barcelona

i cant believe i've only written ONE post so far in the ENTIRE SEPTEMBER! Gosh, have I really been that busy? It seems just a while ago that we celebrated our 7th month anniversary, and now we're already at the 8th month. Time really does fly.

Indeed, Sept has been a pretty hectic month, but then again so was August. The anniversary night, the rush for the launch of the new lounges and suites, gary cao's show, followed neck to neck by 24 herbs showcase, and this sat's 933 event...the song 'wake me up when sept ends' is more apt than ever. I crave for a break, some kind of holiday, to anywhere. Honestly, even the thought of sentosa seems welcoming.

Yeah, i'm busy but not that busy. like i mentioned some weeks ago, i'm trying to be kinder to my body now. cutting short all unnecessary late nights, sleeping early, drinking little...taking things in my stride and not trying to push so hard. i mean..seriously man, one has got to chill. at the end of the day, just ask yourself whether it's worth it. if the answer is yes, then go ahead and chase after it with all your might. if it isnt, then take a step back and look at the big picture instead.

ok..dreary subject that half the world won't get what i'm talking about. i'm digressing again.

caught vicky christina barcelona today and i quite loved it. on the surface, it might look frivolous and silly but peer beneath it, it seems to me a very realistic reflection of life. i think there are indeed people around me who suffers from 'chronic dissatisfaction', who regardless of who they are with or what they do, thrive in the belief that life is a tragedy. they flit from one flower to another like a bee, each time finding temporary solace. they go on searching and looking, for that someone or something who can put a closure to the discontentment they feel about life.

even if we do without the psychology portion of the movie, the setting itself is breathtaking...spain..barcelona, there is an air of freedom..magic...and romanceee! can't wait to go back to europe one day to tour.

okay time to sleep, nite to the world.

whatever, whenever.

feeling just a little tired of it all. you know how we always rush to wait, and then wait to rush? things are always finalised at the very last minute, and just when we thought THAT'S IT, we realised there are more changes again.

of course, I have to understand that this is an imperfect universe and changes are inevitable. but shouldnt we be more concerned about whether it would compromise on the efficiency of work flow and more importantly, the efficacy of the message?

just when i thought i have gotten used to this chaos, and even given myself some credit for being so-called 'adaptable', i find myself feeling jaded and listless on a rainy, Friday afternoon.

7th months of bliss

and time flies. weren't we just celebrating our 6th month anniversary just a while ago? nevertheless, happy 7th month anniversary to my dearest!

the results of photowhoring with my phone:

loving yourself

when i was younger, i always hear those elder telling us the younger ones that we have to zi ai, which in other words means loving yourself, treasuring yourself... at that time, my first thoughts were: isn't it obvious? everyone loves themselves. this is why people shop, go for manis and pedis, watch movies, go for holidays... i love me that's why i pamper myself.

and it's now, i realised, i have never fully comprehend the true meaning of these 2 very simple words.

loving yourself means being kind to yourself, in more ways than just satisfying one's material needs. it's about a person's physical well being and mental state. why starve yourself and get gastric? why drink yourself silly, act stupid and get a horrible hangover the next day? why sleep late and allow yourself to look haggard and old? why get heart broken by people whom dont give a damn about you?

why let yourself suffer..?

and it's what i've experienced in the past year, that finally made me realised, i should be kinder to myself. i should stop torturing my body.

two of my colleagues are in their early forties and they have stopped drinking completely. one had alcohol poisoning and was hospitalised for 2 weeks. another one has high blood pressure. it's only when shit happened, that they decided it was time to stop.

another one drank, fell asleep and got into an accident just last night. thankfully though the car is probably in ruins now, he is complete in one piece, except for an insignificant cut on the finger.

but what if..just what if..any one of them werent that lucky...

oh well..so just love yourself. you deserve better.

i realise, to my horror, that i'm becoming lazier and lazier.

it's becoming tougher to summon the same amount of enthusiasm that i had previously.

bit by bit, i can feel it sapping...

it just further affirms my previous post.

sigh, it's not that easy as it seems..is it..

is it worse to not know what to do at all, or to know what to do, but are just too stubborn to change yourself to do the right thing?

is it inflexibility...is it pride...or is it arrogance?

people management or self management

late nights, fatigue and mounting pressure are making my fuse shorter and shorter. it's getting harder to keep my cool in place and to hide my frustration. i'm finding it harder to rationalise with myself the advantages of patience. it just doesnt pay off. this stems from my strength/weakness (you can call it either way) that i'm always on the ball, striving to push things forward, yet time and time again obstacles are hindering my intended progress.

sigh.


and that's why he said, people management is always the hardest of all. or perhaps, it's SELF-management that is the most difficult. you can't change others, so you can only change yourself.

oh yes, a slightly belated happy six months anniversary to my dearest. :)

my sha sha boyfriend!

my bestest friends

my bestest friends of all time! another meeting with the rgs pals. it's amazing to see how everyone has transformed over the years...zhao qi who is abt to become a lawyer, teresa doing her housemanship to be a doc, amanda just graduated n finding a job in real estate/building, sarah working in l'oreal, rachel back from london for good and looking for a job in engineering and jasmine..going to california soon to pursue her phD soon...and getting married next year!!

time simply flies......

does it pay to play hard ball?

when bull meets bull, do you run head on, knowing jolly well that all you going to get is a collision, that is likely to be harmful both directions..

or do you just walk away?

do you stand up for your own principles, or do you tell yourself you shouldnt have to stoop down to their levels?

i dont consider myself a very aggressive person. i'm pretty polite most of the time, am i not? why are people so rude to me then? this is really getting on my nerves.

Future ERP

I thought this was damn funny!





hehe!

Jokes aside, despite the convenience and the prestige of owning a car, sometimes i'm still glad i dont drive. with rising petrol prices, car park charges, increased no. of ERP gantries, increased ERP operating hours, increased ERP charges.................let's not forget road taxes and car insurance.............

MONEY is certainly NOT ENOUGH!

...and it irks me every time i think about it.

grrr.

stupid mistakes.

sometimes people just do things that make them want to bang their heads against the walls.

i've got excuses, but somehow i dont think they are valid.

swallow it, move on, and don't repeat the same errors again! grr!

sigh.

do i have a choice?

"you don't live on a deserted island;
you can't always do what you want and not care about other people's feelings!"

hmm..food for thought.
quoted from a hk drama me and darling have been glued to recently. it's called 'tang xin sth sth', and it revolves around a family and their issues. meaningful yet touching. i even see a glimmer of myself in one of the characters - in a bad way. it's funny how things always seem so much clearer when you peer in from the outside.

miffed

i'm miffed.

i'm miffed because you made your decision without any consideration of me.

i'm miffed because you are leaving me to carry this burden myself.

i'm miffed because you're leaving behind a pair of oversized shoes, which you know i will have difficulty filling.

i'm terribly miffed, because though you are here, you are not here.

and i'm miffed, because i know i have no right to be miffed, and you have every reason to be selfish.

nevertheless, a small part of me wished that you had just told me first....

anyhow, you have been my teacher and my friend, for that i'm grateful.

so, go, and carve a better future for yourself.

neglected sorrow

i'm feeling it. i'm feeling the sorrow in the people around me.

that i've failed to notice, or i've noticed but have always pushed these thoughts to a neglected corner of my mind...the word 'busy' being my pathetic excuse.

pardon me for my self-indulgence. but communicating words of consolation effectively has never been my forte.

for me, the best medicine has always been determination and time.

time, the all-time favourite antidote to that broken soul.

you'll be fine, all of you.

i had a long, but rather satisfying day at work. managed to accomplish quite a number of things.

feeling the fatigue..now i see the importance of drawing a distinct line between work and your own space...

cant even type in proper sentences now hah.

first week of work for my dearest! work hard, darling! i know you'll do very well. :)

contentment

it's so easy to be contented sometimes; it seems almost unreasonable.