just had squash training. had my first squash match yesterday in ages. i lost. bad. not cos i lost, but cos my opponent wasnt better than me in terms of skills n i still lost, in spirit. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me, i just cant bring up the spirit in me, to chase after the ball, to make that effort to play better.. i was in the OFF mode. totally off. what's up manz girl??

today is my free day. should i go home? hmm yea i should..