the simple things in life

feelings of discomfit were churning in my stomach. my mind seemed to have lost its focus..words were blurring and when they werent, they didnt make sense. it was weird for me. and that sensation was remote. havent i already mastered the art of acting nonchalant even in the most awkward of situations? in the first place, do i even really care that much?

perhaps i do, just that i dont know it.

perhaps i do, just that i dont want to believe it.

i just wanted to disappear. perhaps eternal sunshine of a spotless mind could really come in of some use now.

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met up with my rgs buddies. had dinner at fish and co, and though i was already down to my last penny, i dont think i should give this a miss. rachel is going back to imperial on thurs, zhao qi back to cambridge on thurs. the next time we meet will be a few months from today again.

we caught up with each other's lives. rachel is still with zhigao after 3 yrs..or has it been longer than that? to that, i can only express envy.. we asked her whether she still feel that spark for him after all this while, and she said yes. but perhaps that was brought about by long times and distances apart. nonetheless, she is still deeply in love with him...

she is the reason why i still believe in true love.

teresa looks almost anorexic..think she has been studying too hard! anyway i fed them with my 'exciting' love stories again. she said her life has been smooth sailing so far, no ups, but no downs either. it's boring but hey at least the sad moments are minimised as well. whereas my life has always been one hell of a rollar coaster ride. but i said..that makes me a rather sad person sometimes. sometimes looking back at what i've been through, it makes me sad.

"are all the heartaches worth it?" she asked. i wondered about that myself too.. i admit there were occasions when i was the one inflicting pain on others. but hey seriously life is fair, it's not as if i havent felt pain before. isnt that life, you take some, you give some..

sarah, rachel and i went to breko for some drinks after that. had a nice long chat. it felt so good just sitting there and chatting about everything and anything under the sun.. i'm so glad i've such great girl buddies.. :)