huggies

cutsie

wo de zhe yi tian

anyway my day consists of going to the employment agency to sign contract for the exhibition. pay not as good as the previous one, but still..something is always better than nothing. oh yes thanks to zx, we got lost in the business district for close to 45 mins, walking under the hot scorching sun, sweating like mad, asked 3 people for directions, before we finally got to the agency. ok lar be fair, as much my fault as hers. i've been there before too. haha.

then we went scotts to have lunch. ba cuo mee and mango pudding for me. yi cum ban mian and soursop with LIME for zx. then shopping we went at far east. damn. so MUCH temptations. took every ounce of my energy to resist trying on outfits and buying stuff. especially those shining earrings! they look so elegant. sheesh. i think i must go back someday to buy them. lala. in the end my shopping list only consists of a pair of boxers for my dear, and a pair of huge round earrings for myself. $3.50 only..


spongebox and squarepants..cute right??


plain earrings

next was california fitness. lala. and then home sweet home. oh there was some singing competition held at youth park and cine. kpo me stood to watch 2 people sang.. a girl sang ting bu dao by liang jing ru. OK lar. she had a lot of supporters though. another guy sang shi jie mo ri by xin yue duan. gooood.. he was goood...

be angry will ya!

something zixuan said today struck me, and stuck by me until now. she said i'm a boh chup person by nature. doesnt mean i dont care about my family, my friends, my bf, my future, my studies..hmm ok i'm boh chup abt my studies.. anyway you get what i mean? i do care about the BIG and essential things in life, but i'm mostly unconcerned about small minor details that i feel arent important enough for me to place my attention on.

good and bad.

good cos..less wrinkles next time? you lost my top, yes i'll be miffed, but i can always buy another one. you scold me a goondu head, fine i'll be seething at first, but i know i'm good, so who cares what you think. you laugh at my ignorance, i admit i can be ignorant about certain affairs, but who knows everything. you hate my dress sense, but what the hell, i wear what i like! you're late for an hour, angry yes, but lost time is time lost, no point brooding over it, so why not get over it. you betrayed me, but hatred shortens my life, so i choose longevity over exuding negative energy. you insult me, let you say what you want lar, cant be bothered.

i thought i was being kuan rong da liang, haha, but others who dont know me as well mistaken it as nonchalence.

bad cos..yeah some people think i just dont care. it's weird. sometimes people are angry with me because they think i should be angry over the injustice done to me but the fact is..i'm not bothered by it? sorry? is it my fault that some things just dont bother me as much as you think they should? i mean.. come on.. get on with life. i cant pretend i'm angry when i'm not. everything you do, everything you say, it's ok..things pass..unless it gets unbearably annoying and out of hand.. when the bomb explodes, i'll give you a tight slap.

ok. this is getting weirder by the sec you must think. just the previous entry i was talking about how angry i was. haha. n now i'm talking about having a problem being angry. what is MY problem?

the problem is, sometimes you expect the people around you to be LIKE you. is it just a prob w me? or w most people in general? for example, when someone loses my top, i wont deem it as a big deal. vice versa, when i lose someone's top, i'll expect that person to take it as easy as i did. but if that person flares up and refuses to talk to me for days, i'll start thinking.."why is she so petty... it's just a top.. not like i really scolded her when she lost mine?". you get really angry when i was late for 10 mins.. "i didnt even complain when she was late for an hour, so why is she whinning like a sick kitten (wanted to say dog but it sounds crude) just cos i'm late for 10 mins??"

get what i mean. just random analogies, to make my point. do you term that as double standards? sth negative and morally incorrect. or is it just wrong to impose your standards on other people?

is pettiness really pettiness.. or is it just.. a difference in view points? something you deem as unimportant might weigh differently in the eyes of another.

have you lost you somewhere...

I ABSOLUTELY CANT STAND IT WHEN PPLE REFUSE TO LISTEN TO ME.

hey to understand a person, takes listening doesnt it. when you feel you dont agree with something, you voice out your opinions, and then the other party brings out his. then both of you seek to understand each other, see things from each other's point of view. come to a compromise. if you realised you're wrong, then you apologise. or perhaps you just never see things from that perspective before. that's how communication takes place. not you say your piece, when the other party starts talking, then you assumed everything she said is crap, and do the disappearing act. "everything she says is crap and i cant be bothered to listen or talk to her." problems dont solve themselves.

my mum told me that we should have big hearts. be da fang. and not argue over teensy-weensy things.

i'm fuming.

me cutting our photos

dear sleeping like a pig

blahs

i watched starwars and bought a book today! i never ever buy books.. always thought buying books is a waste of money since most likely i'm only gonna read them once. but that book was like calling at me.. urging me to purchase it.. hahaa.. anyway i've mentioned it before, it's called diary of a manhatten call-girl by tracy quan. i know. it sounds bimbotic doesnt it. suits my mood these days. i've become addicted to this sort of books. anyway it's not actually that bad, it's said to be in the making into a tv series.. by the same creator of sex in the city.. so ya.. it's gonna be a hit one day.. haha. guess what..the first few pages of the book talks about a threesome..



anyway i've got confirmation on another job again! working at another exhibition held at expo from 14-17. there's actually a 3 days' training programe for us! promoting handphones for this very famous telecommunications company from japan. hope the pay is good.

every girl's dream

so which girl wouldnt like to posess beautiful clothes, carry designer bags, matching accessories, don daunting stilettoes, look all pretty and glamourous every sec, have all the money in the world to indulge in unlimited pedis and manis, spas, facials, money to shop till you drop, brains to impress upon others that she is not just another bimbo, enough wit to retort all crititisms from cynics.

just fantasizing..come to think of it..sometimes all these things just dont matter as much anymore..

the five people you would meet in heaven (assuming you go to heaven)

just finished reading the five people you meet in heave by mitch albom. great book. finished it in a day.

lessons learnt:
1. all lives intersect. different stories from different perspectives can mean very different endings.

"the human spirit knows, deep down that all lives intersect. death doesnt just take away someone, it misses someone else, n in that small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed"

2. sacrifices are not necessarily something to regret about, rather you're just passing the blessing to someone else.

3. what it seems, is rarely what it is. there is a story behind everyone unknown to others. hatred harms not those you hate, but those who hate. make peace with yourself.

4. love never cease to exist..even when the person dies.. it just takes on another form. lost love is still love...

5. everyone exists for a reason.. dont ever think you dont belong to this world.. that you dont fit in.. that your existence is redundant..

"i was sad because i didnt do anything with my life. i was nothing. i accomplished nothing. i was lost. i felt like i wasnt supposed to be there"

"children.. you keep them safe.. you make good for me.. is where you're supposed to be.."

death is not an ending, but a beginning. understand what has happened, why it happened.. understand your life.. the meaning of your existence, make peace with your life, and you're in heaven.

nicey day~

had a nice day! miracle! dear actually suggested for the first time in history that we go taka earlier, before his training, to eat! haha it's a miracle cos i'm depriving him of his favourite pastime, which is sleeping.. :p i'm not an easy gf.. i absolutely cant stand staying at home, slacking around.. makes me feel that i'm wasting my precious youth and time.. i always want to go out.. anywhere.. and do SOMETHING, anything.. even when there's nothing to do, or when i'm totally penniless. nonetheless of course once in a while i appreaciate spending a quiet afternoon at home, lazing around..

anyway we went taka, bought some food and ate. :)


dear's food..soaked in chilli..he was crying for water after that. HAH.


MY food..fried noodles wrapped in omlette with ketchup

after that i met up with shuwen. whoa the last time i actaully really really talked to her was when we went clubbing at chinablack. that was like.. in sept last year? soo long. was nice to meet up and catch up after so long. went shopping. mango, zara, guess, fcuk, warehouse, topshop, forever 21. and guess what!! i didnt buy anything!! 2nd miracle of the day. i really got to control my spending. cant go on like that.

daming joined us for dinner. had a good long chat. it felt so good just sitting there, and talking.. really.. so nothing spectacular did happen.. it's a plain ordinary sunny day.. but i feel gooood~

i'm tired, and i'm irritated. that's the worse combination that can ever exist. i can be quite the insolent and impudent horrible girl when such mood fall upon me. i just cant be bothered about anything and anyone or how anyone thinks about me. grrr..

been a real junkie lately. munching pringles potato chips (new flavour: tomato salsa..ok lar..not THAT tasty..but still got standard lar), bags of calbee, nuts coated with sugar, those they sell at cinemas? bought one of that and got scolded my bf..(zzz)..i'm becoming heaty again.. lips are red again.. AGAIN. oh ya dun forget my ba kua.. oooh i love them.. yum yum.. shall go n grab a few bites of it now..

the animal kingdom..

my dear, being the animal lover, came up with the crazy idea to go night safari today. surprisingly crowded today! eh no pics of animals to show, cos photography with flash is not allowed, and without flash, you cant catch anything.


here we come!!

structures from the chingay..placed at night safari for temporary viewing.




hold my hand and be my witness..

moozie pooziee

ooh la la

ready..set...pose!


madagascar

moo moo moooo..

"when i get old i want to look back at my life and know it was a worthwhile one." got this from the new book i'm currently on now. it's those typical rags to riches story of a pretty, intelligent, compassionate girl born in the slums of london, rising from poverty to forge a new life in new york. oh ya the book is called never look back, by lesley pearse. hmm mm.. never look back.. how apt.. my philosophy in life. guo le jiu suan le, why must harp on old blood. one day you gonna die, and everything wont matter anymore. what if you realise you're going to die tmr? are you still gonna dwell on small stupid trival minute insignificant affairs? hmm..

been to a lot of interviews lately. it amuses me to hear what people think of me sometimes. because what they think of me doesnt seem to be what i thought myself to be. either i've changed, or i've learnt the art of putting up a facade, presenting what the world wants to see. maybe i've become two faced unknowingly. ok i'm making this whole situation sounds a tad too serious. no everything is fine, i'm still me. lala..

blogs were supposed to be online personal journals ya. but recently they have caused such a brouhaha in singapore. hardly personal anymore.. crap. blogs are pretendious. you write what you want others to read. and the real real thoughts and feelings?? still inside the mind!! the safest place.

yawns. i'm not making much sense am i. i want to go on a holiday.

room makeover

the long weekend has been uneventful, majority of time spent with my dear, since he finally has no training to rush off to. spent the weekend packing his million and one jerseys and pants, upsetting piles of dust and sneezing from them, dismantling the double decked bed and replacing it with a nice comfy super single bed.. made a trip to ikea, bought nice pictures to hang on the wall, romantic candles, soft lights (urps not very soft actually, the $3 spotlight we bought turned out to be super powerful), nice quilt cover and pillow case, a $4 pillow which feels as if u're sleeping on nothing (dun BUY it, unless it's for decorative purposes)...what else.. and we walked from carrefour (the furthest end of suntec) all the way thru citylink to raffles city just to look for a CLOCK. in the end we found a satisfactory one at raffles city, at the most unexpected place, B1, which mostly consists of foodstalls.. we got a nice cute round cushiony clock. anyway his room had a complete makeover.. a great improvement!!

bookie

just finished reading this book Bergdorf blondes by plum sykes. totally bimbiotic. i really must stop reading such books, i'm afraid i might start acting like those girls in the books. in fact there have been evidence of such totally horrendous transformtion. the girls in the books talk about nothing but the latest fashion, designer clothes, cute and important guys, see and be seen, attending the most glamorous parties with movie stars and directors, going out with princes of god-knows-where, flying on private jet planes.. it's high life definitely. a tad exaggerating and far fetched for common people like us. wonder where all the money come from. but i guess since someone can write a story like that, it must exist. paris hilton world.

my little fantasy..

anyway was just fantasizing just now. was bone tired after i came back from california fitness..just dropped dead on my sofa.. how nice it would be to have a own cosy little apartment with my loved one, that i can decorate it all by myself according to my liking.. then after work come home, enjoy a hot bubbly bath, sip on wine, play soothing music at the background.. after that put on bath robe and wear comfy slippers.. awww...

people are always saying "next time i'll earn a lot of money, then i can go travel around the world.." blah blah that kind of thing.. yea true money seem to be the root to everything.. but y0u dont really have to earn THAT much to travel right.. not like you would want to travel for one full yr or sth? hmm ok..actually can ahh hahaa.. but still.. that isn't the norm.. anyway my point is that a couple can just earn enough.. and go for short trips tgr.. and still be happy.. tgr.. as long as you're happy.. that's enough isnt it..

happy happy day..

work was boring. so i shall not talk about it. glad it's over. will finally get to enjoy the fruits of my labour after i get my pay! anyway met up with dearie after work..finally..so happieeee...:)

first we went ps..spotlight..


yan can cook, so can ym (haha..like real..)


dont you think this is nice?? although dear thinks it's childish.. cos it has the word LIPSTICK written on it..still..it's cute..

Dinner at fish and co at glasshouse..lovehouse..whatever you call it. i love fish and co!





what to eat what to eat..pondering over menu..


whoo appetitizing seafood platter for two..we were bloated after that..


guitaring and singing, never knew fish n co had a band until today..


goodie goodie food..the view behind makes it seems like we are on the very top floor of a high building..overlooking the city....the lights of the city..pretty eh? use your imagination!

lastly we went spinelli, met up with some of his friends to celebrate his birthday..


oreo cheesecake..happy 22nd birthday my dear!!

make a wish

blurry blurry me

dear..finally gonna see you after one long and tough week.. whee~~

itchy teeth

wondering what i'm gonna do after i graduate.. my future is in a mist..

day at work

nothing much to blog actually. but i just feel like blogging. started off as another boring day at expo. struggled to get out of bed early in the morning. heavy eyes. smeared somelliquid foundation on my face, a few smacks of blusher, mascara and that's it. no eyeshadow, no eyeliner, no lipstick. cant be bothered. i would rather not apply any if i can. but make up is essential for the job. more professional. the purpose of make up isnt to just enhance one's beauty, it's an symbol of professionalism too. but i was really too sleepy in the morning..

work was fine as usual. thin crowd. one funny incident was that this indian ship officer tried to pick us up. he came over, sat at the counter, asked for coke. started asking us who we are, studying where, studying what... "do you like indians?" "are you chinese?" (like how duh, we were even wearing name tags.) "what time u finish work?" "want to meet me after that?" ....!!!! zzzz... "oh no, we have bfs already. she is married." zzzz wanting said i'm married. thanks ah. haha. that guy is desperate lar.

met daniel. havent seen him for quite a while and probably wont see him for quite some time.. met up after work. went off to town for dinner. caught up on each other's life.

hey guy, realised we are the only 2 from sports camp who still really seriously keep in contact ya? im glad so.. cos at least i really gained a friend from the sports camp.. besides all those nice memories of the camp.. heh.. anyway i guess i wont be able to see u often, since now you're in navy, and u'll be on the sea most of the time, and when sch starts i'll be staying in sch n studying. soo want to tell you to take care..... sleep more lar. dun just whole day online manz. haha. okok like a bit pot calling the kettle black. yeah take care, dun forget abt it oki. keep in touch. n thanks thanks thanks for everything you've done for me. fixing my com, reformatting it, editing the pic for blog, helping me bid for modules at the start of the yr, lending me OC.. -sob sob- haha i'll see ya soon... :)


me and daniel on the escalator..

dogtired..

i'm tired. there are blisters on my toes cos i've been on my heels the entire day. my arms are aching from yesterday's workout. i havent been exercising for too long. my lips are still as dry as desert. n to think i drank like 7-8 bottles of mineral water today n it still didnt get better!! i know i had a lot of free time today to drink water.

my job today was to stand around and serve drinks. "good afternoon sir! any drinks for you? coffee or tea? beer?". yesh the company i was working for serves free tiger beer. after 5pm it seems like there was a social gathering at our booth. all the executives and exhibitors from other companies came and drank with the engineers from the company i'm working for. it was a maritime exhibition. men in navy uniforms, professionals in suits, old men, many foreigners. exhibition not opened to public, only to trade visitors and professionals. it was boring, but at least there is a girl to accompany me. she is from nus too. realised it's a damn small world. we happened to have many common friends. n yes i'm paid to do nothing, so it wasnt that bad.

the engineers were asking me about my course. life scis. everyone seemed to think it's an industry that has lots of prospects. oh haha they said the 2 industries are promising now are.. life sci and..CASINO course. haha damn funny. if only there is a casino course, i will take that over life sci anytime man. ok. crapping. maybe life sci isnt that bad after all sia? i can be a scientist right? scientist miss tay yiming. dr tay yiming. "dr tay, your DNA samples are ready." "dr tay, i've streaked your bacteria colonies" "dr tay, you left the tubes in the wrong slot for the mass spec!" "dr tay, you forgot to dilate the samples! re-do the titration results!"

oh man. it's getting at me. i'm going crazy.

ok better sign off before i start sprouting nonsense again.

just another day

tired. not exactly physically very tired, just feel as if my arms are going to drop. just feel like lying on the couch and never having to get up. running around singapore today, playing amazing race, getting stuff done, since i know i'll probably be busy for the rest of the week. felt HORRIBLE this morning. sore throat, feverish, dry lips. swallowed a few panadols and feeling much better now.

signed up at california fitness today. the first thing i did was 10 mins on this machine called lifefitness. involves moving your legs in a semi circle motion. eh dun want to go into details. i got tired after 10 mins..10 mins!! oh man! has my fitness dropped so much?? the worse is after that i felt like puking. i was looking as pale as a ghost, with ruby red lips. i concluded i was really ill.

despite feeling so awful, i was coaxed into attending my first bodycombat class by bangzhi. it's similar to the kickboxing classes i've attended at amore before i entered nus. lots of shouting, jumping, punching.. it was fun.. n i dismissed the previous incident as an isolated one.. cos i survived thru the class unscathed. hah.

boring night ahead.

unreasonable demands..

am i not understanding? am i unreasonable? am i ridiculous? petty? i never thought i was all of that. i've always prided myself as someone who looks at the big picture, who see things from a logical and rational point of view, and not clouded by my own overwhelming emotions. i have my unreasonable moments, who doesnt..esp when hormones are on their full rage.. but there's no excuse.. when i'm unreasonable, and i realise i'm being stupid, i think i do have the sense to swallow my pride and apologise. but am i always wrong.. will ya put yourself in my shoe sometimes..

i do give in, dont i.. a friend of mine once said,"it's always like that, sometimes you feel as if you're giving in but the other party doesnt think so." another one said,"sometimes the other party is giving in, just that you realise it." so which side of the river am i stepping on now? dont i make effort to make up when you're angry.. dont i have the right be angry too.. or am i just being ridiculous and petty and uncaring.. all over again..

i'm just a girl.. so tell me which girl on earth wont like to have someone to placate her once in a while..

i've this phobia, that when the going gets tough, one party just want to take the easy way out and back off..

babbling..

turned out to be a not so bad day after all. :) got confirmation that i'll be working at the expo from 17th to 20th next week. some exhibition thingy. not even sure of the details myself. not particularly excited about it.. 1. expo is REALLY far from my place. 2. exhibitions can be real boring. really depends on the theme of the exhibiton. 3. the hours are gross. 10-6pm. ok, normal office hours. but i'm someone who absolutely cant stand working for 8 hours straight, unless the job is superbly engaging and exciting. blame it on my amazingly short attention span.

andre teo..remember to confirm with me about starwars ya. probably hard to catch it with you since you horrible starwars fan would probably want to catch it the moment it can be caught. ok that sounded weird. whatever.

oh back to my exhibition thingy. the only good thing about it is that the pay is good. i'm all in for the money. desperately in need of cash after spending $100 on clothes. overspending is a girl's forte, especially one who loves to shop. i realised i'm weird. i enjoy window shopping as much as shopping. most people wouldnt like to shop when they are penniless. but i dun even mind just LOOKING at them, even though i know i cant afford them. in fact i think i enjoy window shopping/shopping alone, rather than drag my bf along with me. makes me stressed, pressurised, to see a bored bf with the words "i-cant-wait-to-get-out-of-here" stamped on his face. haha. but kudos to all the 'hims' out there who are able to withstand their gfs' shopping crazes..

oh saw this book at kino today.."diary of a manhatten call girl". looks interesting. it was at the new arrivals section..near the entrance.. would have bought it if i have extra cash to spare. but anyway, i dont buy books. why buy books when there is the library? when you possibly only read it once? and then leave it on your shelf collecting dust? there are so many books to read that i think it's unlikely for one to reread books. hmm.. but new books do have this THING abt them.. this.. feel.. this .. get what i mean?

eh zx..are we still on about the dance thing? and the flea market thingy? aiyo. we need to put our exciting holiday plans into action.

book worm

bright saturday afternoon! still havent got much of a clue what i'm gonna do today. parents abroad, sis off to church..home alone with my maid.. hmm what do i feel most like doing now.. swimming and suntanning!! but i have a lack of common enthusiasts for companionship.. hmm i wouldnt mind staying at home and read my book.. i've become a real bookworm lately. just finished tony parson's man and wife recently.. an interesting book, thought provoking, talking about a divorced man who remarried, how he dealt with his step daughter, his son from his previous marriage.. about his insecurities, infidelity..

"Kazumi's great. But the world is full of great women. That's what romantic fools like you never admit. There are a million great women out there. Ten million. You could be in love with any one of them. Given the right curcumstances, given timing. Sooner or later you ahve to stop tormenting yourself with the thought that there's just one out there with your name on. You have to be happy with waht you've got. You have to love the one you're with. You have to say - this is my home now, this is my wife, and this is where I'm staying. Stop looking, Harry. Just stop looking, will you?"

More relevant for married men.. still.. it makes sense.. the book makes loads of sense.

2nd book i've started on but havent completed. it's called my bloody life. recommanded by my dear sister. about how this puerto ricon kid was subjected to child abuse by his step fathers, and he entering the world of gangs, drugs, alcohol and sex. not that fantastic to me, but my sis finds it saddening. i find it.. commonplace.. familiar..

okie third book, the current one i'm reading now is sushi for beginners, by marian keyes. dont you think the title is damn cute? the book has nothing to do with sushi.. i'm a little puzzled why the author named it that. oh well maybe the truth will reveal itself, i'm midway through the book. marian keyes is currently my fav author. haha. her stories revolve around modern women and their everyday lives, relationships, careers, men. they are light hearted, funny and witty. nothing too strong or asserting.

lala..sorry for those who dont read.. ahah..it's YOUR LOSS.. missing out on the good books..

to eiffel tower in paris..
sakura in japan..
water streets of venice..
beautiful beaches of hawaii..
shopping paradise hongkong..
romancing in rome..
to london to barcelona to new york..
to so many so many places in the world..

i just want to be there with you.

my bf had a bball match at the indoor stadium yesterday.. took many pics for him while he was playing.. although he kept complaining the pics were very blur.. :p too muchieeeeeee...

indoor stadium

sexy cheerleaders

my bf shooting ball!

team talk

post mortem

feeling pretty tired, but sleep seems to be eluding me. thought of blogging, to dispel my boredom. was thinking of how my first year in nus was spent... am i any different now from the 19 year old, fresh of out jc girl, who entered nus last august.. am i more matured..have my perspectives changed...

i've experienced quite a fair bit. there was sports camp before sch started, hall orientation, the sci pageant at the beginning of last sem, getting accustomed to hall life, making new friends, going berkelah water falls, going shanghai with family. this sem feels relatively shorter..there was mlm, ihg, eusoff pageant..

people have passed and left. some left faint foot prints, some left indelible beautiful memories, some left ugly scars...but whatever it is..they have came and passed..what matters most if the present.

lost some friends, made new ones. does life work like that..gain some lose some..

relationships have been messy affairs. viscous cycle..yes..not all, a few. who starts out a relationship with the intention that it will end in tears.. i'm certainly not so bored till i want to put myself through unnecessary misery. play around? i've passed that stage seriously. n it's impossible for me to play around..because i'll inevitably get emotionally involved.. i just want one, and that's it..and i want that one to have a happy ending.. haiz.. but how many really know how i feel..

me eating $1 ice cream

blue-ie..outside taka..

pinkie

me and dear in jackets..i'm wearing his addidas windbreaker

farewell D210...

officially moved out of my room yesterday. manz i didnt realised how much junk i accumulated in my room in 9 months until yesterday.. took my mum n dad close to 6 or 7 trips from my room to the car, carrying bags and boxes of books, files, clothes, toilertries, soft toys etc.. my radio, my mini-cooler, rug.. i'm gonna miss my room, my own private space for the past 9 months, that big greenie tree outside my room with red flowers, birds chirping outside my window in the morning, memories.. but i wont miss the heat, the dirt, the dust, having to do laundry myself, the occasional visits from idle mosquitoes.. will miss the proximity between me and my hall friend, the "hey let's go from dinner!" and then off we go..and suppers at fong seng.. freedom to go anywhere at night and not worry about mum calling me every other hour to nag..

yesh indeed, i think freedom and privacy is something i gonna miss the most.

now my tiny weeny room at home is like a junkyard. i spent hours last night throwing away bags of stuff in my room. throwing away my A level tbs, tys, notes..blah blah.. anyone wants? i have A LOT. such a pity to throw away something i've once put so much effort in completing. threw away my soft toys also, i've got enough to set up a shop liao lor.. i dont even have enough space to sleep..cos half my bed is occupied with soft toys. no space to do work on my table, cos it's filled with perfumes and..just other small items, like nail polish, hair bands, photo frames, lava lamp, table lamp..eh...

and old clothes as well, to make room for the new ones. haiz. what a waste sia? i need a BIG BIG room to myself. n not one tiny hole shared by me and my sis. what to do... one day lar one day.. maybe when my parents strike lottery, we can all move to a big house n i can have a room to myself. or when i make it big i can buy an apartment for myself n do anything i want with it..

lala..

the taste of freedom...

finally the exams are over! it wasnt tough, it wasnt stressful (yesterday was exception), it was just so damn longggggg....... draggy.... yay now i've all the time in the world to do whatever i want.. must have some meaningful things to do to fill up my time.. 3 months.. shuo chang bu chang, shuo duan bu duan.. lala.. :) hope to clear up some mess in my life that i've created over the past yr.. nus yr that is..

cutsie pooh bear tissue box holder from....the sweetest guy who walked from src to hall in the middle of the night and bought me milo peng n $4 fong seng fried mee. :)

just finished last year stats paper. realised i dont know how to do some of the questions. stressed. stressed. stressed. first time i'm feeling stressed during this exam period. argh. feel like pulling my hair out. been feeding off my junk food. i realised when i'm stressed, i cant stop eating. so freaking frustrating. GRRRRRR.

so exciting!! will be going aussie during the hols to find my bro!! can stay with him and maybe tour aussie a little. and it's winter time.. i just love winter. n the best is it's not the freezing kind of winter, more like a bit colder-than-aircon kind of winter. :) wish i have lots n lots n lots of money, then can go shopping for nice winter clothes.

cant wait for my paper to end tmr..yay~~...

spent $8.25 on junk food today.. so bored that i took pics of them.. they are.....

my lunch!!

..2 packets of potato chips, 1 bottle of green tea, 1 more cup noodle...

...today's newspaper - 80 cents.

give me a award for being the blurrest person on earth..

i didnt even realise my exam was open booked until the very very last min!!! haha luckily i met liwern before going to exam hall.. luckily i stay in eusoff.. had time to run back to my room n get the notes.. manz i'm such a goondu head, could have slack even more if i knew it was open book haha.. oh well.. dont have a good feeling abt the paper.. dont think i'll do very well for it.. :( not that it was very tough.. it wasn't.. just... think i never yong xin and do.. suan le, what is done is done.. one more paper to go!

some pics from jas's blog, couldnt resist putting them on my blog n sharing them with you.. -deranged-

a baby's teardrop

man utd jerseys

lala..

tv confessions

woke up at 11am n started watching discovery travel & living channel until 12.30pm. so interesting.. made me realised how much i've been missing out staying in hall.. in my tiny room where there is nothing except my lappie to accompany me, the only thing i can do is surf the net.. so i chat like 75% of the time when i'm my room.. hmm of course i could study.. but.. ok that's besides the point..

anyway i was watching this program called 'Redesign' from 11 - 12pm. it's about how a few designers revamp this big house, one using the concept of open plan living, which means.. there are basically no walls in the house. just visually and using appropriate furniture to divide the house into areas for dining, living, cooking etc.. pretty cool.. another one revamped this dining area. some things i've learned: cannot paint ur dining room..

1. blue- cos it's a unnatural colour associated with food
2. purple and black - associated with food poisoing
3. green - cannot paint unpleasant green
4. pink and purple - appetite suppressants

best to paint red n yellow - appetite stimulants
or natural colours like brown..

LALALA!

thrn 12-12.30 was citycabs. miami. MIAMI is cool. the host said she felt out of place there because everyone dresses so well, everyone is in such great shape and looks beautiful. i wish we singaporeans are more like americans ya. they are so.. expressive, enthusiastic, spontaneous, talented, unself-conscious, eloquent.. hmm... it's their culture i guess.

things to do after exams:
1. TAN. be tanner even though i know i can never be THAT tanned.
2. SHOPPING. haha. my all time favourite past time.
3. READ. i have lots of great books unread. n oh start reading newspaper too cos i realised i've lost touched with the world ever since i moved into hall..which means.. for close to..10 months..
4. FIND A JOB. financial crisis. need money to support my expenditures.
5. TRAVEL. well.. if it's possible.. i would love to.. haiz..

hmm that's all for now..

the band

indochine bar

carlsberg + my mango margarita

all of us at indochine