whoa it's late.. n i'm still awake.. haiz was thinking about what daming told me the other day.. that i'm such a lukewarm person.. it's really quite true. there is nothing i really like. be it studies, squash, or whatever, nothing can hold my interest for long. i just dont have that burning desire and fire to accomplish sth big. i used to have it.. once.. when i was sec 1 or 2, i trained almost everyday.. cos my aim was to become the best player in my age group. i almost did achieved it, but i gave up soon after, cos i was..bored? i dont know. young minds work the weird way. i understand how i felt yet i dont understand.. ok contradictory. nvm.

right now there is the biz that keeps me going. it sets a kind of goal in my life, a new direction.. something that i've been looking for.. something to work towards.. i know a lot of pple have been saying negative things about it, n things arent exactly going easy for me.. but hey, never try never know. i may succeed, i may fail, but whatever it is, i gain the experience, i learn. isnt that what life is all about? discovering new things? learning? paving out new experiences?

so brave on girl...