"when i get old i want to look back at my life and know it was a worthwhile one." got this from the new book i'm currently on now. it's those typical rags to riches story of a pretty, intelligent, compassionate girl born in the slums of london, rising from poverty to forge a new life in new york. oh ya the book is called never look back, by lesley pearse. hmm mm.. never look back.. how apt.. my philosophy in life. guo le jiu suan le, why must harp on old blood. one day you gonna die, and everything wont matter anymore. what if you realise you're going to die tmr? are you still gonna dwell on small stupid trival minute insignificant affairs? hmm..

been to a lot of interviews lately. it amuses me to hear what people think of me sometimes. because what they think of me doesnt seem to be what i thought myself to be. either i've changed, or i've learnt the art of putting up a facade, presenting what the world wants to see. maybe i've become two faced unknowingly. ok i'm making this whole situation sounds a tad too serious. no everything is fine, i'm still me. lala..

blogs were supposed to be online personal journals ya. but recently they have caused such a brouhaha in singapore. hardly personal anymore.. crap. blogs are pretendious. you write what you want others to read. and the real real thoughts and feelings?? still inside the mind!! the safest place.

yawns. i'm not making much sense am i. i want to go on a holiday.