does it really matter what people think of me.. that question is being played in my mind repeatedly.. does it matter.. i know there are people who think really badly of me, but it doesnt really affect me because i always think, those people who hates me dont know me, so if they dont know me, why would what they think matter? n those who know me, would understand why i did what i did.. that.. i'm really not such an awful person, even though sometimes i do things they dont understand.. they dont understand me, but they'll support me..whatever i do..

ok sorry for rambling on n on...

but i must say i cant blame others for thinking for they think of me sometimes.. if i'm an outsider looking at myself.. i'll probably think i'm a slut too..

sometimes.. i dont understand myself either.. i just.. do things.. do whatever i want.. right or wrong, wrong or right.. just like that..

am i making sense..

sigh....