DoCoMo

more pics from the exhibition..


me and angie..the information counter girls


the docomo girls


taken our booth..the guy is leon, the person in charge from our employment agency


darth vadar!!


he was weird..didnt even respond when i poked him..zx didnt take with him cos she found him scary..haha..


HAHhaa...can you see me holding the gun??

A date

finally got to see my dear dear after a week of intensive work! went suntec. ah never post any pics of him here cos he insisted that he looks ugly in all of them. oh well...... oh btw we watched batman begins and it was greaaatt! go catch it guys! worth every penny. :)

dinner

pizza hut feast

yuM yUm

car exhibition

pose-girl..if only the car was mine..


mitsubishi lancer..whoo hoo..

small boy boy

peeping into a make up class in session.. kpo me..inuovi.. hmm is that how it's spelled?

taken early in the morning, on the mrt..on our way to expo..

finale

exhibition over! kind of sad ya. today passed exceptionally fast. pretty much the same as the previous days. got asked to have photos taken quite a few times. i think one of the reason is that a lot of people think i'm jap. *shrug* i know.. i dont really look jap.. maybe it's the fair complexion.

had time to slack so chat quite a bit with those who had nothing better to do like me.. people like the security guard whose job was to make sure that all the phones are shipped back to japan safe and sound, the presenter who looks like 24 when he is actually 33 already, tomoko the docomo's press manager who told me that our recommendation to lau pak sat was good, the salesman from next door..

zx and i went walking around during our break.. and guess who we saw!! DARTH VADAR!!! hahaha. at the sony ericsson booth. so exciting!

had a qing gong yan at the end. everyone crowded around the stage. the docomo people in charge made a speech. cheers. drinks. followed by photo taking marathon. hey at the end of it, i really felt sad that this exhibition is over. had fun, learnt a lot, and the japs are actually such nice people. and all of us the girls are such good friends now. had dinner at cartel tampines mall.

anyway i'm really tired now.

i'm one eye missing, thanks to zx's fantastic camera skills.

yaya i'm in..

part and parcel

yet another day has passed. *phew* one more day to the end of the exhibition!! today was again relatively smooth sailing, no hiccups.

1. 2 bangladeshi men approached us for enquiries. they were decent looking businessmen, but one of them made me felt damn awkward, because as he was talking his face kept coming nearer and nearer to mine. and i kept backing away.. eh but he didnt mean anything lar. he was talking to me about him visiting docomo in tokyo.

2. angie and i were approached by this man who does businesses with pubs to hire girls/models for short events. hmm... expo seems like an easy place to get lobangs.

3. this happened yesterday. i gave a man a clipboard with our survey form and asked him if he would fill it up. i think he didnt understand what i was saying, because he put the clipboard tgr with the pen into his bag and walked away. *stunned*

4. one thing all the girls found out while working is that people are really tan xiao pian yi (cheapskate) in nature. they can queue up to fill up survey forms because they want the freebie we are giving away. some will come up and ask,"are you giving away anything?". sigh. after realising we are not giving away freebie after doing the survey, some will go like,"no freebie? waste my time." irritating!! gets on my nerves.

5. oh and we got asked to have our pics taken quite a few times. all the girls.

6. and another question most commonly directed to most girls is,"are you japanese?"

is it or is it not

hmm. does it make sense to like something that you're not particularly good in? like you like biology but you fail the paper all the time. like you like teaching but you dont like children. like you like writing but your language isn't exactly fantastic. like you like web designing but you know nuts about html.

if you like something, i guess you'll go all out to find out more about it, and be good at in naturally. if you dont bother to find out more about it, then i suppose you dont really like it that much.. SHI BU SHI??

tired

have plenty to write about today actually, but i'm feeling so tired right now.. heavy eyelids.. i can just lie on my bed and fall asleep immediately. *big yawn*

first day of the exhibition. everything went well. time passed pretty quickly. i enjoyed myself yea? although standing in that pair of shoes was killing. but being the girl at the information counter, i had the luxury of sitting on the chair sometimes.

interesting events: these 2 angmohs came to the counter to ask abt docomo, then.. "would you like to go for dinner with me after work so you can tell me more about docomo?"

-me- "i'm not really a staff of docomo, perhaps you would like to date one of docomo representatives here instead?"

"nah i think it would be better if you could tell us more about it."

-me- "i dont think so."

aiyo..those foreigners ah...

i got approached by one of the visitors to do freelance modelling too.

went shopping with zx after that. bought a silver belt, black bikini ($9 only!!!) and a pair of shades. blahs.

my wish list:
1. aldo stilettoes - $65, already on 50% discount. they are at least 4 inches high. beautiful..but practical? difficult to balance on the bus!
2. adidas greenie jacket - $129. think it looks nice with my jeans.
3. guess bag - $60? in search of a nicer bag..
4. ripple slippers - $10? is there a point in getting so many pairs of slippers?
5. chaos tube - $49. dont really wear tube that often.. but it's nice!

TIRED.

throbbing head

I woke up this morning feeling as if the whole world is spinning around me at 100km/h. I dragged myself out of bed, but after taking a few steps, I realized that I really must lie down. Imagine trying to walk when someone kept swinging your head back and fro. It felt HORRIBLE. On top of that I felt like puking..and I would have if there was something in my stomach. But since there wasnt any, I only managed to puke up saliva. Eek. Anyway I called up the people in charge to tell them how awful I was feeling, so maybe I can rest at home first and then make it down to Expo a while later when I feel better? I was so pissed because instead of expressing sympathy, they insisted that I go down, at least for the first few hours of the morning. The lady even said stuff like,"oh you know you're like a pleasant lady, with a nice smile.. We want you to be there.." I was like..huh??? Excuse me I'm sick, so what is the connection? I wanted to scream at her but I was too upset to do that. I know the Japanese are extremely concerned about attendance, but still? Is your job more important than my health??

So I made my way down anyway. No seats on the bus and mrt since it was peak hour. 8 am plus. Had to stand. BAD. It was like standing on a ship, feeling sea sick, or stuck in a car from Singapore to KL and suffering from car sickness.

I eventually reached Expo, after an hour odd journey. The agency people kept saying thank you thank you. "thank you for coming down hor.", "are you feeling better? We've got panadol for you.", "have you eaten? I go and buy bread for you?" zzzzz. Alright so maybe they aren't that mean after all. The girls expressed much concern too. They were like "what happened?", "Are you ok?", "you should get something to eat!". I was momentarily touched. Haha. I received much attention, and probably got asked "are you ok?" more than a dozen times today.

Training proceeded on. I'm in charge of the information counter with Angie. It's a small world out there because we realized we have many friends in common. I chose to work at the info counter, because otherwise I'll be in charge of demonstrations, and then probably would have to memorise a lot of technical terms and know how to explain the technology more explicitly. Turned out, my job isn't that easy after all. We have to serve drinks to the VIP. The Japanese are the most fastidious group of people I know. Irritating. When you serve them tea or coffee, the cup must be filled to approximately 60% full only. There is a certain position to place the cup, saucer, teaspoon, sugar and creamer when you serve coffee or tea, as in they must face the person in a certain direction. Zzzz. -_- coffee is just coffee..just drink lar! So ma fan. And yes, before we enter, we must knock twice, close door, bow, take orders, bow, bow before closing door, close door. Same procedures for serving drinks. Sigh.

Oh yes. Hand towels must be served as well. My god.

Angie and I had time to go explore the grounds. The exhibition is huge, occupying all 6 halls at expo. You guys should go take a look if you have the time. Will be much enlightened by the technology. It's opened only to trade visitors, but I guess if you have a name card, you can just register, get a pass and enter. Anyway the most exciting section is the handphones section. Samsung, LG, Motorola, Panasonic. Whoo hoo. They have really nice and huge booths. 2 stories somemore. There are even dancers hired by Panasonic to perform.

No wonder Japanese are such stressful people and they need to watch animes to de-stress. They take everything sooooooo seriously. The fact that they gave us 3 days of training says a lot. I suppose it's good to take your work seriously, and want everything to be perfect. But for such a chin cai person like me, I absolutely cant stand people who make a big fuss out of every single minute detail. Oh well, I just got to live with it for another 4 days. It's not so bad really. At the end of the day, we actually have a lot of fun.

I'm still having a headache... argh.. horrible..

one for all, all for one..

just completed 2 days of training for the exhibition over the weekend. the company i'm working for is called NTT DoCoMo, the largest mobile network provider in japan, 49 million subscribers out 87 million people in japan! promoting 3G phones and technology in singapore! you wouldnt believe how advanced the japanese tech is as compared to ours.. we are like stone age.. haha.. i mode - internet mobile service. i-motion - sending/downloading movie clips/video clips at speed up to 384kps. i-appli - using JAVA as the make up lang, can dl large scale games and play games like final fantasy.. i-mode felica - embedded chip in phone, so the phone can be used as EZ-link card, cash card, credit card, used for buying air or movie tickets.. oh not forgetting the phone can also be used as a remote control and key to ur apartment.. deco-mail - customise emails (font size, colour etc), chara-den (video conferencing, but you use a cartoon charater to represent you instead), chaku motion..

oops got carried away eh.. aiyoyooo.. when will such technology be brought over to singapore.. anyway i'm truly enlightened. i never knew a simple electronic device such as a mobile phone can have so many functions.

shall not go on any further. i'm getting rather sick of it. tired after a long day.

when i'm tired, i'm irritable, and unreasonable, and rude. sigh. went out with dear last night. i must admit i was ill-mannered, arrogant, and acting like a spoilt brat. haha. n i didnt give a damn. sigh. my bad my bad..

a week more of work to go...

the japanese are extremely particular about punctuality. starts at 10 means be ready at 9.55. be ready at 9.55 means the kan cheong people wants us to be there by 9.15. ...... ridiculous. i stay at bukit batok can! expo very far you knoww! .... just feel like complaining. I'm TIRED.

sleep with a smile

i'm feeling happy, and contented. :) things are going well for me. love life? check. good. we do get into petty sulking sessions occasionally, but things return to equilibrium pretty quickly too. studies? hols are in, sch is out. my results are only slightly better than last sem's. when i said slight i really mean slight. eh. hmm. but somehow that doesnt bother me much. actually, it doesnt bother me at all. haha. my results isn't good, isnt even average i think, a little less than that. but i admit, that's what i deserve. finances? i'm always down on that. but hey i've got a job coming up, so that should tide me over for a while. friends? havent been meeting up quite as frequently with them as i would wish to, but it's ok, i know they are there.. health? keeping in shape, cos i've been going gym often. arms and legs are aching from the workout just now.

i supposed getting selected contributed to the contentment i'm feeling. finally i have an idea where i'm heading. i've been trying to find myself. dying to find my niche, somewhere i belong. now i'm a bird, young and free to do anything i want. the sky is all mine, all options are open, i can do anythinggggggg i want. but i want to be a horse..with a goal in life.. and gallop towards it..

i dont know whether it's what i want. especially with my ultra short attention span. i dont even know whether it's for me. but that's life right, give everything a try ma? what have i got to lose.. if i realise at the end of it that it's not my cup of tea, then so be it. but i'll definitely learn something from it, so i wont considered it time wasted. at least it would have solved a question mark in me.

lala, haha only a few people would know what i'm talking about.. i want to buy heels, formal wear, a new pair of glasses, bag, underwear...

average

hmm. today turned out to be a not-too-bad day. accompanied sis to the clinic, then went west mall to have lunch with my parents and sis. mum finally bought a new phone for me!! i forgot the model number.. nokia 7230? 7260? sth like that.. the S shaped metallic phone. not too bad. i requested for a camera phone and i got it. BUT.. turned out i cant transfer pics to the com!!! the cable cost $88!!!!! MY GOD. sigh... sad :(! but anyway i've decided to buy the cable.. hopefully i can find a cheaper version of it...

next went to meet zx for shopping session. i was in the mood to buy things. but..didnt see anything that i was dying to buy. ended up buying an eye liner from body shop. will need it for the exhibition next week.

then dearie came at 5.45pm. hang around for a while, ate ice cream. he went off for his bball training, and i went california. exercise exercise..

n yes to you who know who you are. i was ridiculously happy when you bought me yan yan and made iced milo for me. haha. ok i know this sounds pretty silly. and yes not forgetting the fact you called me when you left your house, when you got caught in the rain, when you were going to play pool and when you were eating downstairs, in the short span of 4 hours. :)

money for her

i'm officially bored, while my bf is off at some person's place playing ps 2 and my good friend, jasmine sia is probably on her way to redang island (xia ri mo mo cha)! about to enjoy the hell out of her life for the next few days with her darling. *envious*

anyway i attended a really interesting camp over the past 2 days. enlightening, inspiring, enriching, and most of these were definitely not what i expected of it initially. cant even begin to explain what i've experienced in the 2 days. i gathered, some things must be felt, it cant be put down in words. it made me think a lot, reflect a lot about my life, my goals, my past, my parents, my friends... my mum especially..

thinking about how inconsiderate and selfish i was in the past, especially during my teenage years. me insisting on working at pizza hut..in retrospect, i dont think i'll let my daughter work at pizza hut at the age of 14 when i become a mother. coming home in the wee hours of the night.. going clubbing! there was once i got slapt by my dad when i came home at 3am after clubbing, stinking of cigratte smoke and alcohol. staying over at chalets with ah lians and ah bengs.. oh well of course they dont know who i hang out with.. i was stubborn beyond words. a rock. i want this means this. i wont budge no matter how you push me. (actually i'm still like that now..but i'm a lot more reasonable and sensible..) as long as i think what i'm doing is right, i dont care what you think, even if you dont understand, i dont give a damn. eh, rather disrespectful huh. i was such a selfish pig.. i thought i knew what i was doing. i always want things my own way. i placed my fun above all else. i had this mentality that i should play as hard as i can while young, with no consideration about how my parents would feel.

well i did know what i was doing. cos i emerged out from my teenage years pretty unblemished. hmm. i think so lar.

but i must have made my mum so upset..so many times..sigh.. *guilt guilt guilt*

anyway. move on. i'm 20. a grown up girl now. :)

money is something that i want, and i need, for survival.. but i dont need it excessively. i want, but i dont need. it's really not that important to me, you know. so many things come before money. my loved ones, experience, health, happiness. but i learnt something. money can enhance love. from a wise man,"money is like the appetitiser, something you can do without, but if you have it occasionally, you'll feel that the meal is especially delightful, and complete."

so i want to earn lots of money. so that my mum and dad wont have to work anymore. my mum is always telling me how much she would like to just stay at home and slack. be a housewife! but my dad never had the initative and ability to allow her such luxury.. so i want to earn lots of money. let her stay at home and shake leg, watch all those deary korean drama serials that she likes, go on holiday as often as she wants..

i want to live in a penthouse, with breathtaking sceneries of the city lights.. i want to go all parts of the world, to take a breath of air on the other side of the globe.. i want to do what i want, and not being burdened by money..

i want i want..

bday

celebrated eugene's 21st bday today! happy birthday eugene!

food at eugene's place

my cute bf with a pretty flower

beauty and the beast

huggies

cutsie

wo de zhe yi tian

anyway my day consists of going to the employment agency to sign contract for the exhibition. pay not as good as the previous one, but still..something is always better than nothing. oh yes thanks to zx, we got lost in the business district for close to 45 mins, walking under the hot scorching sun, sweating like mad, asked 3 people for directions, before we finally got to the agency. ok lar be fair, as much my fault as hers. i've been there before too. haha.

then we went scotts to have lunch. ba cuo mee and mango pudding for me. yi cum ban mian and soursop with LIME for zx. then shopping we went at far east. damn. so MUCH temptations. took every ounce of my energy to resist trying on outfits and buying stuff. especially those shining earrings! they look so elegant. sheesh. i think i must go back someday to buy them. lala. in the end my shopping list only consists of a pair of boxers for my dear, and a pair of huge round earrings for myself. $3.50 only..


spongebox and squarepants..cute right??


plain earrings

next was california fitness. lala. and then home sweet home. oh there was some singing competition held at youth park and cine. kpo me stood to watch 2 people sang.. a girl sang ting bu dao by liang jing ru. OK lar. she had a lot of supporters though. another guy sang shi jie mo ri by xin yue duan. gooood.. he was goood...

be angry will ya!

something zixuan said today struck me, and stuck by me until now. she said i'm a boh chup person by nature. doesnt mean i dont care about my family, my friends, my bf, my future, my studies..hmm ok i'm boh chup abt my studies.. anyway you get what i mean? i do care about the BIG and essential things in life, but i'm mostly unconcerned about small minor details that i feel arent important enough for me to place my attention on.

good and bad.

good cos..less wrinkles next time? you lost my top, yes i'll be miffed, but i can always buy another one. you scold me a goondu head, fine i'll be seething at first, but i know i'm good, so who cares what you think. you laugh at my ignorance, i admit i can be ignorant about certain affairs, but who knows everything. you hate my dress sense, but what the hell, i wear what i like! you're late for an hour, angry yes, but lost time is time lost, no point brooding over it, so why not get over it. you betrayed me, but hatred shortens my life, so i choose longevity over exuding negative energy. you insult me, let you say what you want lar, cant be bothered.

i thought i was being kuan rong da liang, haha, but others who dont know me as well mistaken it as nonchalence.

bad cos..yeah some people think i just dont care. it's weird. sometimes people are angry with me because they think i should be angry over the injustice done to me but the fact is..i'm not bothered by it? sorry? is it my fault that some things just dont bother me as much as you think they should? i mean.. come on.. get on with life. i cant pretend i'm angry when i'm not. everything you do, everything you say, it's ok..things pass..unless it gets unbearably annoying and out of hand.. when the bomb explodes, i'll give you a tight slap.

ok. this is getting weirder by the sec you must think. just the previous entry i was talking about how angry i was. haha. n now i'm talking about having a problem being angry. what is MY problem?

the problem is, sometimes you expect the people around you to be LIKE you. is it just a prob w me? or w most people in general? for example, when someone loses my top, i wont deem it as a big deal. vice versa, when i lose someone's top, i'll expect that person to take it as easy as i did. but if that person flares up and refuses to talk to me for days, i'll start thinking.."why is she so petty... it's just a top.. not like i really scolded her when she lost mine?". you get really angry when i was late for 10 mins.. "i didnt even complain when she was late for an hour, so why is she whinning like a sick kitten (wanted to say dog but it sounds crude) just cos i'm late for 10 mins??"

get what i mean. just random analogies, to make my point. do you term that as double standards? sth negative and morally incorrect. or is it just wrong to impose your standards on other people?

is pettiness really pettiness.. or is it just.. a difference in view points? something you deem as unimportant might weigh differently in the eyes of another.

have you lost you somewhere...

I ABSOLUTELY CANT STAND IT WHEN PPLE REFUSE TO LISTEN TO ME.

hey to understand a person, takes listening doesnt it. when you feel you dont agree with something, you voice out your opinions, and then the other party brings out his. then both of you seek to understand each other, see things from each other's point of view. come to a compromise. if you realised you're wrong, then you apologise. or perhaps you just never see things from that perspective before. that's how communication takes place. not you say your piece, when the other party starts talking, then you assumed everything she said is crap, and do the disappearing act. "everything she says is crap and i cant be bothered to listen or talk to her." problems dont solve themselves.

my mum told me that we should have big hearts. be da fang. and not argue over teensy-weensy things.

i'm fuming.

me cutting our photos

dear sleeping like a pig

blahs

i watched starwars and bought a book today! i never ever buy books.. always thought buying books is a waste of money since most likely i'm only gonna read them once. but that book was like calling at me.. urging me to purchase it.. hahaa.. anyway i've mentioned it before, it's called diary of a manhatten call-girl by tracy quan. i know. it sounds bimbotic doesnt it. suits my mood these days. i've become addicted to this sort of books. anyway it's not actually that bad, it's said to be in the making into a tv series.. by the same creator of sex in the city.. so ya.. it's gonna be a hit one day.. haha. guess what..the first few pages of the book talks about a threesome..



anyway i've got confirmation on another job again! working at another exhibition held at expo from 14-17. there's actually a 3 days' training programe for us! promoting handphones for this very famous telecommunications company from japan. hope the pay is good.

every girl's dream

so which girl wouldnt like to posess beautiful clothes, carry designer bags, matching accessories, don daunting stilettoes, look all pretty and glamourous every sec, have all the money in the world to indulge in unlimited pedis and manis, spas, facials, money to shop till you drop, brains to impress upon others that she is not just another bimbo, enough wit to retort all crititisms from cynics.

just fantasizing..come to think of it..sometimes all these things just dont matter as much anymore..

the five people you would meet in heaven (assuming you go to heaven)

just finished reading the five people you meet in heave by mitch albom. great book. finished it in a day.

lessons learnt:
1. all lives intersect. different stories from different perspectives can mean very different endings.

"the human spirit knows, deep down that all lives intersect. death doesnt just take away someone, it misses someone else, n in that small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed"

2. sacrifices are not necessarily something to regret about, rather you're just passing the blessing to someone else.

3. what it seems, is rarely what it is. there is a story behind everyone unknown to others. hatred harms not those you hate, but those who hate. make peace with yourself.

4. love never cease to exist..even when the person dies.. it just takes on another form. lost love is still love...

5. everyone exists for a reason.. dont ever think you dont belong to this world.. that you dont fit in.. that your existence is redundant..

"i was sad because i didnt do anything with my life. i was nothing. i accomplished nothing. i was lost. i felt like i wasnt supposed to be there"

"children.. you keep them safe.. you make good for me.. is where you're supposed to be.."

death is not an ending, but a beginning. understand what has happened, why it happened.. understand your life.. the meaning of your existence, make peace with your life, and you're in heaven.

nicey day~

had a nice day! miracle! dear actually suggested for the first time in history that we go taka earlier, before his training, to eat! haha it's a miracle cos i'm depriving him of his favourite pastime, which is sleeping.. :p i'm not an easy gf.. i absolutely cant stand staying at home, slacking around.. makes me feel that i'm wasting my precious youth and time.. i always want to go out.. anywhere.. and do SOMETHING, anything.. even when there's nothing to do, or when i'm totally penniless. nonetheless of course once in a while i appreaciate spending a quiet afternoon at home, lazing around..

anyway we went taka, bought some food and ate. :)


dear's food..soaked in chilli..he was crying for water after that. HAH.


MY food..fried noodles wrapped in omlette with ketchup

after that i met up with shuwen. whoa the last time i actaully really really talked to her was when we went clubbing at chinablack. that was like.. in sept last year? soo long. was nice to meet up and catch up after so long. went shopping. mango, zara, guess, fcuk, warehouse, topshop, forever 21. and guess what!! i didnt buy anything!! 2nd miracle of the day. i really got to control my spending. cant go on like that.

daming joined us for dinner. had a good long chat. it felt so good just sitting there, and talking.. really.. so nothing spectacular did happen.. it's a plain ordinary sunny day.. but i feel gooood~

i'm tired, and i'm irritated. that's the worse combination that can ever exist. i can be quite the insolent and impudent horrible girl when such mood fall upon me. i just cant be bothered about anything and anyone or how anyone thinks about me. grrr..

been a real junkie lately. munching pringles potato chips (new flavour: tomato salsa..ok lar..not THAT tasty..but still got standard lar), bags of calbee, nuts coated with sugar, those they sell at cinemas? bought one of that and got scolded my bf..(zzz)..i'm becoming heaty again.. lips are red again.. AGAIN. oh ya dun forget my ba kua.. oooh i love them.. yum yum.. shall go n grab a few bites of it now..

the animal kingdom..

my dear, being the animal lover, came up with the crazy idea to go night safari today. surprisingly crowded today! eh no pics of animals to show, cos photography with flash is not allowed, and without flash, you cant catch anything.


here we come!!

structures from the chingay..placed at night safari for temporary viewing.




hold my hand and be my witness..

moozie pooziee

ooh la la

ready..set...pose!


madagascar

moo moo moooo..

"when i get old i want to look back at my life and know it was a worthwhile one." got this from the new book i'm currently on now. it's those typical rags to riches story of a pretty, intelligent, compassionate girl born in the slums of london, rising from poverty to forge a new life in new york. oh ya the book is called never look back, by lesley pearse. hmm mm.. never look back.. how apt.. my philosophy in life. guo le jiu suan le, why must harp on old blood. one day you gonna die, and everything wont matter anymore. what if you realise you're going to die tmr? are you still gonna dwell on small stupid trival minute insignificant affairs? hmm..

been to a lot of interviews lately. it amuses me to hear what people think of me sometimes. because what they think of me doesnt seem to be what i thought myself to be. either i've changed, or i've learnt the art of putting up a facade, presenting what the world wants to see. maybe i've become two faced unknowingly. ok i'm making this whole situation sounds a tad too serious. no everything is fine, i'm still me. lala..

blogs were supposed to be online personal journals ya. but recently they have caused such a brouhaha in singapore. hardly personal anymore.. crap. blogs are pretendious. you write what you want others to read. and the real real thoughts and feelings?? still inside the mind!! the safest place.

yawns. i'm not making much sense am i. i want to go on a holiday.

room makeover

the long weekend has been uneventful, majority of time spent with my dear, since he finally has no training to rush off to. spent the weekend packing his million and one jerseys and pants, upsetting piles of dust and sneezing from them, dismantling the double decked bed and replacing it with a nice comfy super single bed.. made a trip to ikea, bought nice pictures to hang on the wall, romantic candles, soft lights (urps not very soft actually, the $3 spotlight we bought turned out to be super powerful), nice quilt cover and pillow case, a $4 pillow which feels as if u're sleeping on nothing (dun BUY it, unless it's for decorative purposes)...what else.. and we walked from carrefour (the furthest end of suntec) all the way thru citylink to raffles city just to look for a CLOCK. in the end we found a satisfactory one at raffles city, at the most unexpected place, B1, which mostly consists of foodstalls.. we got a nice cute round cushiony clock. anyway his room had a complete makeover.. a great improvement!!

bookie

just finished reading this book Bergdorf blondes by plum sykes. totally bimbiotic. i really must stop reading such books, i'm afraid i might start acting like those girls in the books. in fact there have been evidence of such totally horrendous transformtion. the girls in the books talk about nothing but the latest fashion, designer clothes, cute and important guys, see and be seen, attending the most glamorous parties with movie stars and directors, going out with princes of god-knows-where, flying on private jet planes.. it's high life definitely. a tad exaggerating and far fetched for common people like us. wonder where all the money come from. but i guess since someone can write a story like that, it must exist. paris hilton world.

my little fantasy..

anyway was just fantasizing just now. was bone tired after i came back from california fitness..just dropped dead on my sofa.. how nice it would be to have a own cosy little apartment with my loved one, that i can decorate it all by myself according to my liking.. then after work come home, enjoy a hot bubbly bath, sip on wine, play soothing music at the background.. after that put on bath robe and wear comfy slippers.. awww...

people are always saying "next time i'll earn a lot of money, then i can go travel around the world.." blah blah that kind of thing.. yea true money seem to be the root to everything.. but y0u dont really have to earn THAT much to travel right.. not like you would want to travel for one full yr or sth? hmm ok..actually can ahh hahaa.. but still.. that isn't the norm.. anyway my point is that a couple can just earn enough.. and go for short trips tgr.. and still be happy.. tgr.. as long as you're happy.. that's enough isnt it..

happy happy day..

work was boring. so i shall not talk about it. glad it's over. will finally get to enjoy the fruits of my labour after i get my pay! anyway met up with dearie after work..finally..so happieeee...:)

first we went ps..spotlight..


yan can cook, so can ym (haha..like real..)


dont you think this is nice?? although dear thinks it's childish.. cos it has the word LIPSTICK written on it..still..it's cute..

Dinner at fish and co at glasshouse..lovehouse..whatever you call it. i love fish and co!





what to eat what to eat..pondering over menu..


whoo appetitizing seafood platter for two..we were bloated after that..


guitaring and singing, never knew fish n co had a band until today..


goodie goodie food..the view behind makes it seems like we are on the very top floor of a high building..overlooking the city....the lights of the city..pretty eh? use your imagination!

lastly we went spinelli, met up with some of his friends to celebrate his birthday..


oreo cheesecake..happy 22nd birthday my dear!!

make a wish

blurry blurry me

dear..finally gonna see you after one long and tough week.. whee~~

itchy teeth

wondering what i'm gonna do after i graduate.. my future is in a mist..

day at work

nothing much to blog actually. but i just feel like blogging. started off as another boring day at expo. struggled to get out of bed early in the morning. heavy eyes. smeared somelliquid foundation on my face, a few smacks of blusher, mascara and that's it. no eyeshadow, no eyeliner, no lipstick. cant be bothered. i would rather not apply any if i can. but make up is essential for the job. more professional. the purpose of make up isnt to just enhance one's beauty, it's an symbol of professionalism too. but i was really too sleepy in the morning..

work was fine as usual. thin crowd. one funny incident was that this indian ship officer tried to pick us up. he came over, sat at the counter, asked for coke. started asking us who we are, studying where, studying what... "do you like indians?" "are you chinese?" (like how duh, we were even wearing name tags.) "what time u finish work?" "want to meet me after that?" ....!!!! zzzz... "oh no, we have bfs already. she is married." zzzz wanting said i'm married. thanks ah. haha. that guy is desperate lar.

met daniel. havent seen him for quite a while and probably wont see him for quite some time.. met up after work. went off to town for dinner. caught up on each other's life.

hey guy, realised we are the only 2 from sports camp who still really seriously keep in contact ya? im glad so.. cos at least i really gained a friend from the sports camp.. besides all those nice memories of the camp.. heh.. anyway i guess i wont be able to see u often, since now you're in navy, and u'll be on the sea most of the time, and when sch starts i'll be staying in sch n studying. soo want to tell you to take care..... sleep more lar. dun just whole day online manz. haha. okok like a bit pot calling the kettle black. yeah take care, dun forget abt it oki. keep in touch. n thanks thanks thanks for everything you've done for me. fixing my com, reformatting it, editing the pic for blog, helping me bid for modules at the start of the yr, lending me OC.. -sob sob- haha i'll see ya soon... :)


me and daniel on the escalator..

dogtired..

i'm tired. there are blisters on my toes cos i've been on my heels the entire day. my arms are aching from yesterday's workout. i havent been exercising for too long. my lips are still as dry as desert. n to think i drank like 7-8 bottles of mineral water today n it still didnt get better!! i know i had a lot of free time today to drink water.

my job today was to stand around and serve drinks. "good afternoon sir! any drinks for you? coffee or tea? beer?". yesh the company i was working for serves free tiger beer. after 5pm it seems like there was a social gathering at our booth. all the executives and exhibitors from other companies came and drank with the engineers from the company i'm working for. it was a maritime exhibition. men in navy uniforms, professionals in suits, old men, many foreigners. exhibition not opened to public, only to trade visitors and professionals. it was boring, but at least there is a girl to accompany me. she is from nus too. realised it's a damn small world. we happened to have many common friends. n yes i'm paid to do nothing, so it wasnt that bad.

the engineers were asking me about my course. life scis. everyone seemed to think it's an industry that has lots of prospects. oh haha they said the 2 industries are promising now are.. life sci and..CASINO course. haha damn funny. if only there is a casino course, i will take that over life sci anytime man. ok. crapping. maybe life sci isnt that bad after all sia? i can be a scientist right? scientist miss tay yiming. dr tay yiming. "dr tay, your DNA samples are ready." "dr tay, i've streaked your bacteria colonies" "dr tay, you left the tubes in the wrong slot for the mass spec!" "dr tay, you forgot to dilate the samples! re-do the titration results!"

oh man. it's getting at me. i'm going crazy.

ok better sign off before i start sprouting nonsense again.

just another day

tired. not exactly physically very tired, just feel as if my arms are going to drop. just feel like lying on the couch and never having to get up. running around singapore today, playing amazing race, getting stuff done, since i know i'll probably be busy for the rest of the week. felt HORRIBLE this morning. sore throat, feverish, dry lips. swallowed a few panadols and feeling much better now.

signed up at california fitness today. the first thing i did was 10 mins on this machine called lifefitness. involves moving your legs in a semi circle motion. eh dun want to go into details. i got tired after 10 mins..10 mins!! oh man! has my fitness dropped so much?? the worse is after that i felt like puking. i was looking as pale as a ghost, with ruby red lips. i concluded i was really ill.

despite feeling so awful, i was coaxed into attending my first bodycombat class by bangzhi. it's similar to the kickboxing classes i've attended at amore before i entered nus. lots of shouting, jumping, punching.. it was fun.. n i dismissed the previous incident as an isolated one.. cos i survived thru the class unscathed. hah.

boring night ahead.

unreasonable demands..

am i not understanding? am i unreasonable? am i ridiculous? petty? i never thought i was all of that. i've always prided myself as someone who looks at the big picture, who see things from a logical and rational point of view, and not clouded by my own overwhelming emotions. i have my unreasonable moments, who doesnt..esp when hormones are on their full rage.. but there's no excuse.. when i'm unreasonable, and i realise i'm being stupid, i think i do have the sense to swallow my pride and apologise. but am i always wrong.. will ya put yourself in my shoe sometimes..

i do give in, dont i.. a friend of mine once said,"it's always like that, sometimes you feel as if you're giving in but the other party doesnt think so." another one said,"sometimes the other party is giving in, just that you realise it." so which side of the river am i stepping on now? dont i make effort to make up when you're angry.. dont i have the right be angry too.. or am i just being ridiculous and petty and uncaring.. all over again..

i'm just a girl.. so tell me which girl on earth wont like to have someone to placate her once in a while..

i've this phobia, that when the going gets tough, one party just want to take the easy way out and back off..

babbling..

turned out to be a not so bad day after all. :) got confirmation that i'll be working at the expo from 17th to 20th next week. some exhibition thingy. not even sure of the details myself. not particularly excited about it.. 1. expo is REALLY far from my place. 2. exhibitions can be real boring. really depends on the theme of the exhibiton. 3. the hours are gross. 10-6pm. ok, normal office hours. but i'm someone who absolutely cant stand working for 8 hours straight, unless the job is superbly engaging and exciting. blame it on my amazingly short attention span.

andre teo..remember to confirm with me about starwars ya. probably hard to catch it with you since you horrible starwars fan would probably want to catch it the moment it can be caught. ok that sounded weird. whatever.

oh back to my exhibition thingy. the only good thing about it is that the pay is good. i'm all in for the money. desperately in need of cash after spending $100 on clothes. overspending is a girl's forte, especially one who loves to shop. i realised i'm weird. i enjoy window shopping as much as shopping. most people wouldnt like to shop when they are penniless. but i dun even mind just LOOKING at them, even though i know i cant afford them. in fact i think i enjoy window shopping/shopping alone, rather than drag my bf along with me. makes me stressed, pressurised, to see a bored bf with the words "i-cant-wait-to-get-out-of-here" stamped on his face. haha. but kudos to all the 'hims' out there who are able to withstand their gfs' shopping crazes..

oh saw this book at kino today.."diary of a manhatten call girl". looks interesting. it was at the new arrivals section..near the entrance.. would have bought it if i have extra cash to spare. but anyway, i dont buy books. why buy books when there is the library? when you possibly only read it once? and then leave it on your shelf collecting dust? there are so many books to read that i think it's unlikely for one to reread books. hmm.. but new books do have this THING abt them.. this.. feel.. this .. get what i mean?

eh zx..are we still on about the dance thing? and the flea market thingy? aiyo. we need to put our exciting holiday plans into action.

book worm

bright saturday afternoon! still havent got much of a clue what i'm gonna do today. parents abroad, sis off to church..home alone with my maid.. hmm what do i feel most like doing now.. swimming and suntanning!! but i have a lack of common enthusiasts for companionship.. hmm i wouldnt mind staying at home and read my book.. i've become a real bookworm lately. just finished tony parson's man and wife recently.. an interesting book, thought provoking, talking about a divorced man who remarried, how he dealt with his step daughter, his son from his previous marriage.. about his insecurities, infidelity..

"Kazumi's great. But the world is full of great women. That's what romantic fools like you never admit. There are a million great women out there. Ten million. You could be in love with any one of them. Given the right curcumstances, given timing. Sooner or later you ahve to stop tormenting yourself with the thought that there's just one out there with your name on. You have to be happy with waht you've got. You have to love the one you're with. You have to say - this is my home now, this is my wife, and this is where I'm staying. Stop looking, Harry. Just stop looking, will you?"

More relevant for married men.. still.. it makes sense.. the book makes loads of sense.

2nd book i've started on but havent completed. it's called my bloody life. recommanded by my dear sister. about how this puerto ricon kid was subjected to child abuse by his step fathers, and he entering the world of gangs, drugs, alcohol and sex. not that fantastic to me, but my sis finds it saddening. i find it.. commonplace.. familiar..

okie third book, the current one i'm reading now is sushi for beginners, by marian keyes. dont you think the title is damn cute? the book has nothing to do with sushi.. i'm a little puzzled why the author named it that. oh well maybe the truth will reveal itself, i'm midway through the book. marian keyes is currently my fav author. haha. her stories revolve around modern women and their everyday lives, relationships, careers, men. they are light hearted, funny and witty. nothing too strong or asserting.

lala..sorry for those who dont read.. ahah..it's YOUR LOSS.. missing out on the good books..

to eiffel tower in paris..
sakura in japan..
water streets of venice..
beautiful beaches of hawaii..
shopping paradise hongkong..
romancing in rome..
to london to barcelona to new york..
to so many so many places in the world..

i just want to be there with you.

my bf had a bball match at the indoor stadium yesterday.. took many pics for him while he was playing.. although he kept complaining the pics were very blur.. :p too muchieeeeeee...

indoor stadium

sexy cheerleaders