yesterday was a feel good day. it really feels good to know i have such good friends around, friends that are likely to stay with me all my life...

met up with zhaoqi and teresa cos zhaoqi is going back to cambridge next mon. whoa cambridge manz. what is nus in comparison. she doesnt seem to be having that much fun there though. but i know kailun is having a great time in imperial, travelling around uk, and vanessa too in oxford.

haiz. i have friends who are such high fliers. makes me feel inferior.

sarah was supposed to meet us but she stood us up at the last min, excuse being: too tired. n then she still had the cheek to ask me if i was going zouk later!! tired still can go zouk!! ... nvm, no big surprise, it's sarah.

other members of the group missing in action: amanda - working at hard rock, rach - still at imperial

went zouk w kenny n joel. they were crude. first words when they saw me:"don't match! go back and change!" ...irritating. eh what i was wearing really doesnt match?? i didn't think so, soo..what the heck. i'm comfortable in it..that's what that really matters right..

we drank long island. yucky drink. just enough to get high. we had quite a good time. at least i would like to think so.

it has been quite a long time since i met up with them.. we used to be such good friends.. meeting up almost everyday.. i cant help but feel that things are getting icier.. of cos when we met up yesterday, everything was like back to the old times.. but i just feel that they dun really treasure me as much as they used to. it's different between me n them n the 2 of them. after all they are guys. guys clique better w each other, more common topics of interest, more common activities..can look at girls tgr..

i supposed they think i am starting to drift apart from them. after all i have uni life, hall life.. my own circle of friends.. hey i didnt want to drift.. i just wish they bother sometimes.. i need to feel appreciated, someone apart from the rest.. we have been thru so much tgr.. each of us knows what each other has been thru.. joel n jing.. kenny n anna.. bintan.. my 18th bday.. all the nights we spent talking at kenny's place.. studying at A&W for Os.. sometimes i wish i can turn back the hands of time..