First one

I'm actually that bored. Just visited zx's blog and decided to start one of my own. Stuck at my mum's office now doing nothing. I don't know why I'm actually here in the first place, supposedly to 'work', but there isn't anything for me to do!!

My life sux big big big big big big big big time. I can't ever remember a time when things have ever gone so wrong. This has been an awful awful year so far. I've failed in everything I've been doing.. Not going to announce to the whole world about it because.. I still want to save some face for myself. N.. sigh I'm just not the sort who likes to talk about the mishaps that are happening to myself. When something goes wrong, I prefer to keep it to myself. It's my mechanism, how I operate, how I combat sadness. I see tears as a weakness, n I know if someone starts to console me, my tears will start flowing. How can I bear to let anyone see me crying??!

The only person who can console myself, is myself.

Some people mistooken my refusal to share, my dismissal "oh I don't wanna talk about it" as nonchalance. They think I don't care and whatever is happening to me doesn't affect me on a large scale. That's rubbish. N of all people, that person must be my bf. Great. Did I tell you? Life is fantastic.