question is,

why?

why do you do that?

i can't deny i am disappointed.

but, but..i believe you have your reasons.

to a better future ahead.

LUCKNOW, India (AP) -- A woman chopped the head off a man who allegedly tried to attack her and then paraded the head through a market in northern India, police said Friday.

like..what the hell???

i absolutely detest it when people scream at me.

it was hurtful, it was humiliating, and worse still, it was totally uncalled for.

should i have screamed back? should i have retaliated and defended myself? would it have made me the 'winner'?

i didnt think so.

anyway, what an ass.

"she isnt stupid, but the geniune lack of interest made her seem like a dull person."

there are times when i wish i lead a lonesome life, for interactions with people can be so tiring.

which one comes first: power or respect?

must you have power first, before people will respect you; or must people respect you, before you're bestowed power?

creativity & logic

if i was asked to grade my life now, i would probably grade it a 8.5/10. everything is more or less pretty stable and tranquil. of course there're the occasional affairs that would irritate my soul, but generally, all is fine.

nothing fantastic has happened. i havent struck lottery and turned millionaire overnight. work is okay, though i must admit sometimes it's tough to psyche myself up with the same degree of enthusiasm and anticipation as i did a few months ago. nonetheless, there're still enjoyable times with my colleagues. a most lovely, fun-loving bunch of people they are; i would have thought this was impossible after my first job, but i must say that office politics is minimal here. job satisfaction, pay renumeration, job prospects..these factors are certainly important, but we can't neglect the fact that the working environment has a paramount effect on your mental health.

BUt but..there is just something nagging at me at this moment. i feel that my brain is being under utilised. don't get me wrong, it's not that my job is that easy and brainless so much so that any tom, dick and harry can do it, but it requires another set of qualities in a person which i feel i don't possess. Neither have i been trained in my entire education life to be prepared to excel in such a job function.

you know what they say, there are some things that simply can't be taught; either you have it or you dont. so i figured, what i lack, i'll make up for it by learning through observation and experience. that must surely help.

it's the other side of my brain that has been ignored for a while. i know this might sound strange but i suddenly long for some math to do. those dreadful differentiation sums that we had to do in JC..but hey, the satisfaction when you finally managed to solve it..... ahh..maybe i should start playing sudoku hahaha.

can creativity and logic go together?