withdrawal symptoms

been 4 days since i came back from cambodia, and i'm still suffering from signs of withdrawal symptoms. i guess i'm not the only one, since most of us on the trip with me have phrases like 'missing cambodia' in our msn nicks. i really miss the 21 days i've spent there. i suppose it's not so much of the place, although i do like it; it's the company that i truly missed.

i miss waking up in the mornings and already having jokes hurled around. i miss having great company around me. i miss holidaying around. i miss looking forward to a day full of events and adventures. i miss the cheap food. i miss taking the tuk tuk around. i miss the shopping. i miss bargaining and the thrill of bargaining. i miss the vast blue skies and puffy clouds. i miss the rainbows. i miss bugging qm to take photos for me. i miss the night skies littered with uncountable number of stars. i miss bunking in someone's room at night, playing stupid games like 'zhong ji mi ma', 'cai quan', 'heart attack' and trying to get fy and lg drunk haha. ooh yea i miss the cheap alcohol there too.

so as u can tell, i'm in love, and am currently love sick, to the dismay of my bf, because i've been pretty disinterested in everything else these days. no, u havent done anything wrong, it's just withdrawal symptoms, just like what i told u.

the trip has been good. good in every way possible. it had been fun, definitely. it had been enriching, and i've learnt and seen much. the project hadnt been all smooth sailing, there had been unhappiness, conflicts, and even confusion along the way. things had gone terribly wrong at certain points of time, like when we thought we werent be able to finish the project on time, or when the van broke down midway between the town and the village in the middle of a heavy thunderstorm, or when our snorkelling outing turned out to be a nightmare on the sea.

things might not have gone according to plan, but they were memories worth keeping. they are memories that many years down the road, when we meet again, we will reminisce on them fondly.

i guess the trip has also widened my perspectives of the world, or perhaps more accurately, of life. learnt to look at the larger picture and not focus on the nitty-gritties. there is a lot more to life than..getting good grades, getting a good job, to fame to money to power and whatsoever... there are people who spent their entire lives in the village, and never knew that there's a world outside their little village.

hmm and ya..life goes on..the void returns and once again, i'm trying all means to fill it.