lots of dim sum!

food food..chicken wings, beef, omelette...

the pi dan zhou i had for breakfast. dim sum buffet for $12.90++ at river restaurant, excelsor hotel.. very worth it if u're a big hungry man.

i think i look pretty here.. hehe *pui pui* being bhb..

took a pic with us lying on the hotel room bed. hmm acting scandalous haha..

another one.. i think i look nicer here!

me and joel at the comissioning ball

haps..

had fun for the past 3 days!! went out with huang ting and huixian on fri. had fun with the girls. they were good company. haha.. although i didn't buy anything ultimately, i still had fun. :) i think huixian is really funnnnnnny... her jokes are so lame n not funny that i cant help but laugh.. hope we can have more outings like that in future! i realised that when girls go out tgr in a group, we tend to be really bimbotic..

yesterday was the comissioning ball. nothing eventful. but met a few pple i know so that was nice. i had fun dressing up and taking pics. went to east coast to drink after that to celebrate joel's bday, n then met jt, qilin n eugene at sound bar, stayed over at swiss hotel with joel n his friends, n this morning had dim sum buffet for breakfast. now home ssweet home! brief summary of what i've been doing.. a little to elaborate now.. lala shall post the lovely pics i took with joel's phone!!

emotional emotions

listening to this really romantic song on 933 now.. dont know the title.. think it's by zhang guo rong? anyway.. it just triggered certain emotions in me.. thinking abt what me and liwern talked abt on our way back.. abt how much things have changed since we knew each other. how complicated our lives have became. how shocked i was at the start when she told me she really loved her bf.. i was like.. "huh really??" dropped jaw. because i didnt believe that anyone could really really be in love.. because at that time.. i wasnt in love...

n then i got tgr w jt.. then she broke up with justin.. then she.. ok dun think it's appropriate to say what is going on in her life.. but oh well her life became more complicated.. i was in love.. n then all of a sudden i was out of love again.. back to where i was at the beginning.. n then life still didnt simplify..

so many things have changed.. heart breaks, tears shed.. anyway now both of us are out of love.. wondering when our prince charmings will come n sweep us off our feet again.. n we both agree that it wont be anytime soon. it's the post break up syndrome. even if someone dashing comes along, we just cant, wont..feel anything...

msn + shopping addict

i'm finding it such a difficult to concentrate on my studies these days. ok of course it doesnt help to study with my lappie right in front of my face.. conveniently placed for chatting... n it doesnt help that if i want to sleep, i can just lean back n there my comfy bed is all ready for my use..

struggled to wake up at 10 plus today, despite sleeping at 1.30 the night before! for once i slept earlier than 2am. chatted for an hour.. studied a while..met daniel so that he could fix my com.. decided i should skip lect.. went back to hall.. liwern immediately asked me to go shopping.. manz how could i resist? hahaha..

so we left hall at 5 plus.. n started our shopping spree. not really for me cos i have NO MONEY! but she bought quite a bit.. a green skirt from the zara children's department..hahah but it's nice! white spagetti top from mango, knickers from topshop. i saw this loveeeeeely skirt from mango that costs $85! thought of wearing it to the ball.. but it might be a little too informal? i think i'll feel underdressed if i wear that.. n joel seemed quite keen on me wearing a dress.. managed to borrow a plain simple black gown from amanda.. but hmm.. haiya i dunno.. i dont really want to wear black cos..it seems pretty boring? i want to wear green or orange, haha which both of us agreed are the IN colours now. hahah..

lallaa.. in a good mood.. despite having 2 tests tmr n not having studied for it.. hmm.. I DESPERATELy need to study.

moving on..

hmm he finally changed his friendster status, pics n msn pic.. huang ting said he even uploaded hers n his photos.. does that mean they got back together? does that mean that what he has said earlier..were just words to fuyan me..? but anyway.. it's a sure sign that he has moved on.. must admit when i heard that from ting (oi girl u dun mind me for mentioning ur name right haha!), i could literally feel my heart contracting.. like lightning struck kind of feeling.. but it passed.. n a sense of serenity n calm took over. i've no right to question ya.. it's actually none of my biz.. after all i've already changed mine long time ago.. n it's good that he has chosen to move on from me, whether it's with her or without..

so yeah that's it.. i shall let the episode end here.. back to work!

retail therapy

so this is how my day went..

set my alarm at 8am so that i could go for my 9am tutorial which i've only attended thrice this sem. unfortunately the will is weak even though the mind is strong..woke up..pressed my hp to snooze..twice..then finally off it. hhaha..but still.. i went for my boring life science lect at 10 am.. but i realised i forgot to print my notes. fantastic.

met joel for lunch at this place near school to eat duck rice. it's surprisingly very crowded considering its 'ulu-ness'. n the prices they charged is exorbitant!! $17 for 3 glasses of barley + 2 bowls of rice + gangong + 1 plate of duck meat. expensive..

went back to sci to get gown from ivon..

then followed him to his camp so that he could pack his stuff at his bunk since he has already commissioned n wont have to stay in camp anymore.

went town..and began our shopping spree!! yay!! i love shopping manz! but again..the mind is strong but the wallet is weak.. haha want to buy so many things but i had to give up the thought due to insufficient funds. but ok, it wasnt THAT bad.. still managed to buy a few things i like.. i posted the pictures of what i bought below!!

some things that i still lack.. 3/4 skirt.. ahh i really really really want to buy one.. but the one i liked at forever 21 is gone.. n the one i saw at zara is too expensive.. haiz.. money woes..

i loveeeeeeeeee this topshop bag!! the best thing is joel paid for it!! hahahaa..

the pair of slippers i bought from U.R.S...cost me..$29.90...

the concealer i bought from body shop!! $16.90..

me and joel

one day i'll meet a guy who loves me as much as i love him.. he will treasure me, be faithful to me and never let me down.. and we'll live happily ever after..

I certainly will!
I will!
I will..
I will?
I..
Will...?
Will I?
Will I...

lonely..

i'm just not used to being alone.. :(..

confused little girl..

there are a lot of things i'm confused about...been thinking about my career options these days. this is the first time i give my future a serious thought. it's not that i've never though about them before, but merely i always shrug in away in the end..cos i really dont know..

sean and terence told me to be air stewardess. ok they seem to think that's the best option for me, judging from my character.

i am thinking of transfering to psychology, cos life sciences is really too boring for me. it's not about the difficulty level..it's basically just..i have NO interest in it.. during labs, people would like to ask questions, find out what is this and what is that.. i'm just.. stoning somewhere.. cos i cant be bothered, and i dun really want to know as well. this is not the way it should be! i'm already in uni! i should be studying i like, and enjoy..

i dont know whether psychology is right..but i know life sciences is definitely wrong. i dun think any of my friends can imagine me working in a lab in future!! it's just so not me! i'll be bored to death.. but on the other hand.. i am always bored.

dilemma.

things to consider if i transfer:
1. i might waste a yr
2. waste money - school fees + accomodation
3. if i want to be a psychologist in future, i need to do my masters abroad. can my parents afford it? i can get a scholarship..but that's IF i get it..n i wont know until 3 yrs later.
4. what if i dun like psy as well???

and i could just be good, stay in life sciences, complete my 3 yrs here, graduate with a degree and do something totally unrelated. you never know where life will bring you right..

sigh. i need some directions.. :(

i know i should just concentrate on my studies for now since exams are just around the corner. but it's hard for me to stop thinking about it now...n other stuff as well..

u know..someday i'll explode..i dont know when..but i know someday i wont be able to take it anymore.. and explode..