this time..

me, thomas and jenson at majestic bar opening

lanterns at chinatown

me and jenson/xian cong

i'm still full of doubts really, whether this would work out. were we too impulsive? have we given this enough thought? but i do get this feeling that both of us have came to a stage when we have seen enough and experienced enough, and we both know what we're looking for. we just dont know what we've found what we are looking for.

and so he said, he will try. for now, that's good enough for me.

i'm happy, and that's all that matters.

this time, i'm gonna make sure it's different.

attraction

love is such a strange quality isnt it.

sometimes we think the person we like must have A, B, C...but love certainly doesnt work this way. when you meet someone for the first time, sometimes there is this inexplicable, strong magnetic attraction. you feel drawn to the person, and you have no explanation for it. is it because he looks good in that white shirt? is it because of his big, puppy eyes? is it because how the way he smiles? what is it???

it's beyond logic.

for most people, you either encounter a like-pole repulsion, or reach a neutrality point, but for him, it seems like a south pole and north pole are placed in a magnetic field - attraction.\

a RANDOM post.

mambo madness

it was tim's bday on wed, so we celebrated it at zouk. but where is he??

me, josh and lisa, josh reeed from drinking too much

mark, shufen, josh, me and eh..who is that? madness on the dance floor

other social nights....

drinks at majestic bar, a very nice cosy three-storey pub

me and chris

me and ryan: yum yum at this very authentic chinese supper place

raining tuesday

my blog is getting boring these days. it seems i'm finding it harder and harder to conjure up interesting stuff to write about my life. sigh, is my life really that mundane these days? not really i guess, but maybe i'm expecting too much.

the weather is crazy these days. one minute i'm walking on the streets, perspiring under the scorching hot sun; the next second it starts to pour cats and dogs.

and i feel like going on a holiday...AGAIN. but i have to restrain myself. i have already pledged that 2008 is gonna be a year of more stability, in every sense. think i have had my fair share of travel adventures in 2007. but........the likes of japan and korea are calling out to me....lalala...

lalala

just to show i'm still alive! dropped by the shoot at 'perfect in black' today, and met up with some familiar faces.

the ongoing shoot, ryan and russian model

me and ryan

me and chris

the perfect life

i wonder how it's like, to seem like one is leading the perfect life

just came back from dinner/dessert with the vj boys, gw and terence. gw really does seem to be leading THE perfect life! i can be sure i'm safe writing these cos he just mentioned he doesnt read blogs haha. he is a practising doc, albeit still a relatively new one. he just got engaged recently and is holding his wedding this coming nov. no money woes, no love woes...what more can you ask for in life?

i tried to recall a time in my life when everything seemed perfect. i'm sure there has been a time when an outsider would look into the window and could find nothing wrong. but the fact is, there is always something wrong.

peer into the window a house and see a happy family enjoying your dinner. but who knows what really goes on inside this house?

perhaps the father just got retrenched, the mum has cervical cancer, the dog just died, the sister lost a million bucks in stocks.....ok that's painting the worst case scenario. what i'm trying to say is that you never really know unless you're part of it. and even when you're really part of it, you may not really know because everyone has a part of their lives they do not wish to share with anyone else.

sometimes it could be as minor as the nitty-gritties in life that add up and continue to irk you. like a colleague at work with an annoying high pitched voice that you cant stand working with; or just the mundaneness of the life; or one day you wake up and realise you dont know what the hell you're doing and you dont know what you're doing will get you to...

sigh sigh.

i'm at a crossroad of my life. whatever decision i choose to make now will affect the rest of my life. there is so much uncertainty, so much instability. i'm seeking advice, but yet i was told i should trust my own instincts. i'm a little lost, i'm a little confused. what's right? what is wrong? what will work? what will not? should i trust myself, or should i believe in the experienced?

i'm so vexed, that i think i'm close to giving in to the convention. stability, is something i long for now.