post mortem

feeling pretty tired, but sleep seems to be eluding me. thought of blogging, to dispel my boredom. was thinking of how my first year in nus was spent... am i any different now from the 19 year old, fresh of out jc girl, who entered nus last august.. am i more matured..have my perspectives changed...

i've experienced quite a fair bit. there was sports camp before sch started, hall orientation, the sci pageant at the beginning of last sem, getting accustomed to hall life, making new friends, going berkelah water falls, going shanghai with family. this sem feels relatively shorter..there was mlm, ihg, eusoff pageant..

people have passed and left. some left faint foot prints, some left indelible beautiful memories, some left ugly scars...but whatever it is..they have came and passed..what matters most if the present.

lost some friends, made new ones. does life work like that..gain some lose some..

relationships have been messy affairs. viscous cycle..yes..not all, a few. who starts out a relationship with the intention that it will end in tears.. i'm certainly not so bored till i want to put myself through unnecessary misery. play around? i've passed that stage seriously. n it's impossible for me to play around..because i'll inevitably get emotionally involved.. i just want one, and that's it..and i want that one to have a happy ending.. haiz.. but how many really know how i feel..