Friends

i have friends whom i used to be very close to. i used to see them everyday. we used to do a lot of things together. and then life changes, our paths diverged. i no longer see them very often. we no longer do the same things together. when i spoke abt them to others, i still refer to them as my good friends, but sometimes i wonder, are we really still as close? or have our lives differed so much from one another, that we would have nothing to talk about when we meet up?

yet i know that there are others that, no matter how much time and distance have tore us apart, when we finally meet, it'll be just like the old times.

i have friends i see often, whom i know will stand by me no matter what happens, whom i know we will be friends till the end the time. yet sometimes, just occasionally, they too disappoint me. with some tactless words uttered, some insensitive actions. but i supposed these are forgiven, for each friendship is not without its own hiccups.

i have friends whom i see pretty often, but sometimes when i look into their eyes, i dont know what i see, what i hear, is real. somehow, deep down inside, something tells me i cant trust them.

i have friends i see every now and them. we eat, we drink, we club, we have fun, we have no issues, and we are happy.

i have friends whom i know will do anything for me.

i have friends i've hurt and lost.
i had friends i've hurt and lost.

sigh.