loving yourself

when i was younger, i always hear those elder telling us the younger ones that we have to zi ai, which in other words means loving yourself, treasuring yourself... at that time, my first thoughts were: isn't it obvious? everyone loves themselves. this is why people shop, go for manis and pedis, watch movies, go for holidays... i love me that's why i pamper myself.

and it's now, i realised, i have never fully comprehend the true meaning of these 2 very simple words.

loving yourself means being kind to yourself, in more ways than just satisfying one's material needs. it's about a person's physical well being and mental state. why starve yourself and get gastric? why drink yourself silly, act stupid and get a horrible hangover the next day? why sleep late and allow yourself to look haggard and old? why get heart broken by people whom dont give a damn about you?

why let yourself suffer..?

and it's what i've experienced in the past year, that finally made me realised, i should be kinder to myself. i should stop torturing my body.

two of my colleagues are in their early forties and they have stopped drinking completely. one had alcohol poisoning and was hospitalised for 2 weeks. another one has high blood pressure. it's only when shit happened, that they decided it was time to stop.

another one drank, fell asleep and got into an accident just last night. thankfully though the car is probably in ruins now, he is complete in one piece, except for an insignificant cut on the finger.

but what if..just what if..any one of them werent that lucky...

oh well..so just love yourself. you deserve better.