the next step

i'm still constantly making new discoveries about myself. i know, i'm 22, already. is a 22 year old supposed to know-it-all about herself? should i have already passed the teenage phase of discovering my 'self-identity'? i still dont know what i wanna do, where i wanna be...just when i have an inkling of oh, perhaps this is the road i want to be heading, then something comes along and tells me that it doesnt feel very right. i cant seem to make out what i really want. do i want a high powered up life, climbing corporate ladder, earning big bucks, enjoying a luxurious life? or do i want an okay, easy going life, and do the things that make my life a happy life? you know..like having a flexible life style, having time to do things, to travel, relaxed and stress free... or working late hours every night, a fast paced life, perhaps being able to travel abroad to work, having my life revolves around my career.. it's kind of like in school actually. hmm...

sigh, i'm really a neither here nor there person. it's driving me crazy.

i was just telling ryan, i think that i have it too easy in life so far, which is why i'm too lazy to even strive for anything now. because i never had to. after pri school came rgs, after rgs came rjc, after rjc came nus, i never had to fight, oh well i dont count studying hard to meet the grades 'fighting'. a smooth transition from one to the next, that's what it has all been about. i never really had to think hard about what step to take next. but NOW...i really have to work my brain cells hard. where do i go from here, in a few months' time?

jaded, i admit i've been feeling rather jaded recently. sarah asked me whether it was because i had exposure to 'life' much earlier than others. grew up too fast? i started working when i was 14. you know it's the first time you actually said something so serious to me, sarah tan?? hahah must be the semi-drunken states we were in... but anyway your words did strike a chord.. i cant give up on life... the world is BRIGHT!!! i've got to liven up! (dont worry i'm 101% not suicidal, too afraid of pain ahah..)

which is why i'll be going sentosa to take photos of the flowers tmr... hehe...

monday night



me and andre once again doing our act-cute-photowhoring. outside swensens waiting for davis and jon to come after their 'ecas'...did i mention we waited for almost 2 hours odd?? from 12 AM to 2 AM??

tuesday night

ktv with my colleagues: tracy's butt and joey


me and my wonderful wonderful boss, sean who can sing reallllyyy well!


one big happy family

wednesday night was spent crazily zouking with sarah, marvin and cheekeong, as well as chris and his french colleague who joined us later. we jumped back and fro from velvet to phuture to zouk and then to phuture again for the last 10 mins. it has been a while since i clubbed till zouk closed. it was great fun peeps! i'm not sure whether chris and the french dude enjoyed themselves as much as us... ooh but i must say it was terribly romantic to listen to the guy speak french..ummmmm~