let it snow let it snow

i'm back from the land of 'kimchi", as zx so put it. indeed, every single meal came with kimchi and those small little bowls of seaweed, veg and more veg, which both me and bf do not eat. but the bbq pork, the ginseng chicken and rice were tasty. the trip was great, really did enjoy myself. we went with a tour and met some interesting people. the group was mainly made of families, parents who brought their children out during the school hols. me and bf got acquainted with some aunties who the way they treated us, reminded us of our parents.

the weather was cold but not as cold as expected when we were at jeju at the start of the trip. we could stay outdoors without jackets. however progressively, temperatures dropped. just before we left seoul, it was close to -7 degrees. VERY cold. regrettedly, we didnt get to see any snow. sigh!

some of my favourites in korea (not the full collection yet as i havent uploaded all my photos) . it's the real stuff, no photoshopping at all!

my favourite activity - skiing at yongpyong resort, where winter sonata was filmed.

the thrill of the speed when you're skiing down the slope..whoa, wish i could do it all over again.

the coldest place during my trip in korea - we took a cable car to the top of the mountain, dragon peak, where the ski slope starts.

snow snow everywhere, freezing cold when the wind blows.

my fav pic - the most beautiful place in the entire trip - nami island, where winter sonata was filmed also.

the happiest place in korea - everland


the most adorable animal - sexy bear at safari in Everland

myongdong - korea's shopping district. the lightboxes reminded me of hong kong!


more to come soon!

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i saw how this pair of sisters treated each other and their mum during the trip. it made me feel ashamed of myself. why cant i give my love to someone as unconditionally as they do? why cant be as selfless?

perhaps once upon a time i was like that, but i've already learned the danger of giving it all. it's like forcing yourself into a dead end with no other way route to escape should plan A fails. so we have learned to adjust and accommodate - give in moderation, so that if the blow does come one day, we already have an airbag prepared in front of our chest to buffer the pain.

having said that, i've this sudden impulse to love him more
give him more of my love
wish for nothing in return
letting it go
is it possible to do that?

also, i've come to realised - the older one gets, the more one understands the meaning of fear
it doesnt get any easier; it gets worse
like a baby who has never fallen before, has no fear of walking
like a hand which got scalded before, will stay away from kettles
like a teenager who was humiliated in front of his classmates, will shun the limelight
some things just dont get easier with age