelings for you would grow? i know it wouldn't. dont ask me why, there are some things that have no reason, i just know.. i just want to tell u that i have given it a try, i have, but it didn't work out. it wont even if given time. accept it.

it's my fault. for even giving it a try right from the very first day. i should have known it was a mistake. but i didnt know eventually i would hurt u this much. i just wanted to give it a try. to give things a chance to work out. but it didnt.

and now i'm with this guy. people said it's fast. i must say that if i were to judge this whole situation from an outsider's point of view, it's definitely shockingly fast. people think we are both not serious. i'm jumping. it's not gonna last. so is it gonna be a few more months before i get another? i must heard these comments more than 10 times in the past few days since i started relating to people my experiences..

i'm sick of trying to convince people this time it's different. it's different. it's just different. again i fail to find a logical explanation. i just can feel it. it just feels right. love comes when it comes. fate comes when it comes. it's difficult for those who havent experienced it before to understand. i'm tired to explaining. take it or leave it. i believe in myself.

to you..if u have once fallen for me.. if u could even recall how it feels like.. maybe u would understand what i'm saying.. if you're able to put aside your hurt for a sec.. n look upon this situation w neutrality.. but i guess it's almost impossible for u to do so.. alright if u hate me.. i only hope one day you'll understand..