grandfather passed away yesterday.. at the grand age of 90.. i must say he is considered very long lived, considering the fact that he has been smoking all his life, even when i saw him during chinese new year this year. it was sudden. he was hospitalised on thurs, n then before anyone knew it, he was gone the next morning. it is good in a sense.. save him from much suffering, or the thought that his death date is hovering near.. i cant say i'm especially sad, cos after all i was never very close to him.. mum is upset of course.. inevitably.. although she didnt express any of emotions to us.. neither did she shed any tears.. but i guess deep down inside she must be really.. sorrowful? grief stricken? i'm lousy at offering words of consolation.. so.. sigh..

i'm confused once again...