the meaning of pain..

joel said that when he was training in brunei, they were made to stay in the jungle 6 days without any food. he said that during these 4 days, the people he thought most about is his family. next came his friends, n then lastly jing, the girl he thought till today is the girl he would loved most in his lifetime. he said he realised a lot of things dun matter.. n all he wants to do now is to spend more time with his family.

mum said..did mum and dad not give me enough love? is that the reason why i'm constantly looking for love from other sources? her eyes seemed misty as she spoke.. pain.. no mum, that isn't the case.. i dont know why i'm like that..